novelraw Chapter 108-Promise
Chapter 108-Promise
Phill's POV
I had to do it. I knew how much I was going to suffer after that kiss ended. I didn't want it to end. I didn't want to let go of her hand. I didn't want to see her with anyone else, even if it was my own brother. I knew I was finally letting the dam break. I had been holding back way too long I couldn't do it anymore. I had to let her know.
The moment her taste touched me, I lost track of everything. I lost control of myself. I lost my sense of the place. I kissed her and she let me and I was grateful for that. I was half expecting her to shove me back but she didn't. She held me, held my hand as I took from her what I needed. My life force. She was like an EpiPen bringing me back to life.
" Phill... " She finally mumbled against my lips, her hands on my chest, gently holding them but not pushing. It took way too much of my energy to stop and finally look up at her face. I couldn't read her expression. Was it shock, fear, disgust, sympathy.... I could not understand.
" I had to do that, Lea. But I promise I will never cross the line again.I am sorry" I feared she might run away or just leave. But instead, she smiled,leaned forward and grabbed my hands. " Phill... Have I been pushing you too much? I... I had no idea...I am sorry. " She looked apologetically at me.
Wait! That was not the reaction I was expecting.
" You are one of the best human beings, Phill. Honestly, you are much more likeable and anybody would fall in love with you. Even me... if only my heart didn't beat for Jake.If Jake didn't exist... or if perhaps we would have met first... then maybe... Maybe I would have fallen for you too... " She was mumbling way too many words. None of those words registered with me. I didn't want a speech from her on why we couldn't be. I placed my finger on her lips. I could feel them quiver at my touch.
" Sssshhhh! Lea... you don't need to say anything. I know there is no place for a 'us' in this equation. I know that, alright? " After a pause I let her know. " I will be leaving the country after Kai recovers. "
" Oh! " She looked surprised as she sat up. " When will you be back? " I looked away. " I don't know. I am shifting base. "
" What? " Lea sprung up on her legs. " Why? Where? "
She threw those interrogative words at me almost standing up in protest. " You can't leave us all of a sudden. Is it because of me? Because of how I make you feel? " She looked dejected.
" Lea, calm down. Somebody might hear us. " I said looking behind my shoulder. She had almost screamed. " Phill, please don't leave. Not because of me. Please"
" It's not because of you! " I lied. It was exactly because of her. I knew Jake and Lea would be moving together. I was happy for them but I didn't know if I would be able to bear the pain of seeing them together. Not at the moment. I needed time to get myself together. " I am going for research purpose. It's a long project. Might take me years. "
Lea instantly calmed down. " Oh, I see! " I wheeled away from her, giving her some air to breathe. " Before I go, I have something to ask you. Will you give it to me?" She looked up as I held her gaze. " Tell me, Phill. What do you want? " She asked looking at me.
Damn! I could feel my self restrain waning from the way she stared at me. We were all alone in that room, just the two of us, after a really long time and I could tell, it was a test. A test from the heavens. It was battle field of my conscious and my desires.
All that I wanted at in that moment was to whisk her way, throw her on the bed and get rid of all her clothes. Damn! What the hell was I thinking. The image of her naked body wasn't helping at all. I could feel the blood rush to several tactical parts of my body and might have been visibly flushed.
" Tell me, Phill. What is it that you want? I will give you anything. " She repeated herself but the choice of her words were despicable. " Oh, I want to f*ck you hard on this hospital bed, with you son in the next room even though my brother might walk in any moment. I want to have you for myself. Period. I want to be selfish and run away with you. I want you to forget about everything else. " I literally placed my hands over my mouth to stop myself from uttering those words.
Just then the door of the suite opened and Jake peeked inside. Thank God, he did. It instantly helped me calm down.
" Hi, good morning. How are you all doing? " She asked with a sweet little smile, getting inside and closing the door behind him. He was dressed in the hospital suit because Kai could not afford any risk of contamination at the moment.
I could see Lea's face light up the moment you he entered. "What's going on? Is everything alright? " He asked, looking at our faces and postures. He understood he had barged in the middle of a conversation.
" Yeah! All's good. I was just telling Lea that I would be leaving soon. But before I left I wanted a favour from her. I wanted a promise. " Jake went to sit beside Lea and with a broad smile he replied. " Shoot away. You wish is our command, big boss! "
He no longer had that hostility towards me that he used to have in our earlier days of acquittance. I wondered if it would be the same if he knew tha ti had just kissed the mother of his child, moments ago.
Anyways, I forcibly pulled myself out of that bubble and smiled back. " I want to be Kai's godfather. Promise me nobody else gets that job even if I am not around for awhile. "