My Alleged Husband

Chapter 617 - 596 Gratitude_1

"Enough, what meaning does it have for you to say these words now? Everything has already happened, so why bother coming up with such insincere words? Don’t you think doing this makes everyone look bad? I just want to ask you, since you can’t accept what I’ve said to you, since you can’t accept the things I’ve done or the words I’ve said to you, then why did you betray me? Don’t you know how painful the consequences of betraying me are? Since you’ve never cared about what betraying me might lead to, why should I care about your feelings? You’re always so selfish and self-centered, don’t you know that? Even though you are a commoner, I have never looked down on you—in fact, I admire you even more because you are not swayed by money. You are willing to do everything for your principles, but in the end, I discovered, is it really true?"

In this moment, Ran Zhihan felt how gloomy her world was. It turned out that, in her husband’s heart, no matter how perfectly she acted, he would never believe she was sincere in being with him. If that were so, why did he even bother to be with her? What had all the past affection and sweet moments turned into? Why did everyone see her this way?

"I really don’t understand. If I had already given so much for you, and you had long chosen not to believe me, harboring doubts about me, then why did you choose to be with me? Why choose to marry me and have a child, the embodiment of our love? I thought all the love you showed me over the years was genuine care, but now I realize that it was all an illusion. Perhaps you were deceiving everyone in the world with your affection for me, but actually, you’ve been despising me all along. You think that me, a commoner’s daughter, am not good enough for you, right?"

"If I felt a commoner’s daughter was unfit to live with me, then I would never have chosen to marry you. Since I chose you, it proves that I really did not care whether you were ambitious or not. What matters to me is a person’s character and professional ethics. But now, looking at both your character and your ethics, you are not the right person, because you have betrayed me, betrayed our family. Do you think you have any right to negotiate with a woman who has betrayed her husband? Everyone in the world is treated fairly. You have already done something to hurt me; don’t even think of making me continue to love you. Do you think I will still indulge you like before, disregarding everything for your sake?"

"Since you’ve already put it that way, what can I even say? Maybe this ending was destined from the start, and it was just me foolishly deceiving myself all along. I refuse to believe that you could do such things to me, I refuse to believe that you could say such things to me, but now I understand. It turns out that all of it was nothing more than a fantasy in a dream, far less cruel than reality. But now, I finally realize that no matter how perfect I’ve been, I will never be perfect in your eyes.

I know that people’s hearts are made of flesh and can feel pain; feelings are not a one-way street. Being with you, I believe the time we had was sincere, not just my wishful thinking. But in the end, it was me who broke the balance, me who made things so bad, me who caused your insecurity. I know that everything is cold because of my actions, but can you understand my feelings? Do you know how much my heart aches?

You will never understand what it’s like to silently wait at home for the person next to you in bed, to wait until daybreak without seeing them by your side, and to return to your own bed alone. Do you know how lonely that feels? You haven’t experienced it because you are always working overtime, and I’m always waiting for you at home. Have you ever tried such waiting?

Maybe such waiting is not that important to you, but for a woman, that waiting could cost her half a life. You never consider that all men in the world are actually the same. Always thinking only about yourselves, for the sake of careers, never caring about how much their wives suffer and struggle, how hard every step is. Not one of you considers your wife’s feelings!

Yichen, no matter what, you are still my husband, and I am your wife. When you do things, you never think about my feelings, yet you expect me to consider yours. Then, does everyone in the world really have to do that? You’ve hurt me, and I’ve hurt you. Can’t we just call it even? Why keep fixating on this issue, entangling endlessly? Doesn’t that prevent both of us from ever getting over this hurdle in our hearts?"

Zhang Yichen also wished he could forgive his wife and genuinely continue living with her. But every time he thought about his wife entwined with Chen Gang, it pained him.

She was the woman he longed for, the wife he had cherished for so many years. Just the thought made his heart ache even more intensely. The person he loved the most ended up choosing such a way to take revenge on him, betraying him. If she had chosen to leave him or negotiate with him for some other reason, he would have felt much better. But in the end, it was just the appearance of another man that made her feel insecure.

For a man, that is an unforgivable humiliation.

"Don’t come to me with such words anymore. I believe that one day, you will understand how much pain I’ve gone through. You always say that as a husband, I have not considered your feelings as a wife, but have you ever considered mine? When this happened, you chose not to be honest with me, but to hide it. Do you really think everyone in the world is a fool? Do you really think you can deceive me? There are so many ways for me to investigate, yet you chose the most unreliable one—to conceal it..."