My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1145 - 1005: Ran Zhihan Goes Missing

"Dad and Mom, no matter when or where, I hope you remember every word you said to me today; this serves as a promise to me!

If one day you break your promise again, choose to leave home, and abandon me, I will never give you another chance. The harm you’ve caused me is not small, and the impact it’s had on me is immense.

I never thought I would become this way one day. I used to think everything I wanted was perfect, but gradually I realized that this wasn’t what I truly wanted.

Watching everything I once desired turn into a marriage before my eyes, at that moment, who could decide for me the choices deep in my heart? Who could know which path I should take next?

Back then, if you hadn’t chosen to leave this family, hadn’t chosen to abandon me for the sake of your so-called better life, I’ve pictured this scene countless times in my mind. It’s terrifying to think about; at that moment, why were you so heartless, what drove you to make such a decision? In your eyes, were Grandpa and Grandma really not fit to be your family? In your eyes, do we really mean so little to you? Do we not hold even a shred of value in your heart?

Perhaps, in your eyes, I truly am not worthy of being your family, because in your heart, I was never a part of it. I really don’t know why you left so heartlessly back then. What did you gain from leaving me behind? Was it that so-called freedom and happiness, or the joyful life you were pursuing? Which one did you get?

Actually, you gained nothing, yet you made such a resolute choice. All you wanted was a bit of self-respect, wasn’t it? Indeed, by doing so, you refused to be bound by family, but you forgot that home is the warmest harbor, the lifelong support for a person. By abandoning your harbor and support entirely, have you not thought that one day it might be hard to return to this big family? Over the years, Grandpa sacrificed so much to save the family’s livelihood; who understands the effort he put in? Have you ever considered standing in his shoes?

If one day you could see all that your family has given, you might understand how difficult everyone’s life actually is. You never cared how each family member was living; the happiness and joyful life you were chasing were built on others’ sacrifices. You never considered others’ perspectives, and maybe everyone should walk their own path. Every step leaves a footprint; why grind others’ hopes beneath your feet? You’ve turned others’ kindness to you into nothing but emptiness.

Just a little less selfishness, a little more consideration for any family member, and if everyone genuinely shows a bit more affection towards their family, the conclusion would be vastly different. But have you ever thought about what kind of ending you wanted repeatedly? Have you thought about the impact and harm your decisions brought to your family? All along, we worried silently for your wellbeing while you lived happily outside. We worried if you had a place to stay, if you were full, if you were happy, if you ever thought of us at home?"

Xia Jing was moved by his son’s words today, a chord in the depths of his heart was struck. He had always been waiting for someone to say something touching, to make his heart skip a beat, and now that moment finally arrived. It wasn’t his spouse but the child he abandoned years ago, and he couldn’t fathom how his past actions led to this.

"My child, I’ve waited for so many years for something that truly touches the heart, I never expected these words would come from you. I also never thought you would be the one to give me such a shock. I thought it would be my husband who would give me this feeling, but he never did. I don’t know if it was because I loved him too madly before, or if I was just dazed by the heat of the moment, choosing to spend my life with him, but in the end, everything turned out to be so far from my ideal.

If I could live again, I wouldn’t choose this path back then.

Seeing my once happiest family turn into this, as a woman, how could I remain indifferent? I thought about what I truly wanted, but I never imagined it would turn out like this. I once thought that by giving my all, I could get the happiness and freedom I wanted, but now I’ve gotten nothing. I lost my happy home, the freedom I yearned for, the joy I once believed in. All I have left is sorrow and lonely memories. I don’t know how I got through those years, and how many times I awoke from nightmares. I know I’m scared, and I know I was wrong. I’ve hurt you all, but I have no face to beg for your forgiveness."

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Just as Zhang Yichen was about to speak, the hospital called him. He finally learned that his wife had disappeared. At that moment, he panicked. He never expected a problem to arise at that time. Despite having arranged many people to look after her, why did the same thing happen again?