novelraw Chapter 1069 - 922: For What?
Chapter 1069 - 922: For What?
Old Master Zhang really doesn’t know what to say or do to his son. He always considers things from his own perspective, only thinking of his own interests. Sometimes I really can’t believe, is this really my child? How did I end up here?
"Child, why don’t you understand that everything your father does is for your own good? For all of your mistakes in the past, I, as your father, have never blamed you, because I know, no matter when or where, you are my son, you are always my child, and that will never change. You know better than anyone why I do this, but today you talk to me in such a manner, I really can’t accept it. I don’t understand why you are kneeling here today, begging me with what mindset. I don’t understand why you remind me here like this, whether it’s just an act or for some other purpose. I can no longer trust you easily like before, because trusting you results in me being hurt again. I have given my true heart to you time and again, but what about you? How have you treated me? I, as your father, have repeatedly begged my child to stay by my side, but what have you given me?
Think back, I have treated you sincerely every time here. How have you treated me? Time and again, I let myself live lightly in this world. I don’t know if anyone knows how difficult my life is; I have never told anyone what my son is like. I am afraid, I am afraid that people will mention my son in front of me, mention my family. When I think of how my child abandoned me, how he treated me as a father, there’s an inexplicable pain burning deep inside!
I really don’t dare to trust anyone easily like I used to because trusting others results in me being hurt. I can no longer give you all the care and love with a clear conscience like before. Have you ever thought about it? At the moment I give you all my sincerity, what kind of return do you give me? Time and again, you’ve made me realize the unique pain in this world. I never imagined my son would treat me this way.
Child, you repeatedly tell me, as your father, that being a person requires empathy. So let me ask you, have you shown empathy towards me? At the moment I give you my sincerity, do you ever think about giving it back to me? Have you ever thought about the pain I’ve lived through in this life? I can’t imagine what kind of life I should have to think about these things. How afraid I am, afraid that I can no longer live as happily and joyfully as before in this lifetime. I’m truly tired of this worrying life. Now I only want to live calmly, why is it so difficult? You still need to come out and say this to me, as your father, threatening repeatedly. What good does this do for you? Are you saying this to look good in front of your son, or to make your son forgive you repeatedly? Even if your son can forgive you, I absolutely cannot; I will no longer foolishly forgive all your mistakes like before. The harm you’ve caused me, I will never forget these injuries for the rest of my life, they will be deeply rooted in my heart, impossible to eliminate."
"Dad, you clearly know that I didn’t mean any of these words, but why do you twist my meaning? You sell all the words you want to say and try it, and this only makes the misunderstanding between me and my son more serious. For what purpose do you want me and my son to have numerous misunderstandings? I don’t want any misunderstandings to occur between me and my son. I also don’t want arguments to arise during my time with you over other matters. Now I only want my child to live happily, relaxed, and joyfully. Watching my own child live until today without telling the truth, inside I really don’t feel well, not even a bit. I have no way of continuing to live with you as conscientiously as before. Do you understand what my giving meant? I just want everything to go smoothly, but what exactly are you offering? Should I just live being so humbly destined to be hurt repeatedly?
You are my father, and now I also understand that even if I have mountains of gold and silver, I can never buy affection. Affection is the most precious thing, it cannot be measured by money. But when I understand this principle, you unexpectedly choose to use this way to discuss money with me. In your eyes, is money really so important? Can money allow your family to be destroyed repeatedly? I don’t understand what your thoughts are that make me have such ideas. I really am afraid, afraid to see you, afraid to hear you say these ruthless and heartless words to me as my father. You are my biological father, how can you have the heart to say such words to drive me out of the house again? Do I really make you so displeased by coming back to this house? I only want to stay peacefully in this house, by your side. What kind of result do you ultimately give me? Have you ever thought about treating me casually as a child? Have you sincerely thought of treating me as family?
Don’t answer me immediately whether yes or no. In your heart, you know very well, and I don’t need to repeatedly explain it to you. I don’t want to keep ripping open old scars and sprinkle salt on them. For both you and me, isn’t this pain? Shouldn’t we give each other more understanding, more happiness, more care rather than fight to the death? Make everyone in the family unable to live peacefully, is that the best outcome you want to see? Look at the current situation in the family, who is truly happy and joyful, who isn’t living in fear of another family war? I am really tired. I don’t want to have conflicts with anyone in the family anymore. I don’t want to be unable to stay in the family with peace of mind."