My Alleged Husband

Chapter 585 - 564 Slip of the Tongue_1

"I don’t understand why you think I would believe every single word you say, nor do I understand why you confidently come to talk to me like this.

If I were you, I’d choose to keep silent about certain things for a lifetime, for that would be the best outcome for both of us. Some words clearly shouldn’t be uttered, yet you choose to say them to me here—aren’t you destined to embarrass me? If you really didn’t want me to have peace of mind, then why would you sincerely come to cause trouble?"

"Chen Gang, once some choices are made, there’s no turning back. Since I’ve chosen to do this, no one should blame anyone else. Once you’ve decided on something, you can only kneel and follow that path to the end.

Sometimes, I must say that what I truly feel and reality are completely different. Do you know that the moment you appeared before me, I knew you had taken over my heart? I understood that for the rest of my life, my heart wouldn’t have room for anyone else. Yet, what I didn’t expect was that my care for you would ultimately be repaid with your deceit. I never imagined that someone I cared about so much would choose to deceive me, take advantage of me, and never trust me. I always thought that if I wanted something, I would get it—they’d be no match for me. You were supposed to stand by my side silently supporting me. But later, I realized that it was all just an illusion!"

If you really think you have me in your heart, then please make the most politically correct decision. Some things are left unsaid to save face for both sides;. once they’re said openly, it will only make both parties passive and look bad. Many situations could have a way out, but instead, due to a path taken too lightly, the relationship between us ultimately turns to dust."

He had really not expected the woman he loved to say these words to him. At this moment, he realized that no matter how wealthy he was or how great his achievements were, in the eyes of the woman he loved, he was nothing but a worthless clown. She had thought that by doing everything grand, she would definitely win her over.

But later, she discovered that no matter how well she did, no matter to what extent she could go, in the eyes of the woman he loved, he was simply not what she wanted. He wanted nothing more than to peacefully obtain the things he desired, but why had it become so difficult in the end? To her, was he never more than a buffoon, no matter what he did?

"Zhichen, no matter what you think in your heart, I hope you understand that some things happen and there’s no room for change. I don’t care how you truly feel about me. Maybe you think I’m just a clown, unscrupulous in achieving my goals, but I did it all for you. I said so many wrong things, just to distract your husband enough to give me the chance to take you back, to have you stay loyally by my side, never able to leave me again.

I thought that as long as I worked hard enough, as long as I spared no effort for your sake, I could eventually gain your understanding. But in the end, I found out that you never thought of me that way. I don’t understand how you really see me. Maybe in your heart, you’ve always treated me like a stranger. Are all your words lies? Do you genuinely see me as part of your family?"

"From the beginning to the end, I never treated you as part of my family. A friend is a friend and cannot be replaced with anything else.

I don’t care what your purpose was in saying that just now, but I still need to tell you the harsh reality clearly. From the start, you were just a classmate to me, just a good friend, nothing more. I never saw you as my family because you aren’t on the list of people I consider family.

Although I know that saying this might hurt, and forces some people to bow their heads, I have no other choice. To prevent any further misunderstanding, I had to speak bluntly. I can no longer trust you unconditionally as before, because your trust is based on using me. How can I sincerely open up my inner world to you, allowing you to use and go against the person I love most time and time again?"

At that moment, Chen Gang was almost in tears. He had never expected that the woman he wholeheartedly wanted to be with never considered him family, never saw him the way he saw her. What he wanted was just to be with the woman he loved. So why had it turned out this way? Everything had exceeded his expectations; their desires were completely different.

"By expressing such thoughts, do you not feel any guilt? I’ve loved you so hard for so many years, I’ve given so much for you, yet you hurt me this much in the end. In your eyes, is my sincerity really so worthless? All I ever wanted was to see your smile, yet you always treat me as someone out to use you. You will never understand the pain of loving someone; this pain can’t be fully explained in just a few words. The agony I’ve felt is something you’ll never be able to comprehend in this lifetime because you simply don’t have room in your heart for me!"

"Chen Gang, I’m sorry. I know this truth hits you hard and makes you feel unloved by me, but do you know? If I hypocritically pretended to love you and played along with you, the one who would be hurt the most when the truth came out would be you, not me. I can’t be so cruel. I can’t pretend to say I love you just to get what I want. I’m not that heartless!

But unlike others, I can’t find it in me to reject everything and let you suffer such a blow to your heart. Today, I chose to tell you in this way, only to make you understand that we really are not suitable for each other. Don’t harbor any inappropriate thoughts, and don’t cling to any out-of-place ideas. Let’s consider this my mistake. I will never trust you again, and from now on, we have nothing to do with each other. You can soar to the ends of the earth on your own. Why hang yourself on just one person?"