novelraw Chapter 1114: Affective separation disorder
Chapter 1114: Affective separation disorder
Chapter 1114 Affective Separation Disorder
"What can I cry? If I didn't organize the balang at that time, we would have suffered a great loss, and I had nothing to cry."
"You are a lie! You are guilty that you let Balang have nowhere to go, otherwise, how could you have post-war psychological syndrome? Your current hand shaking is basically caused by psychological reasons. You have no difficulty wearing delicate pearls. This shows that your fingers are fine. There is no problem with flexibility, the nerves of the fingers are not damaged, but you can't shoot out with the toy gun. This is obviously a reaction to the gun. I guess the first thing that appears in your heart when you hold the gun is the one before Balang's death. Does it look like?"
His expression told Xiaoqian that she was right.
"You have repeatedly emphasized that you are right to your mission. In fact, it is the emotional separation symptom of post-war psychological syndrome. What you need most now is to vent your emotions. Even if you are angry or sad, as long as you It’s good for you to release these happily. You don’t need to feel guilty of surviving. When you see Balang dying, what you feel guilty is that you are still alive. Your sense of mission makes you believe in you. It’s correct, but your emotions can’t conceal your guilt towards your friends. Husband, you need to vent."
Xiaoqian said her judgment in one breath. As the top psychiatrist, how could she not see his abnormality.
"Can you cure it?" he asked.
Xiaoqian wants to say yes, she is the best doctor, she has saved so many people, she can’t save her husband without reason.
But she couldn't tell, facing Yu Minglang's clear eyes, she couldn't lie.
Leave aside the relationship between the two, and only talk about the character of Yu Minglang, she can do nothing.
Since the accident, he has not expressed the same emotions as normal people. He uses his god-like self-control to oppress his consciousness. Just as Xiaoqian joked before, people like him are either powerful for a lifetime. Not invading, even if it is a simple problem, it will inevitably kill him.
Xiao Qian’s expression betrayed her heart, and Yu Minglang tugged at the corner of her mouth again, and reached out to rub her hair.
"Silly girl, if you can't cure it, then I won't be sick, it doesn't matter, I will be fine."
Xiaoqian looked at his overly calm expression, and a puzzle that had troubled her since she was reborn finally had an answer.
This head portrait was like thunder that struck Xiaoqian's heart. She was shocked and disturbed by huge guilt and self-blame.
She finally understood why she saw Xiaoqiang like that in her previous life, but in this life he has been like a big boy for so long. That's how it turns out, all the mysteries have been solved.
A heartbreaking and unbearable answer is ready to come out.
There has never been an unreasonable change in this world. Xiaoqian could not understand the reason for Yu Minglang's character contrast before and after, she finally understood when she saw his depressed emotions at this moment.
In his previous life, he must have experienced the same thing, and his personality has changed so much.
In his previous life, Yu Minglang was also a big boy with a cheerful personality. He was as cold-hearted as he is now, but one day, he personally ruined the guilty Balang. This feeling of guilt made him suffer from post-war traumatic illness and he was completely helpless.
But he is a very special existence. His powerful self-control ability makes him react differently from other people with this disease. Others will have nightmares, irritability, hypervigilance, amnesia and other common post-war psychological syndromes. None, but he has another symptom of the post-war psychological syndrome, and his personality has changed drastically.
This trauma has always been in his heart. He has never forgotten the dead Balang, nor has he given up his punishment.
On the one hand, he keeps his mission in mind, and on the other hand, he can't remember the self-blame of Balang. On the surface, he doesn't care and emphasizes his mission again and again, but his heart hurts as much as he emphasizes it.
Since then, it has not come out for many years.
The sunny Yu Minglang no longer exists after witnessing Balang's death.
What was left behind was a deep man who looked strong but had a heavy burden in his heart.
From a broad perspective, Yu Minglang has matured. His previous life performance is more like the behavior of a mature man. He doesn’t commit a second, calm, reluctant to speak, but has a great mind. He doesn’t express his feelings to anyone, even if It's the beloved Xiaoqian.
She thinks that when she died in her previous life, the scene where he held her and wept bitterly was probably the only mood swing he had after Balang's death.
always said that growth is accompanied by pain, but Yu Ming grew up, but the pain made people feel painful, Xiaoqian's first reaction when she heard the news was that her eyes went dark and she fainted.
She couldn't bear the pain, but he used the most understatement to cover up. This is the most terrifying thing.
During the time she passed out, Xiaoqian had a long dream.
Yu Minglang, who was deep in the previous life, and Yu Minglang, who was cute and cute in this life, appeared alternately. She dreamed that the two people in the previous life were sitting and drinking, she was drinking a cup, and he watched her drinking and drinking with mysterious deep eyes. In the end, she was pushed down. She didn't remember the look in his eyes at that time, but in the dream, the forgotten past suddenly became clear.
She finally remembered the words he said when he was lying on her ear when she was half dead in the previous life.
He said, don’t leave me.
At that time, he loved her very much. He would say such a sentence, which is actually the deepest fear in his heart.
Yu Minglang, who already has post-war psychological syndrome, must feel in his subconscious that the things he loves will eventually leave him, just like his favorite gun.
Xiaoqian's soul floated in the air, watching this scene, tears rained down in her dream, she regretted it.
She really regretted it.
She didn't understand him in her previous life. She complained that he loved work better than her, and she hated his calmness. I hated his silence, hated that he finally looked at her with such deep eyes, so she had premarital phobia, she left him and ran away.
If she had discovered his abnormality early and saw the fragility behind his strength, would she still be a runaway bride with premarital phobia, or would she give them a broken life?
Xiaoqian’s dreams were fragmented. She saw some things she had neglected in her previous life. She also saw the warm company Xiaoqiang gave her in this life. She saw that when she just came back, this second product gave her carnations as roses. She also saw him take her to the mud pit and make her feel embarrassed.
She even saw the deep love behind the deep silence that she hated in his previous life.
It turns out that love has always been there. Although the way of expression is different, the only thing that does not change is the feelings he gave her. He never reserved as much as he could give her. Even if she was afraid of becoming a fugitive bride before marriage, he did not. Give up to find her.
If she wasn't too stubborn, and he wasn't too aggressive, would the two of them get to the point of irreparable sadness?
(End of this chapter)