My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1070 - 923: Must Only One Person Ultimately Leave?

Xia Jing saw his father’s face growing more and more unpleasant, and he knew that his father was already burning with anger. He couldn’t let his husband continue to provoke his father. If his father ended up in the hospital again because of him, he could never forgive himself for the rest of his life. He had to prevent this from happening; he had to ensure that such a situation would never occur again, as something everyone dreaded would happen.

He could see that his father actually had no intention of deliberately making things difficult for his husband. All of this was because his husband was repeatedly challenging authority. Perhaps while he cared about those things, he thought his father would never hold grudges against him for treating his wife and son that way. But who could have imagined that as time passed, many things changed, people changed with time’s passage, everyone was growing, and everyone saw this matter completely differently. Maybe before, his father wouldn’t have cared about everything, but now it was absolutely impossible.

Everything was because of him, and now he could only stand behind his husband, letting him protect himself and bear all the hardships. If he could never get back on his feet for the rest of his life, then he would have to let his husband keep protecting him repeatedly, but the one who made the grave mistake wasn’t him, yet he bore all the consequences. How could he truly feel at ease in the depths of his heart? Watching the two people in front of him arguing back and forth while he could only stand aside idly, unable to interject a single word, he really felt like a failure. If time could really rewind, he would absolutely not choose the path that led their family to this state, where no one in the family could find a way to live together peacefully. Could it really be that leaving this family was the best care and love for everyone in it? If he returned to this family, it would be a burden for each member of it, but why did he come back here?

"Zhentian, can’t you speak to your father with a better attitude? Everything that Dad said is not wrong. Do you still want to go out and live a wandering life like before? Throughout these years, how much you wanted to return to this family, I know more than anyone else. I’ve watched with my own eyes how painful and tortured your existence was, day and night. I don’t want to see you live that kind of life anymore. No matter what, I only wish for you to stay in this family now, even if someone has to leave. I would rather be the one to go than you. All the mistakes made were because of me. Why must you bear all the responsibilities for me?

I’ve come to understand now that the errors I committed can only be borne by myself, and relying on others to bear them is futile. If I genuinely want to survive successfully in this career, I must bravely pay the appropriate price for every mistake I ever made, so that I will have no way for the rest of my life to let everything become as painful as it is now. I am so afraid. I’m afraid that every member of the family will be hurt again and again. I hope that every person in the family can live a happy and easy life. But now, looking at how everyone is living in this family, is this truly what I want to see?

Actually, it really isn’t. I never thought that my return would cause such chaos in the family. I never thought my return would turn my daughter-in-law into the crazed state she is now. I don’t know how much pressure I brought upon her to make her become like this, but I truly feel very sorry. I sincerely apologize for all the harm I’ve caused and all the confusion I’ve brought to you.

Dad, deep inside, you also know that none of this in the beginning had anything to do with my husband. Everything he did was for my sake. He always wanted to live together with me, which is why he chose such a way to please me.

I never expected that the road chosen back then would turn into the current situation, leaving each of us scrambling. Who would want their life to become as chaotic as it is now? Looking at what I once most wanted my life to be and seeing what my life’s greatest agony is now, I’m very aware. I long so much for everything to never be the kind of life it is now. I hope every member of the family can forgive us and let us return to this home, to truly become part of this family. No matter what happens, we can discuss, decide together, and face all difficulties together. Even if something bad happens, everyone can plan together and support each other.

But now it seems there is no need for that at all. My staying here does nothing but prevent every family member’s mood from relaxing and continuing life. I’ve really been happy for this period since my return. Perhaps deep inside, you guys truly detested our presence in your lives, but do you know why I did all this? Who knows?

Who has ever cared about my true inner thoughts? How difficult everything I’ve done truly is, who understands?

I really don’t want everything to become as bad as it is now. I hope each day I can live happily, relaxed, and joyful. I don’t want to live my whole life in the endless pain it is now. If you truly want me to return to this family, if you truly consider me as family, I will also give all my sincerity to treat you the same. The premise is that I must first show you my genuine sense of remorse.

I want you to know that I am truly remorseful, remorseful for what I’ve done. I shouldn’t have let myself become so headstrong before, bringing everyone in the family such painful memories that possibly can’t be erased in the depths of your hearts. But now, I just want to change how you see me deep down. I hope you can also understand my heartfelt intentions!"