novelraw Chapter 502: Let’s Give It a Try (Part 2)
Chapter 502: Let’s Give It a Try (Part 2)
Midway, Qi Cheng and Bai Xue went to the restroom, and Su Anle looked at Bai Bing, finally speaking: "You... haven’t been in touch?"
Bai Bing smiled and said: "Tangtang, actually, I was with him."
"What?"
"To be precise, I was with him once."
Bai Bing lifted the coffee in front of her, took a sip, and then slowly said: "More than a year ago, he returned to B City. At that time, he didn’t know you had already left. He invited us to dinner and later drank too much, and we were together. He said he wanted to be responsible to me, and then we started dating."
Bai Bing’s face became somewhat dazed, and then she self-mockingly smiled: "But we were together for less than two months before I suggested breaking up."
Su Anle was a bit surprised. She could understand how much Bai Bing liked Lu Qilin, but she hadn’t expected them to break up after less than two months, and it was Bai Bing who initiated it.
"Surprised, right? Actually, I don’t know why either. Being with him was my biggest dream. During that time, I would literally wake up laughing from dreams. He treated me very well. Although we were in different places, whenever he had time, he would come over, or I would go there."
"Then why...?"
"Perhaps I was just too pretentious. During that period, I was very happy, but I also became very unlike myself. I was anxious, would become suspicious if he didn’t answer calls or reply messages in time, often fearing I did something to upset him. Even to buy a piece of clothing, I had to first send him pictures; only if he said it looked good would I buy it. I went on diets, went to beauty salons, fearing he would see any of my imperfections."
Bai Bing continued, her self-mockery deepening: "Then one day, I looked in the mirror and found I didn’t even recognize the person in it. Tangtang, you know? Back then, I was seventy percent like you. He liked you, so subconsciously I was imitating you. But no matter how hard I tried, I wasn’t you. Coupled with some work frustrations at that time, I was just tired, really tired, so I suggested breaking up."
The essence of Bai Bing’s words was that she was tired. Su Anle felt she could understand; loving someone for so long can indeed be exhausting. Even if you finally get together, the shackles on your heart can make it hard to breathe.
"Tangtang, it’s not easy to marry for love. Didn’t you ever think of cherishing it?"
Bai Bing suddenly changed the topic, and Su Anle felt a tightness in her heart. She knew she was talking about Sheng Jianan.
She had loved Sheng Jianan for a long time too, but unlike Bai Bing, during the time she was with Sheng Jianan, although she also experienced anxiety and insecurity, mostly, she gained happiness.
If it weren’t for those things that happened later, maybe they would still be together now, still lost in that kind of happiness.
"Tangtang, as an outsider, I can’t interfere with you, just find it a pity. I once thought he was very excessive, but since you left, he’s contacted us a few times. I could feel his panic. Tangtang, a paragon of excellence humbling himself for you, what more could you ask for?"
The conversation with Bai Bing was temporarily halted due to the return of Qi Cheng and Bai Xue. The four of them went to see a movie and had dinner.
Su Anle had just stepped out of the restaurant when she saw a familiar car parked at the entrance.
The car door opened, and Su Weiyi jumped out: "Mom."