Were you mine?

Chapter 15Guilt trip

Lea's POV

Jake was sitting right in front of me.

He sat there silently with my hand in his hand and his head hung low, staring at the floor.

Even though there was physical contact between the two of us, it suddenly started to feel like we were miles apart.

He was aggressively trying to apologize but after my refutation, he simply gave up. Quite unexpectedly and suddenly.

He was zoning out. But I did not have any idea what to make of his behavior.

I was exhausted.

My body and mind were not in sync.

My skin was already rejoicing at the touch of his skin but something inside me, told me that Jake was not the same.

" May be you should go home and rest. " I finally told him because it seemed like he was unable to utter amy thing. I did not want things to be any more complicated than it already was.

" You want me to go home? " He asked without even looking up.

" Yes, Jakey... " I paused short of a smile. Calling him Jakey was like my happy pill but something told me, I wasn't doing the right thing.

" I am tired. I want to rest. " That was all that I could get out of my mouth.

But in reality, all I wanted to do was hug him and whisper in his ears that he was going to be a father. But I wondered if that was a mistake.

Our first time.

I could not forget it even if I was shredded to pieces. It was like heaven on earth for me. But was it the same for him? I guess I didn't know the answer anymore.

I knew his attachment with me but did it have anything to do with love or eternity? I failed to see where our relationship stood at that crossroad.

" Alright, Lea. I will leave. " He bent forward. I thought he would kiss my forehead or cheeks. But he did neither.

" Don't worry about anything." He scuffled my hair and walked out of the room, not looking back.

As soon as the lock clicked on the door I could not hold back anymore .

I touched my baby. Where did things go so wrong that Jake and I, hesitated to look in the eye and talk.

What was my baby's fault?

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Jake's POV

She hated me.

She hated me so much that she could not even stand the sight of me or my presence.

Where did I go wrong? How did I end up hurting my Lea so much?

Everything that I did was for her. I was who I was because of her.

As I shut the door behind me, my tears started dropping at an alarming rate.

But I didn't even get the time to wipe my face. My phone was ringing in my pocket.

" What is it? " I didn't want to talk to Rosa. I didn't want to talk with anyone.

" Your manager called me. You have not been taking his calls. " She accused me from the other end.

" I will call him back. You don't need to worry. " I switched my phone off before slipping it back in my pocket when that doctor appeared in front of me out of nowhere .

Bad timing.

He had something about him that made me want to punch his face whenever he looked at me with his judgy eyes.

" There, you are. " He walked upto me with that air of superiority. As if he owed me.

He was just a doctor.

" I wanted to talk to you about something. " He looked like a police interrogating a thief.

" I am not in the mood for chit chat, doctor. When can I take Lea back? "

He frowned.

" What did you do to her to break her like this? " He asked me unhinged.

" Who are you to ask me that question! " I was angry. I was irritated.

" Lea's doctor. Her caregiver. Do you have any idea how many fractures she suffered? But that is not even the worse part. You broke her from within. That wound won't show up in any scan. "

I tried to walk away.

I didn't have time for his reprimandations.

I knew how wrong I was.

But I didn't need a policeman.

" I hope you realise Lea is far more expensive than those cheap actresses that you romance with... on screen. "The pause in his sentence, made me feel like he was hinting at something.

" Did Lea tell you anything? " I asked.

He shook his head .

He pulled his phone out and zoomed in on a picture before showing it to me.

" Have you been spying on me? " I asked, trying to snatch the phone away from him. How did he have a private picture of me and Rosa?

He pulled his phone away from my grip before putting it back in his pocket.

" I don't have the time or the energy to do that, Mr. actor. I am not your fan. It was a picture my friend sent me. You were out on date at his cafe. He was simply showing me around his new place, unintentionally clicking your couple picture. "

" We are not a couple. It's not what it looks like. Rosa and I are costars. It's... never mind. I don't need to give you a justification. Fix Lea as soon as you can. I need to take her home. "

He scoffed.

" Fix her, huh? She is not your toy, mister. It will take her a long time to recover and cope with what you have done to her. It's not instant noodle that you fix yourself when you are hungry. "

He shoved me with his shoulder as he walked past me.

I could feel that subtle vibe of dominance that errupted around him.

It made me pull my cocoon of guilt around me, this time securing it nice and strong.