My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1118 - 968: I Was Once Incompetent Too

"Actually, when I said this sentence today, I didn’t mean to blame you for being unfit parents. I myself wasn’t a competent parent either, I once lost my temper with my son for two hours in a row, and I hurt his young heart. But I acknowledged my mistake and corrected it, and that period gave me deep reflections."

"Nai’er, it was Dad who made the mistake in this matter, but could you, standing from Dad’s position, try to understand him? Dad truly neglected your mom lately, but I didn’t mean it intentionally. You know there have been many family matters lately."

"Some things are not what Dad wanted to happen, but when they do occur, there’s no way to escape them. Everyone has to pay some price for their actions, and what we’re going through now is truly difficult. It was the expectation of all of us for your grandparents to return to this home. We should let them live here peacefully, not blame them for every problem that arises. How can they live happily and steadily like that? We should all consider their feelings, shouldn’t we?"

"Dad knows you feel bad deep inside knowing Mom has depression. After all, it’s due to my negligence, my scanty concern for her that led to the current result. But I truly didn’t do it on purpose. I also hope she can live healthily, but who would have thought, just because I didn’t care for her recently, didn’t seek her out, or forgot about her, she became like this. I really feel sorry about it!"

"Dad, you shouldn’t apologize to me when I do this, you should talk to Grandpa. I believe he would stand from Mom’s point of view. No one anticipated that this would make Mom fall ill and hospitalized."

"This is not the outcome we wanted. Everyone wishes for everyone at home to live happily and healthily. But now, with things like they are, you should apologize to Grandpa instead of me. He is the one who should receive your apology, not me. Why don’t you think about how much he cares for Mom because she worked so hard to bring me into this world? Why won’t you consider Mom’s difficulties from his standpoint? You always think from your perspective, thinking only about everything you used to want. What you desire is always based on the happiness derived from others’ pain. Do you feel at ease about this?"

Zhang Yichen felt awkward talking to his son, with no words to refute him. He indeed was at fault. If it weren’t for his negligence, if he hadn’t ignored his wife, things wouldn’t have ended up like this. If all this is truly related to him, wouldn’t he be a historic sinner? How should he explain this to his grandfather?

Deep inside, he clearly understands how much his grandfather cares about her, this granddaughter-in-law, how much he cares about whether everyone in the family can live peacefully. But now, with things turning out this way, his grandfather won’t let it slide easily. Perhaps he really should have a good talk with his grandfather, let him understand the ins and outs of this situation, otherwise, a big issue will indeed arise.

"Rest assured, I will talk to Grandpa about it. You don’t worry too much; this matter has nothing to do with you. It’s me who’s at fault with your mom, causing her to end up like this. If you feel there’s something wrong, you can come to me. You don’t need to say anything to your grandparents; they don’t even know Mom has become like this because of this matter. All is uncertain. No one wants such things to happen to any family member."

"Dad, you just relax, rest assured, I absolutely won’t say anything about this to Grandma and Grandpa. I won’t inquire or say a single word more. As for how it should be resolved, it’s up to you. If the resolution results in everyone in the family considering it unfair, then I think there’s no way for us to solve it."

Zhang Yichen understands this is his son warning him; if he can’t restore everything to how it originally was, he’ll surely face punishment from his grandfather. He’s too familiar with his grandfather’s ways; he would never tolerate letting anyone in the family become like this. But now, everything has spun out of control; he has no way to foresee, no way to make it the way it was before. He can only endure the danger his son brings him silently. Only now does he realize how frightening his son is. If he had cared a little more about his wife before if he had been more attentive to her life, would his son still lead him by the nose? Would his son have this hold over him?

Zhang Ni says nothing, turns, and leaves. He feels what he said to his dad today was enough. He never speaks so politely to anyone else. If these matters weren’t related to his father, he would have brought him down. But now he realizes all this isn’t something he can intervene in casually. It’s an issue between his parents. If their relationship can withstand any hardship, they wouldn’t have ended up like this. He can’t blame anyone for all this; all the pain and torment must be endured by themselves. If it ultimately becomes uncontrollable, it merely shows it’s the destined tribulation they must accept."

Zhang Yichen suddenly feels he truly is an incompetent husband. Why did he not even notice his wife’s illness? Why is he unwilling to care a bit more about his wife’s life? Had he showed more concern for her life, his wife wouldn’t be as frantic now. All this is due to his neglect, leading to the current outcome. What difference is there between him and his parents, apart from bringing harm to his family, he offers nothing? He thought he was powerful enough, thought he could bring happiness to his family. Now all this is just beginning.

"Unable to do everything like in childhood, to forgive all wrongs, now the only thing I can do is try to accept you, let you live in this home hoping you will also give me time!"