My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1102 - 953: Love We Can’t Have, Understood by All

None of us want to see such an outcome. You all understand, we’ve all been through experiences, but no one can know the pain in our hearts.

I don’t want to ask about the past anymore, nor do I want to talk about it; I just hope everyone finds peace.

Zhang Zhentian feels that now, no matter what he says to his father, it’s useless. The only thing he can do is to make his father live happily, but that taste of love unfulfilled, she truly doesn’t want to experience it again, and it’s the one pain he least wants to feel for the rest of his life.

"Dad, I know that everything I’ve done has disappointed you greatly, but all I wish for is to be by the side of the woman I love most. Do you understand? Over the years, for her, I’ve traveled from one corner of the earth to the other. When she left, I didn’t abandon myself; everything was about winning her back. I’m not acting on a whim—what I want is for her to stay by my side.

Even though deep down, he may not be me, as long as I can see him, I feel very at ease. This feeling is something you cannot possibly understand. Wanting stability by his side may seem too difficult for you, making you repeatedly think that everything I’ve done is just mere pretense?

You haven’t experienced the agony of unfulfilled love; how painful can it be? Do you understand the depth of my inner pain?

This pain cannot be changed by anyone. Having chosen this path long ago, my heart’s desire is to spend my life with her, regardless of what the outcome might be, no matter how many storms we may face together. Those times are truly precious—two loved ones hand in hand conquering the world. Who can truly understand that feeling and share it with me?

All of this relies on myself alone. What I want isn’t much—through each pain, through each sorrow, ultimately my heart suffers a severe blow, letting me stay steady by his side, letting me accompany him. Since choosing to hurt you initially, I can’t now choose to hurt her just to protect you.

If I were to choose such a path, it would undoubtedly hurt each one of you completely once again; none of you would wish to face such a conclusion, right?"

"Child, maybe the taste of love unfulfilled you speak of is something I truly can’t understand or appreciate. Your mother left me so many years ago, do you know? Even though everyone doesn’t understand me, don’t you feel how painful it is for a father deep inside?

You love your wife, and due to our obstruction, you cannot have her, leading to an unfulfilled love. You are heartbroken—but what about me? I also deeply love your mother, yet she’s thoroughly departed from this world. My love for her was equally unfulfilled, and it was even harder. Your wife is still alive in this world; you can always have disputes with her, bring her back. But for me, I have no means, since she’s already left this world. Even if I wish to reclaim her, it’s impossible; she can only reside forever in my memory.

Actually, I hope you can clearly think about what you truly want. Yet over these years, each mistake you’ve made repeatedly shows you haven’t considered what I desire most in my life. You’ve become numb; you’ve lost on your life’s path, not knowing what you truly want, transforming your life step by step into today’s reality.

Perhaps you feel your life seems quite enjoyable now, carefree, but you’ve forgotten about those who’ve suffered because of you and how painful their lives have become.

Now you tell me how distressing and painful love unfulfilled is. We’ve all understood this between us; everyone has gone through such times and has become numb to what kind of life they should lead. I repeatedly push myself to the brink, just to make myself aware that no matter where or when, my mind shouldn’t be blinded by future interests.

Walking my path today has been difficult. My group, my company succeeding as they have now was even harder. All I achieved was through my own hard work. I relied on no one, building from scratch. But what I gave you—a life of luxury—was repaid with repeated sarcasm and abandonment!

When doing all these things, you never thought about how much we, your parents, cared for you. We sacrificed so much for you, our children, but no matter how much we gave, in your eyes, it was just a fleeting dream. You don’t care because deep inside, you don’t know whether or not to protect your family today, whether to live together at all.

Honestly, your life has been quite a failure. You sacrificed plenty for yourself, and even more for your wife, wishing to elope at all costs, even abandoning your child. Ultimately, what you gained was mistakes you made time after time.

You’ve made so many mistakes, yet you haven’t realized whether you were wrong. You don’t know what your mistake was, nor do you understand what you should do. You’ve imagined everyone to be demons, but the real demon is you yourself—destroying everyone’s happiness with your own hands, ruining your life on your so-called great dreams.

Think about whether your wife has truly been joyful accompanying you all these years? Has he never missed his child or thought about returning home? Your actions brought temporary joy but eventually led to enormous consequences. Everything must be paid for; your price was being shunned time and again. I believe you’ll never forget the pain your son inflicted on you, choosing never to forgive you as parents and how your inner self must reflect on that.

Talk of unfulfilled love is just rhetoric. Whether you truly obtain it depends on yourself. If you choose to live well with him, then pursue her at all costs!"

"All of this was what you said back then—have you forgotten now?"