My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1799 - 1593: Height and Stature

A happy life always belongs to oneself, no one wants to live a life of pain!

"I don’t understand why you think I would believe every word you say, nor do I understand why you’re so confident in coming to tell me these things.

If I were you, I would choose to never say certain things in my lifetime as it’s the best outcome for both of us. Some words clearly shouldn’t be spoken, yet you choose to say them to me here. Isn’t your intention to make me uncomfortable? If you really don’t want me to live well, why come and deliberately cause trouble?"

"Chen Gang, once some things are chosen, there’s no turning back. Since this is the path chosen, then no one should blame anyone else. Once you’ve made a decision, you must see it through to the end, even if it means kneeling all the way.

Sometimes, your inner thoughts and reality are completely different. Do you know, the moment you appeared before me, I knew you already occupied my heart. I knew that for the rest of my life, no one else could enter my heart. But I didn’t expect that because I cared about you, it would eventually lead to your deception of me. I didn’t expect that my deep care for you would result in you choosing to deceive and use me, never believing in me. I always thought that whatever I wanted, I could obtain it, and you would silently support me. But later, I realized everything was just my fantasy!

If you really think that I have a place in your heart, then make the most correct decision possible. Some words are best left unsaid to preserve a bit of face for each other. Some things, once stated clearly, will only make the situation awkward and embarrassing for both parties. So many things have their own solutions, yet they become like a road we can’t turn back on and result in our relationship crumbling to dust."

He truly didn’t expect his beloved woman to say such things to him. At that moment, he realized that regardless of how wealthy he became or how great his achievements were, in the eyes of the woman he loved, he was just a worthless clown. She thought that as long as she did everything greatness deserved, she could win him over.

However, she later realized that no matter how well she did or to what extent, in the eyes of the man she loved, she was nothing at all. Truly not much, she only wished to peacefully obtain what she wanted, but why in the end did it become so difficult, as if in his eyes, everything she did was just a clown’s performance?

"Zhihan, no matter how you feel inside, I hope you understand that once some things happen, they can’t be changed. No matter how you view me, you may think I am just a clown who would do whatever it takes to get what I want. But it’s only for you that I act this way; I said so many wrong things just to create distractions with your husband, because only then could I have a chance to win you back and keep you at my side forever, so you’d never leave me again.

I thought that as long as I worked hard enough, as long as I did everything for you, in the end, you would offer some understanding for me. But ultimately, I realized you never thought that way about me. I don’t understand how you see me, perhaps in your heart, you’ve already treated me as a stranger, and every word you say is a lie. Do you truly treat me like family?"

"I never regarded you as family. Friends are friends, they can’t be replaced by others.

No matter what your purpose was for saying that, I have to clearly tell you the harsh reality. From the beginning, you’re just a classmate to me, just a good friend. I’ve never regarded you as family because you don’t belong to that category in my life.

Although I know saying these words can be hurtful, and I know they might make some people bow their heads, I have no choice. To stop you from misunderstanding any further, I have to speak out. I can’t trust you one hundred percent in anything like before because your trust is based on using me. So how can I sincerely open my heart to you and let you repeatedly use me against the one I love most?"

At this moment, Chen Gang could only laugh bitterly. He never thought that the woman he devotedly wanted would never see him as her family. All he wanted was to be with the woman he loved, but why did it end up like this? Everything had already gone beyond his imagination.

"Do you not feel any guilt in hurting my heart by saying such things? I painstakingly loved you for so many years, and for you, I gave so much. Yet in the end, you hurt my true feelings so deeply. Is my sincerity really so insignificant in your eyes? All I wanted was your smile, but you always saw me as someone using you. You will never understand how painful it is to love someone. This pain can’t be expressed in a few words, and you will never experience the pain I’ve endured because your heart doesn’t allow me in!"

"Chen Gang, I’m sorry. I know this truth will hit you hard and make you feel I’m someone who doesn’t love you. But do you know? If I pretend to love you and play along with you, when the truth comes out, you will be the one who is hurt even more, not me. I can’t be so cruel. I can’t say I love you just to achieve my own goals. I’m not that kind of heartless person!

However, I also won’t be like others who can’t find a way to refuse you, making it hard for you to accept. Today, I’m telling you in this way simply to make you understand that we’re really not suitable for each other. Don’t harbor inappropriate thoughts or ideas. This time, consider it as me misspeaking. I won’t trust you anymore, nor will we have anything to do with each other again. You can spread your wings elsewhere and not be tied to me alone."

A life without happiness isn’t my style. What I want is everlasting happiness and wellbeing in my life...