My Alleged Husband

Chapter 322 - 302 Love’s Call_1

Ran Zhihan stroked the cheek of the man she loved and said softly, "Yichen, do you know? I have longed for the day when I could touch your cheek by my own hand for so long, but I never imagined that when this day came, I could touch your cheek, it would be while you lie motionless in a hospital bed. When I stepped outside the hospital room and saw that pale face on the bed, devoid of even a hint of color, my heart felt such urgency. I feared you might just continue sleeping like this, never to awaken. I’m sorry, the words I said to you that day, they really were too hurtful for your heart, but I never meant to do it intentionally. I’m truly afraid that I’m not worthy of you. Only when I climbed step by step into high society did I realize that between high society and the lower class there’s a society of loyalty—a society where people in high society will never value those from the lower rungs. In their eyes, they feel high society is like heaven, and they’ll always trample those from below underfoot. I was afraid that by being with me, you would be mocked by others, told that you’re living with someone from the lower society. Do you know? I don’t care what others say about me, I don’t care how much they hurt me, but I care if they hurt you. In my eyes, anyone can hurt me, bully me, but I won’t allow anyone to slander you because in my heart, you’re more important than myself. I see you as my entire world. When I pushed you away that day with all my heart, I knew that if you chose to leave decisively, then my world would collapse. How I wish you could always forcefully keep me by your side. Even if I couldn’t chat and laugh with you every day, just seeing you would be enough for me. I’m not greedy, I just hope that I can stay with the man I love for a lifetime, not subject to anyone’s torment. That would be more than enough for me. But fate is so unjust; it always makes two people suffer greatly before letting them finally be together..."

As Ran Zhihan spoke, she began to cry. Recalling in her mind the happy moments she had spent with her beloved over these past few years, her heart was truly moved, so very moved. Even though she had no memory over the past three years, she could still feel that the man lying on the hospital bed had given her genuine love and care, fearful that she would suffer even the slightest harm. Yet now, because of her reasons, he lay here, possibly never to speak to her again for the rest of his life. If that were the case, who would cherish her like a treasure as he had for a lifetime?

"I don’t want to talk about anything specific today, I just want to have a good chat with you. I want to share my inner world with you, talk about the future we once dreamed of together!"

Ran Zhihan took Zhang Yichen’s hand and said softly, "Dear, do you know how happy I was the day we made our relationship official? Because you were the lover I had always dreamt of. At that time, I didn’t know how wealthy you were, what your family background was like. I genuinely loved you because, in my heart, I never imagined I would be in a relationship with a wealthy person, let alone fall head over heels for one. Did you know how overjoyed I was when you proposed to me? Because the man I loved most was asking me to marry him. How I wished to immediately say yes, but I couldn’t because I had to consider the reasons of both families. I fantasized about walking down the wedding aisle with you someday, with you waiting for me at the other end, like my Prince Charming, waiting to live together with me. I imagined us having an adorable child who would follow us around all day, calling out ’Daddy, Daddy,’ and ’Mommy?’ I always felt that those moments would be the most memorable of our lives, filled with such joy that we could happily reminisce for a lifetime. But I never expected that after I finished my studies abroad; after I truly entered high society, I finally understood that our love wasn’t so simple. It wasn’t just about two people in love, nor just about our parents’ consent, but also about society’s acceptance, because to the world of economics, your marriage signifies your status and symbolizes who you are, while my status is far too humble. If being with you caused others to gossip about you, then I’d rather not be with you at all. Sometimes I think back on every day I spent with you, feeling that those were the most important days of my life. Even if you were no longer by my side, I could still turn those memories over in my mind, savor them over and over again because they are hidden in my heart, etched in my brain, never to fade away for my entire life. Yet, I never imagined that my departure would leave you in this state. How I wish you could stand up and embrace me tightly, because your arms are so warm, I’m addicted to your embrace without which I can’t even sleep well. Perhaps you think I’m just a frivolous woman, but do you know? I’m not frivolous with anyone else, only with the man I love the most. I don’t care about the harm others may inflict upon me, because in my inner world, no one is more important than you. Seeing you sad hurts me more than anyone, even more than the grandfather who’s cared for you all these years. Long ago, I decided in my heart that you were the one I must marry, and I secretly made a vow that if I couldn’t spend my life with you, I’d rather never marry. When I resolved to leave you, I was already prepared to never be with anyone else, so I left you so decisively; because I felt if I left you, the whole world would become dark, what would be the point of being with someone else? Dear, if you can wake up, I swear I’ll never leave you again in this lifetime. I’m with you not for your money, not for your status or position, but because you are the man I love most in my heart. My love for you isn’t for your wealth, your status, or your power. I love you as a person, as a pure and aspiring individual. When you said you couldn’t live without me, it really pained me. Was all our time together just to lead to those words? I really wanted to ask you if you could truly live without me. But I held back that question, because I believe you’re not that kind of person. In your heart, you value me above all else, you’d give up and abandon everything for me, so how could you say such things to me? You were just confused by my anger at the time, and you misspoke. Dear, please wake up. I’m waiting to marry you, waiting for my Prince to put the wedding ring on my finger..."