My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1798 - 1592: Polite

Everyone has different experiences, different thoughts, and thus arrives at different conclusions!

After Zhang Yichen dragged Ran Zhihan out of Old Master Zhang’s hospital room, he found his heart growing increasingly bitter and aggrieved. Why had his husband not sought her out during these many days? Did she still hold any place in his heart as his wife? Was such neglect normal in the heart of a man? Why treat her like this, when all she was was a delicate woman in need of his affection?

"What exactly do you want pulling me like this? Haven’t we made things clear between us already? Since you’ve always doubted that I was with you for money, why go on treating me like this? It only makes me more conflicted, more miserable. I understand your thoughts are different from mine; maybe every decision I make causes you resistance. But do you know everything I’ve done was for you, to be with you for a lifetime, never to leave you? Yet in the end, I’m left with the result of being utterly bruised and battered.

Yichen, I’m begging you to give me some time to calm down, stop entangling me in this manner. Let both of us quietly consider whether we should continue this life, and let us reflect if either has done wrong. I know sometimes I struggle with speaking and doing things appropriately, but please don’t despise me, don’t blame every mistake on me, can you?

I also understand that over the years my parents have found much joy and happiness abroad because of me, things I might never offer them in this lifetime. But I am grateful to you, for you’ve allowed my parents to enjoy the joys of family, repaying their years of nurturing me. I sincerely appreciate it, but I can’t allow myself to be wrongly accused again. Though I can swallow my pride, I am not a pushover, not for anyone to toy with. I am a living person, I feel pain. Being doubted by you as my husband leaves my heart in agony. Who understands such feelings?"

Zhang Yichen stopped dead in his tracks. At that moment, he suddenly felt he was at a loss for words to counter his wife. Every word she uttered made sense, and as her husband, what exactly had he done to hurt his wife?

Reflecting on his suspicions about his wife, was such a doubt what a husband should have? Despite knowing deep down how much his wife cared for him, he pretended indifference and hurt everyone with his actions. Did he really want such outcomes, or could he not fathom the depths of emotion he truly sought?

"Ran Zhihan, I ask you, when problems arise, can you not quietly endure and sacrifice? Whatever you wish to say to me, speak openly. Don’t constantly demean yourself; it makes me look down on you. Your actions genuinely wound my heart. I never expected things would come this far, nor did I foresee what our marriage would become. Do you know how exhilarated and grateful I was at the moment we wed? I felt blessed to have married my most beloved woman in time. Please don’t let me regret it."

Ran Zhihan felt even more sorrowful upon hearing her husband’s words. What’s this life for, after all? For a man who doubted her from the beginning? Why make such sacrifice?

Everything in the world is equal, a fact she clearly understood, yet foolishly she’d jumped into a pit of fire. In this life, there’s no clear escape, when all she hoped for was a stable life as husband and wife. Why is such a life so difficult for her? Why won’t anyone offer this life to her? Is she truly unworthy of happiness in their eyes?

"You don’t need to tell me this. In my heart I am grateful to you, and I love you, desperately love you. I can hardly believe the decisions I’m making. With you, I didn’t know what love was; I only knew my heart would beat with yours, suffer with your sorrow. As long as you were beside me, I felt joy. Gradually, I realized that it was my love for you. This love wouldn’t change due to our conflicts; instead, I deeply appreciate your unyielding effort to stay by my side, your companionship has brought me immense joy. I helplessly watched you suffer!

Our relationship is beyond anyone’s comprehension. So many choices are our own making, who else is there to blame? Knowing some decisions would leave me heartbroken forever, yet I plunged headlong into the abyss, ending up bruised and battered, still waiting, waiting for someone to be there for me."

"Let us each take a step back, after all, we have a young son at home. I’ve thought many times, I want my son to have a happy childhood, not be like me who spent childhood constantly training. In the end, although I gained the world, my heart remains empty. I want our child to enjoy the carefree childhood he deserves, not repeatedly proving himself to those who don’t care, exhausting and isolating himself, feeling a pain no one else could understand. I don’t want my son to endure the path I tread – it’s too cruel!"

Nothing in the world is without cruelty, everything is earned through effort!