novelraw Chapter 161 - You win
Chapter 161 - You win
"Like what I said, being good or bad will all depend on me." Shi Enxi said as she looked at her neatly trimmed nails. "But what Shi Anhao did is unforgivable. It looks like I have to deal with her soon. Does she think that I can't follow her to Thailand?"
Fan Xiao Yao looked at her in confusion since she didn't know that Shi Anhao was actually the one behind it. Aside from that, she also didn't know anything aside from the fact that Lu Mello adopted a baby for the replacement of his dead child.
"I need to get my son back too." She sighed. "I can't believe that I'm going to be a mother of two."
"Get... your son back?" It was only normal for her to be surprised since she has no idea of it. "W... what do you mean?"
When Shi Enxi saw how real Fan Xiao Yao's shocked gaze was, that's when she knew that her husband, Lu Mello has been keeping things from others. She chuckled as she thought of that, "As you can already guess, my son, Xue'er is alive. It's just... right now, that wench, Shi Anhao has him."
"He's alive? But... but how?" She was still confused at how that can be possible.
Shi Enxi didn't say anything and instead, she remained quiet. She wasn't going to tell everything to her.
"If you know who's behind, then why does Huang Li have to put his life at risk going?" Fan Xiao Yao suddenly got frustrated when she thought of it.
Shi Enxi raised a brow as she turned her gaze at her, "What do you mean by that?"
Her eyes shifted to the side and became glazed with a glassy layer of tears. She clenched her fists tightly as she lowered her head. "Xiao Xi... You know that Huang Li cares so much for you... After what happened to you, he couldn't just sit still you know. Because of you, he left his work... Because of you, he's willing to risk his life..." Fan Xiao Yao knew that Huang Li and Shi Enxi were childhood friends, they grew up together and that... She was also his first love. She couldn't just ignore the feelings of jealousy inside her no matter how much she tried to understand them.
As she blinked, tears dripped from her eyelids and slid down her cheeks, trickling one by one on her l.a.p. She bit her lip tightly in an attempt to hide any sound that wanted to escape from her mouth. "Why...?"
Her lower lip quivered as words slowly made their way out of her mouth. "Why…" She began, yet what followed was engulfed in the tremors. "Why does it have to be you?"
Her shoulders were slumped and tears continued to flow unchecked down her cheeks, "Even if he told me that he didn't love you anymore... I know that... that is not true. You will always come first..."
It was Shi Enxi's turn to be surprised as she listened to Fan Xiao Yao's words. She only sees Huang Li as a brother figure and he never really made a move on her so hearing that Huang Li has feelings for her was surprising enough.
"No matter what... You will always come first to him." Her nails dug inside her palms as her c.h.e.s.t tightened in pain. "I let go of Mello... I gave him to you... So... Why can't you give Huang Li to me?"
Shi Enxi's brow twitched as she felt offended by what she did. She gave Lu Mello to her?
But before she could open her mouth, Fan Xiao Yao continued, "Why does it always have to be you?" She turned her tearful gaze at her. "What wrong did I ever do to you?"
Her question was like a dagger that stabbed Shi Enxi on her c.h.e.s.t. She sat still, her body stiff. The guilt sat not on her c.h.e.s.t but inside her brain. What she had done she could not un-do.
"You act as if I owe everything to you... But you give me only apathy. I know... I know that you are just using me. Tell me, Xiao Xi? When did you last cry because I was hurt, or come running because you thought I needed help? Among all of the people you can torment, why does it have to be me?" Fan Xiao Yao's heartbreaking questions kept on coming. At that moment, all the feelings she has always kept in bursts out as if her glass was finally filled and the water in it kept overflowing that she couldn't control herself anymore. Right at that moment, she reached her limit. "Why can't you just allow me to be happy?!"
"Xiao Yao..." Shi Enxi straightened her back. She tried to reach out to her as she softly said, "Calm down..."
"Calm down? Calm down?! How can I be calm down when it's you?! You're taking everyone I love from me! Huang Li will never choose me... He will never choose me, Shi Enxi... No matter what I do... Even if I beg... He will always choose you..." She buried her face on her palms as she cried out. "Mello chose you... And now, Huang Li did... I will always be a second choice, won't I?
"That's not true." Shi Enxi stood up and went to sit at her side. She reached out to hold Fan Xiao Yao's hand only to be pulled away by her.
"Stop pretending... You can stop pretending now, Shi Enxi." She lowered her hands and looked at her, her eyes were filled with nothing but dejection and loneliness.
The words she spoke were daggers and the looked in her eyes were like venom. At that moment, Shi Enxi saw the hate in Fan Xiao Yao's eyes.
"W-what wrong have I ever did to you... or to anyone? Tell me, Xiao Xi... Am I not allowed to be happy?" The side of her lips curled up as she forced herself to smile. "This is enough... You win. My life is already ruined by you. Are you satisfied now?"