novelraw Chapter 323 - 303: Dream_1
Chapter 323 - 303: Dream_1
Ran Zhihan kept speaking into Zhang Yichen’s ear, hoping she could summon back the man she loved the most. She didn’t want the man she’d loved for so many years to remain asleep forever. She couldn’t bear to witness such a thing happening to her. If she truly had to face this, she would rather be the one lying on the hospital bed than Zhang Yichen. To Ran Zhihan, nothing was more important than Zhang Yichen!
Zhang Yichen didn’t know whether he heard what Ran Zhihan had said to him, but in his dreams, he saw himself talking to Ran Zhihan.
In his dream...
"Yichen, why won’t you wake up? Is it really because I hurt you so badly? Seeing you lying there, unaware, do you know how much pain is in my heart? If you really love me, why won’t you wake up and look at me? If you really love me, can you bear to see me cry over you?" Ran Zhihan said to Zhang Yichen in the dream.
"Zhihan, listen to me, it’s not like that. I also want to open my eyes to see you. I want to see if the woman I love most is by my side, taking care of me. But my eyes feel so heavy, like no matter what I do, I just can’t open them. Don’t blame me, it’s not that I don’t want to see you; it’s that I’m powerless, my dear!"
"Don’t tell me that you’re powerless or something like that. If you really want to open your eyes and look at me, then you must have a way to do it. I’ve said so much by your bedside, from the bottom of my heart, yet you haven’t opened your eyes to look at me, not even once. That can only mean you don’t love me in your heart. Since you don’t love me, why do you insist on keeping me by your side? Do you know how much I love you? I love you so deeply that it’s ingrained in my bones. For you, I could give up my very life. And what about you? You won’t even open your eyes to look at me. How can you still claim to love me? Is this how you love me? If you truly love me, then open your eyes right now and look at me. See if I’m by your side, standing beside you, see if this woman who has hurt you over and over is still with you..."
"Didn’t I just say it? It’s not that I don’t want to open my eyes and look at you, but that I really can’t open them. Every time I try, it feels like there’s a mountain pressing down on my eyelids, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t open my eyes. I want to open them and see you, to reach out and touch you. Don’t you know how important you are to me? I would also give up my life for you, but why are you treating me this way? I pleaded desperately for you to stay by my side, for you to spend your life with me. And what did you do? You heartlessly decided to leave me, to go off on your own. If it weren’t for you, how would I ever be lying on this hospital bed? Seeing me like this, aren’t you happy? Now you can walk away freely, no longer forced by anyone to stay by my side, no longer obligated to do anything. Shouldn’t this be something to celebrate for you? Then why have you come back to me? Are you here to hurt me again?"
"Don’t say that. I never intended to hurt you. You mean more to me than anyone else. That day, when you begged me to stay, I cruelly refused you. It wasn’t for any other reason but fear that the people from high society would slander you. I didn’t want your future to be overshadowed by the fact that I am a daughter of commoners. Even though I have now returned from studying abroad, I still can’t break into high society. I don’t understand what life is like for you people in the upper echelons. During my years in the United States, I realized that there is an incompatibility between children from upper society and families like ours; there is always a gap, a gap that leads others to pass judgment. You know in your heart that it’s not that I don’t love you; I just don’t know how to continue standing by your side. Every moment I spent with you was joyful, a genuine smile from the heart, the kind that is rarely used. Yet, with you, I was almost always smiling, my heart was always sunny. Because whenever I saw you, I felt as if there was a prince in shining armor protecting me. Just seeing you stand by my side made me feel incredibly safe. Even a single glance from you made my heart leap. But still, there would come times when I had to make heartless decisions. If I didn’t, it wouldn’t just be you and me getting hurt, but many more people. Perhaps you felt my decision at that time was hard to accept, but do you have any idea how much my heart ached back then? How I wanted to hold you and cry, begging you not to leave me? But I still forced myself to suppress the reluctance in my heart and resolutely pushed you away. I know you still harbor hatred for me, but I hope you’ll try to see things from my perspective. If you were in my shoes, you would make the same choice. You’re as kind as I am; you wouldn’t bear to see your loved one get hurt even slightly. There are many things I don’t know how to explain to you, but I hope you can trust me a little more, believe me when I say my love for you has never changed."
"Is everything you said true? Have you always loved me in your heart? But I’m afraid that one day you’ll fall for someone else and choose to break up with me. That kind of pain would be unbearable and cut straight to the heart. Sometimes I just can’t tolerate any flaws; I can’t bear the thought of the person I love betraying me. Do you know that? All I wish for is for the one I love to be by my side. I’m not asking for grand sacrifices or contributions. I just hope they will always consider me their dearest and stay beside me. My ask isn’t much, nor am I greedy. My wish is simple: to grow old with the person I love. I don’t care whether I have sons or daughters in this lifetime; that’s not what’s important to me. What matters is that my beloved woman stays with me for a lifetime, that I can see her at all times, without facing any cold words or challenging moments. Don’t worry, I will wake up; it’s just not time yet. But when the day comes for me to awaken, I will indeed wake. I really hope that when I open my eyes, the first person I see is you, not someone else. If the first person I see when I open my eyes is you, then I hope you will stay with me forever, and never again speak of parting..."