My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1291 - 1120: What Exactly Happened?

Zhang Yichen watched helplessly as everything he cared about had completely changed its appearance. Was this truly the outcome he most desired? Why, when he turned around, did he find that everything was still not as he imagined it would be? Where had his wife wandered off to, and why was the person he wanted most not by his side? He watched helplessly as everything had become what he once despised the most. What was all this for? Just because everything he gave and worked hard for is insignificant in the eyes of others? How much had he given, and who had ever stood in his shoes to consider anything for him?

"Grandfather, do you understand how worried I am right now? My heart is wholly focused on my wife in the poetry. In my heart, nothing is more important than her, yet she is alone in a faraway place. I don’t know if she is doing well alone, if she has eaten well today, or if she has walked far today. How I wish she could have a life that belonged to me. I would rather she recover all memories after losing me, so that she could live happily and joyfully. Now, I don’t know where she is; I just know that I cannot make her the person I truly want deep down. She is lost, she has disappeared. In my life, she can never stand lively in front of me again. Perhaps she has completely forgotten that I sought the new life she should start, while I foolishly wait for her to return to my side."

I don’t blame anyone in the past for all the harm brought upon us, but I hope those harms can also stop. There’s no need for them to reappear in my life over and over. I’m not a saint; I can’t make everyone love me just like they love others. All I can do is live with a clear conscience. Even if such a life makes everyone feel disgusted, I still hope to live openly and honestly. Looking back at all the bits and pieces of the past, was that truly what I wanted? Watching my parents drifting afar, watching my wife disappear before my eyes, seeing my child misunderstanding me time and again, I harbor unspeakable agony, not knowing how to explain any of it."

Two tightly embracing people, at this moment, finally experienced the happiest moment of their lives again. No one could separate them, as anyone who tried to ruin the happiness in their hearts would realize how most important it was for them to decide how to live their lives, and how to journey to the end with the one they love the most.

Every step was extremely difficult. In this world, nothing awaits you; only endless challenges exist. When you overcome all difficulties time and again, you are not far from victory. But if you evade all difficulties again and again, pretending they never happened, you will never grow up in life this way, nor will you obtain what you want. At this moment, they each understood perfectly what kind of life they truly desired.

In the world, there are always partings, and the path one ultimately chooses determines what kinds of hardships one will face in life. No one in the world is perfect, and no one can achieve perfection. Everyone has scars, and for those with scars, the internal pain is without a doubt the most unforgettable pain of their lives.

Maybe after going through so much, at this moment, the embrace they yearned for became the happiest thing. They never hoped for too much, only the simplest and most pure things.

Ran Zhihan clearly understood what kind of consequences her actions would lead to, but she still acted without regret. She knew what price she would pay for all she had gained, and what responsibilities she took on for her actions. She never cared about any of that; she only cared about how to live with the one she loved most in the world.

No one can live in this world without desires. No one can calmly watch as the person they love the most leaves them, while they remain indifferent and ignore it. People like that don’t exist, and they understood that even if such a person existed, it surely would not be them.

"Yichen, I must apologize to you, because my actions have indeed hurt your loving heart. I never thought that one day I would hurt the man I love most with my actions, nor did I expect that my actions would hurt the man I love so deeply!

I regret nothing in my life. The thing I am happiest about is being with you, becoming your wife, and having the crystallization of our love. That is enough for me; I don’t ask for more. I hope we can live the life we want steadily and without interference from anyone breaking our initial tranquility.

I have thought many times about what kind of life I want, and what kind of life I want to have. Now I have finally realized that what I want is merely a simple and peaceful ordinary life. I can be poor, I can live with my husband in a thatched house, I can ignore all the riches and glories of the world, but I cannot ignore the person I love most. What I want, perhaps to others, is too demanding, but it is my most sincere thought. That thought hasn’t changed because of anyone’s interference and will remain unchanged from start to finish. I won’t give up on my original intention for anyone’s words!"

"Zhihan, how could I not know? How could I not understand the kind of life you aspire to? Don’t forget we are married; we’ve been through so much together. I can’t just forget all of that in a few words. Do you know how happy and joyful I have felt being with you? I’ve never been happier and more content. Being with you every moment is the happiest moment of my life. No matter what you say or do, you are always flawless in my heart!

You don’t need to apologize to me; I should be the one apologizing to you. Do you know that my actions indeed made you very uncomfortable, especially the words I said to you, which really hurt you? I’ve never intended to hurt you like that, but I had no choice. I chose my path in life, and no matter what, I have to walk it to the end. Each person holds their own love in their heart, and I can give everything for the one I love.

At the same time, I am not a saint. I can’t repeatedly give my heart to others. What I truly want is the same as you, just a peaceful and quiet life. Such a life is too luxurious for me, especially in our wealthy family!

I hope you believe me. As long as it’s what you want, I will give everything to share with you what you desire. I’m not that kind of person; what I want is only to live peacefully with you. Everything else means nothing to me as long as you are by my side."

"Then let’s return to the way things originally were, shall we? Let’s not let anyone disturb the happiness we deserve. Saying such things may seem irresponsible, but do you know how much I long to hold hands with you, to create our most joyous future together? No one considered my inner thoughts, nor did anyone care about my inner pain.

How happy we would be if everything could return to the original state?

Everyone has a heart of longing; no one can abandon what they truly believe in. I won’t force you to do what you don’t want to do, but I also hope you respect my wishes. The most important thing between a couple is mutual understanding, mutual trust, and mutual respect. Without even the basic respect, what’s the significance even if two people live together?

Now, I don’t want anything; I just want everything to go back to the beginning. That is enough for me. I’m not a greedy person; as long as my life can return to the way it was, I will be deeply grateful!"

In the end, what one cares about still leaves oneself...