My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1290 - 1119: That’s Just the Kind of Person I Am

Back then, the two of them argued and quarreled over so many things time and time again. What did all those quarrels mean in their eyes? When they realized it was nothing more than their own wishful thinking, that’s when he saw that none of it was the outcome either of them truly wanted, nor the result they should have received. He pondered if in the end, it was worth turning into this version of himself when reflecting on everything from back then.

The father and son once again raised their voices over these issues at home. Actually, neither of them was wrong in this matter. The only mistake was his own overwhelming selfishness, which led to his family being hurt time and time again by his self-serving motives.

"Others can receive their kin’s forgiveness for making mistakes, so why can’t I? I admit I made mistakes, and I know the wrongs I committed are hard for you to forgive and reconcile with, but can’t you forgive me just this once?"

"Once? Have you only made mistakes just this one time? Is this really the only time you are seeking our forgiveness? Ask yourself honestly how many evil deeds you’ve done, how many wrongs you committed that broke the hearts of your family, your own son. But in the end, didn’t we all choose to forgive you anyway? Because we treated you as family, considered you so important. Yet how do you treat us? You are willing to abandon the most important people in your life for your selfish desires. Do you really feel at peace with that in your heart? Does it not cause you any pain? Sometimes, as a father, I truly do not understand. People say a heart is flesh and feels pain, and love should be reciprocal, so why do you make decisions like this? Can a heart feel hurt in these ways? Can emotions turn cold? Every decision you make never considers your family’s feelings. You are always so self-centered. Do you not know that selfishness never results in good outcomes? So why do you insist on choosing this ending?

"Father, since the day I was born, you should have known that my fate was never mine to choose. I failed to meet your expectations by staying to inherit the family business and becoming the most useful person in the world. But my son did it. He surpassed me, even rising above the best, stronger than you by far. He did it. He became the most capable man in the world and married the kindest and most gentle wife on earth."

"Do you now feel proud because your son has achieved so much? But you can never imagine what he had to endure to get there. How hard every step was for him. You’ve never seen it, never experienced it. Every step he took was to prove himself, to show you, his parents, that he was the most capable, to make you regret abandoning him. On the day of his greatest success, you returned, but what you brought was not a warm embrace, not an apology, not even a greeting, but repeated painful injuries. Everything you do always disregards others’ feelings. You think as long as you are happy, it doesn’t matter if others are not, but you never understood how much your family hopes for your happiness. As long as you are happy, it doesn’t matter if we suffer or feel tired. To your family, as long as the ones who matter are safe and happy, that’s enough. In your son’s mind, he doesn’t ask for much love or actions from you as his parents, only hoping that you live happily in this life, even if you never acknowledge him as your son. But how did you treat him? You used his love for you as leverage to hurt him time and time again. Haven’t you hurt him enough?

"Dad, I’m sorry. I truly realize my wrongs now. I know every decision I made was self-serving, never considering the feelings of those I cared about or who loved me. I always thought that as long as I was happy, that was enough. Why should outsiders matter? They can’t even manage their own lives, so they certainly can’t manage mine. But I didn’t realize how deeply my father still loved me, how much my son still cared for me as his biological father, and even my daughter-in-law as well. Yet I did so many things that hurt them. How can I face them with any self-respect? Every action, every decision I made, why did it make them so sad, so heartbroken? Just for my own interests, just due to my excessive demands, did I abandon what I should have protected most?"

"Exactly, you’re so reckless and arrogant in handling matters. Do you even realize that while you feel brazen, there are so many pairs of eyes watching and waiting to see you fall hard? Yet, you never understood how much your family cared, and how you could have taken each step steadily, grounded, rather than arrogantly soaring high on unstable clouds, which only exhausts you more and more. You’ll never return home again in this lifetime; your chance is gone. Recently, your wife has started causing trouble again. I don’t know if it is deliberate, but I hope you’ll thoroughly investigate. If it truly was intentional, then not only your son, but even I as a father will never forgive her again. What she has done is truly unforgivable, once again damaging my heart and even more so affecting the relationship between your son and his wife!"

Zhang Zhentian felt a mix of emotions when he heard his father mention that his wife was causing trouble again. He realized his wife had truly returned. He felt a bit happy yet also a bit sorrowful. Happy because he could finally find his wife, sorrowful perhaps because this incident might mean he no longer had any possibility of being with her.

"Alright, leave the matter to this selfish person to investigate thoroughly. Once I’ve got it all sorted out, you’ll be the first to know. Rest assured, don’t look at me that way—I’m not going to hide anything from you. I won’t do anything like I did before that you’d never forgive, so just trust me!"

"Once, I sacrificed everything and what did I become? Though time and again, it turned into the ending I least wanted to accept in my real life, ultimately, I had no way of preventing it from becoming something I never wanted to witness.

Perhaps they were right; I really am such a selfish, profit-seeking, and numb-hearted person, who can forsake everything for the slightest, petty gains!"