novelraw Chapter 664 - 638: Admitting Mistakes_2
Chapter 664 - 638: Admitting Mistakes_2
"As long as you can forgive me and your father, even if it means being like oxen or horses by your side, we will never have any complaints in this lifetime. I only hope that you can give us a chance to properly love you, to make up for the love you’ve missed these years. Maybe you don’t need it, but in our hearts, we just seek some psychological comfort."
"Like you said, I don’t need it at all, do you know how much pain and suffering your decisions have caused me? All these years, not for a second did I forget the pain you caused me. I reminded myself over and over in my mind—I must never forget this for the rest of my life. I want to keep it forever in my memory and let everyone know that my parents abandoned me. Even though I endured others’ mockery and scorn, I still reached heights in life unreachable by others. I am proud of myself, and I am also grateful to you. Without your ruthlessness, your abandonment, how could I have been determined to take this path, how could I have strived to prove to the world how capable I am?
My initial purpose for all this was just to prove to my parents that abandoning me was the biggest mistake of their lives, because they had no clue when their biological son might achieve such capability. Again and again, they must have thought about what my life would be if my parents were gone one day. Maybe others can’t understand, but I have experienced it. I’m not afraid my parents will leave me again; I know what life without parents should be like—but others wouldn’t manage. Because of your abandonment, I have a life that others might never grasp, do you see? I am truly grateful to you for the consequences of your actions, something I will never be able to forget in my lifetime, but I also hope that you remember clearly, if one day you come asking for my help, I will definitely not assist you.
No matter if you are my parents or whoever you may be, I will not lend a hand, because I know, you don’t deserve to make me lend a hand when all you bring me in the end is harm. You never considered the immense torment your decisions caused me as your offspring. Again and again, you longed to lead a stable, happy life—have you ever thought about our lives? Time and again, you wandered outside, whereas I? I and my grandfather, my family, had to survive at home, only able to rely on each other. You lived your merry, carefree lives, while in Macau, it was happiness mingled with hardship..."
"You will probably never understand how hard my life was after you abandoned me. While other children happily played with their toys, I trained fiercely because I wanted people to realize the serious consequences of abandoning me. I wanted to show everyone that abandoning me was their biggest mistake. Do you know what state I was in during those training sessions? Every time, I returned home bloodied, yet I couldn’t let my grandfather see because I knew how much it would hurt him to see his beloved grandchild hurt.
My grandfather loved me so much; how could I let him see my injuries again and again and then hide and quietly wipe away my tears? I am not heartless; I truly can’t do such things.
For me, my grandfather’s peaceful life is more important than anything. I can do without everything, but I can’t do without my grandfather."
Do you know how my grandfather and I lived all these years? Watching my grandfather suffer alone in utter distress, and me, as his grandchild, feeling helpless, because I knew I couldn’t let my grief cause my grandfather sorrow. All I wanted was for my grandfather to live happily. For me, I could have nothing in my lifetime, but I absolutely couldn’t bear to be without my grandfather. If my grandfather knew of your treatment towards me, how my heart aches! I don’t ask for much, just that my grandfather can live safely and securely by my side. That would be enough."