My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1289 - 1118: Unchanging

Zhang Ni knew nothing at the beginning, but in the end, he still made a decision that he wouldn’t regret.

He just never imagined his family would turn out like this.

Although Zhang Ni didn’t understand, he didn’t know why his father suddenly said these words to him today; deep down he felt inexplicably nervous. He was also afraid, fearing that the fate of finding a girlfriend and bringing her home to meet his parents would end up just like his parents. He was afraid of repeating the same mistakes.

"Dad, right now you have no reason, no meaning at all to tell me these things. In my eyes, I just want to walk my own path peacefully. Just like you said, everyone’s life is a pre-paved path. I step onto the one you arranged for me, and you may not find it tedious, but to me, it’s a form of harm. I feel like my life is controlled by you over and over again. I just want to walk my own path once, even if it’s a difficult journey. Though I’ve never had a path to happiness with you, deep down, for me, it’s a happiness, a joy, a beauty!"

I don’t want to live my entire life under the constraints of my family. I also don’t want to spend my whole life living for my family!

In the past, because of my grandparents, I lived for them. At that moment, I felt my life’s goals were all about showing them my worth. But gradually, I realized that the decisions I made were hugely mistaken.

I lived for everyone in the family, but in fact, I found that even if I did, not everyone in the family treated me sincerely. I repeatedly pushed myself to a dead-end. I thought every decision I made was correct, but in the end, it turned out not to be a right principle.

Because I realized that, even for the whole world, I’d sacrifice everything; in their eyes, I was nothing.

Watching all the pain being submerged, who knew how much anguish and exhaustion I truly felt? I reached the end, time and again, only to find that every path I took was wrong. Not a single person considered my perspective, not even in the slightest. I placed all my hopes on this path I chose, yet, in the end, it proved to be a dead-end. Choosing this path meant I had no other way to look back at each instance of being hurt. What did it all achieve, and what conclusion was reached? It was merely family members hurting me repeatedly."

"You must understand that what I’m telling you today isn’t to teach you a lesson or hope you avoid making mistakes like I did. Knowing what’s ahead, I still chose to go forward, and with that mindset, life becomes exhausting and painful. Do you really want such a tormented life? As your father, I only wish for you to have a better life. I won’t choose to hurt you.

Through the years, I know what hardships you encountered on your path. I’ve seen the efforts you made, how hard it’s been. When you chose this path, the ending had already been decided. However, you still walked it unhesitatingly, meaning you were prepared to face everything. So why oppose it with your current attitude?

In truth, this path was to prove yourself, and now you’ve proven it, you’ve announced to the world that you’re the best. You resembled me back then. Seeing you today, I’m gratified. I won’t ask for more changes like before. Everyone has their own path to take, and you can’t keep altering who you are just because of others’ opinions. This would only make life hard and exhausting. How could I bear watching my child suffer and struggle?

Sometimes I wonder why I resolutely chose my path. Even knowing how arduous it would be, I still did it to avoid being heartlessly abandoned by my parents’ choice. Although I was likable then, deserving of such a cold decision, they seemed indifferent when they threw me away. My heart became filled with hatred towards them; expressing myself was also expressing that hate. I wanted to use it to strengthen myself, to become unyielding, so no one could belittle or disregard me. I wanted everyone to know, when I decided, I was already the strongest. But now I realize not every action was right.

Even when expressing hatred, I hurt them, drove them out, rejected them. Deep down, don’t I care at all? They’re still my parents, with bonds that never break. Watching their pleading gaze directed at me and Grandpa, can you imagine how conflicted I felt then? I wanted them to stay, but I couldn’t speak out. They had to face the consequences and understand the errors of their choices. Even if the path ahead is rough, they must complete it, even if crawling to the end!"

I’ve always believed that as long as I worked hard, one day I’d achieve my desires and attain the outcome I wanted.