My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1144 - 1004: Never Leaving

Zhang Zhentian could understand the feelings his son had at the time. He could also understand the care and love his own father had for his son. He had deeply experienced the feeling of having hope in his heart, only for it to gradually turn into despair, and how painful that process was. It was a long process, filled with torment and unbearable pain, more than anyone else, he knew it well. He had gone through it all, yet who would have thought that his child would eventually experience the same thing, only this time it was he who caused it.

He now felt deep down more and more like a failure as a father, never giving his child any bit of comfort or happiness, always only harm, and it was harm he had given with his own hands. He never thought about how difficult his son’s feelings were at the time. Perhaps if he had been more empathetic, he might not have made such impulsive decisions, distancing himself from his family, from his father and his child, making a once complete and happy family end up in this state.

"Yichen, I’m sorry, Dad is truly sorry. Why did I make such decisions in the past to hurt you? Why did I choose to treat you in such a way time and again, when you are so kind and loving to this family?

Yet, as a father, I should have stayed by your side, accompanying you as you grew, caring for you, but I failed to do anything. All I’ve brought you is harm and nothing else.

Now I realize why you hated me so much back then, it’s understandable. Who can blame you when I did so many things to hurt you, making you become this way again and again? I regret it. I regret every decision I made in the past. I regret the harm I caused you. If I could really turn back time, I would stay in this family at any cost. Even if it means death, I wouldn’t take a step away from this home!"

Zhang Yichen now didn’t want to pursue any blame or figure out who was right or wrong. He only wished his family could live happily and completely from now on, without any more arguments over anything. Such a life was suffocating, he had experienced it, and he didn’t want to go through it again. If he continued to live like before, what was the purpose of living now?

Zhang Yichen shook his head and said to his father, "None of this matters anymore. Since you’ve made the decision and are determined to return to this family, I have no reason to hold on to your past actions. But I hope you will clearly remember every word you said today. I want you to know that the harm Manager Chen caused me will never be forgotten. But I don’t pursue it because I see you as family. I hope our family can live peacefully. If we use other ways to solve problems, our family will never see a day of happiness.

Perhaps you find my words a bit harsh, or my actions a bit extreme, but that’s just my character. I can’t change myself. I once did a lot to prove to you all that I am the strongest. You know I’ve worked step by step to get here, which wasn’t easy. I am proud of my achievements, achieving all of this without relying on anyone. What I’ve accomplished today, leaving others in the dust, is my greatest success.

You are my mom and dad. Since you’ve decided to come back, don’t think about leaving again. If you still think about leaving this family after coming back this time, then I will never let you in again. I’ve given you chance after chance to mend your ways, but you chose to hurt me again and again. How do you really see me in your eyes? Am I still your son? Why do you treat me so cruelly, so heartlessly?

In my life, I’ve never felt a bit undeterred or unhappy about anything, but this has been my greatest pain in life. I will never be content. Why, when I achieved something, did you choose to appear in my life? Why, when I was suffering, couldn’t you just appear by my side to protect me? Not even a word of comfort was ever given to me. I was so lonely, so proud. I swallowed all my tears and anguish for my pride. I never told anyone. When others bullied me, I always smiled. I resorted to violence to cope because I understood that violence wasn’t the way to solve everything; it only made things more complicated. It made every member of the family worry about me. I couldn’t be selfish. I lived my life selflessly, but what did I get in return?"

"Don’t worry, my child. No matter what, I absolutely won’t leave you again. You must believe that this time, your mom and I truly want to stay in this family and take care of you. No matter what we’ve been through before, please give me this chance. This time, I just want us to live happily and peacefully, without being involved in anything else. We’ve lived in hardship."

"Even if my life remains painful, I won’t leave this home. I want everyone to know that since I’ve sincerely chosen to return to this home, I won’t leave so easily again."

"To put it accurately, no matter what, I will never leave this home. I will stay by your side. I want you to clearly understand that everything I did before was a grave mistake. I need to show everyone that we know we were wrong. I want to dedicate the rest of my life to proving that I’m willing to give everything for this family. I want to invest all the time I have left into this family. I want to maintain this home."

"In the future, even if you want me to leave, I won’t leave myself, nor will I foolishly abandon you again. I’m no fool; I know what’s most important. I was just too young, impulsive, and reckless then, making poor choices. Now, I understand my mistakes, and I will never leave this home again. Even if you force me out, I will not leave. That’s my promise and commitment to you. Believe me!"