novelraw Chapter 390: Think About Me and Xiaoze
Chapter 390: Think About Me and Xiaoze
"Stop talking..." Yan Sijue suddenly felt overwhelmed, "Yiliang, stop talking..."
Mu Yiliang trembled, and tears involuntarily slid down. Her heart was in turmoil, a vague sense of panic emerged... Could it be that he was going to drive her away?
Xiao Qi gave the two a complicated glance and quietly walked out, dragging Qiao Yebai along with him.
"You’re actually giving Yan Sijue a chance?" Qiao Yebai coldly snorted.
Xiao Qi rolled her eyes at him, "I know Mu Xiang wants to be alone with him."
Qiao Yebai finally fell silent, watching the door to the ward gradually close in front of him.
Inside the room, it was silent, with only Yan Sijue’s heavy breathing.
He held her hand tightly, as if trying to warm her through this gesture... Her hands and feet were always cold, why had he never noticed?
"Si Jue..." The prolonged silence made Mu Yiliang even more fearful. Could losing this child really mean there was no chance of reconciliation between them?
"...I’m sorry." He brought her hand to his lips, his voice slightly trembling, "I knew nothing... From the beginning, that child was a mistake."
Mu Yiliang felt a pang in her heart, and tears poured out.
"You were aware of it, weren’t you? But why didn’t you tell me that the child couldn’t stay..." Yan Sijue choked up for a moment, then continued, "You planned to keep this child for me, yet decided to give it up for Qiao Yebai..."
"No! It wasn’t like that! I never intended to give it up! I never expected..." She closed her eyes painfully.
"I know, it wasn’t intentional on your part... But the moment you decided to come over, you should have considered this outcome..." Yan Sijue managed a difficult smile, "Yiliang, I’m not blaming you, it’s okay that the child is gone, we already have Xiaoze, but I don’t want to see you recklessly sacrificing yourself for others time and time again... I just hope next time if something like this happens... whether it’s Qiao Yebai, Xiao Qi, or anyone else, before you make a decision, think about me, think about me and Xiaoze..."
His voice was hoarse and slow, yet it seemed to carry immense pain, and he used tremendous effort to utter each word.
Mu Yiliang felt a wrenching pain in her heart.
"I’m sorry..." She was so distressed she could barely speak.
"Xiao Qi told me I shouldn’t stop you, that you have people and things you care about, and I can’t make decisions on your behalf, so I did what I did. But if the result of my actions is watching you get hurt again and again, then even if you hate me..." He closed his eyes, as if unable to go on.
Mu Yiliang looked at the man’s pale and haggard face, and suddenly understood what he had endured these past few days. In the current situation, this man was the most pained and conflicted person. Yet, it clearly had nothing to do with him!
If not for her, why would he get involved in such a mess, and why bear so much pressure? She thought it was her own matter she could resolve, but how could Yan Sijue not be worried and concerned, how could he not feel the pain and guilt?
She was no longer alone. Since she chose him, how could she selfishly ignore his feelings and recklessly rely on his love for her to act willfully?
Thinking of this, Mu Yiliang finally burst into tears.