My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1794 - 1588: Longing and Attachment

Back then, I believed there was a way to change all of this. It wasn’t until now that I realized everything was so elusive, all of it is just emptiness. No matter how much I give, I might not receive a response in the end.

On this day, Zhang Ni sneaked out of the house alone to play. When she accidentally fell on the street, she unexpectedly bumped into Xia Jing. Seeing the little boy face down on the ground, she felt a bit sorry and quickly went over to help him up. She didn’t expect the person in front of her to be her own grandson.

"Little boy, why are you alone here? Don’t you know playing outside alone is dangerous?"

"Thank you, I accidentally fell here. Thank you for helping me up. It seems there are still many kind people in this world. You seem about the same age as my grandmother. Oh, if only my grandmother could also help me up, that would be great!"

"Little boy, isn’t your grandmother here? Where did your grandmother go? Why isn’t she by your side?"

"I don’t know either. My grandmother has never been with me since I was born; I’ve never seen her. I don’t even know where her picture is. Sometimes, I really envy those children who have their grandparents around. But as for me, my grandparents have never appeared. When I miss them a lot, I think, where are my grandparents? Why don’t they want to be by my side? I just wish my grandparents could be like other kids’ grandparents, staying peacefully by my side. But this wish seems difficult in my family. My grandparents never care about my parents, nor about my great-grandfather, and even less about me, their grandson! Do you think it’s because I’m not cute enough that my grandmother doesn’t want to see me by her side? But I looked in the mirror and found I’m not that ugly. My dad is even more handsome than me. But why don’t my grandparents want to come back? I wish so much they would come back to accompany me, but this wish is really hard for us. My parents asked my grandparents many times, but they just don’t want to return to this home. Is it because the atmosphere of our home is bad that they dislike everyone here? I’d gladly return home to live with them, but I think our family is really happy—we have my parents and my great-grandfather. Clearly, it’s possible for a family to live happily together. Why insist on staying outside and not returning home to live with their own family? Is it really that bad? I really can’t understand why my grandparents abandoned me. Sometimes, I just want to prove to the world that I’m the best person in this world. I want my grandparents to know they made a huge mistake by abandoning me and refusing to be by my side. I want my grandparents to understand nothing can be discarded, but kinship cannot be abandoned. Kinship is something that no amount of money can buy. I hope one day my grandparents can understand this truth!"

"I didn’t expect you, a little child, to understand so much. If your grandparents knew how open-minded you are, how hard-working you are, they would surely regret abandoning you. You must work hard, let your grandparents know sooner what an outstanding child you are!"

Xia Jing didn’t know the little boy in front of her was her grandson, and the grandparents he spoke of were herself. She didn’t expect that when she finally recognized her grandson, it was through this little boy. At that moment, they were both stunned. They couldn’t believe such a fate existed in the world, that this chance encounter made them for the first time recognize themselves and understand what kind of person they were in their grandson’s heart, and what kind of psychological harm they caused.

"Child, are you angry with your grandparents?"

"To be honest, I don’t fear being laughed at, I kind of dislike my grandparents. I don’t understand what reason could lead them to abandon us as a family, neglecting our feelings. I really want to know what my grandparents perceive me as, their grandson, in their hearts. I wished I could’ve seen them the day I was born, but I didn’t. I also wished they could accompany me as I grew, but they’ve never been there. This deeply saddens me. I’ve considered resenting them, but my parents tell me, no matter what, not to hate my grandparents. They say my grandparents must’ve had their forced by circumstances. My parents constantly persuade me, but my heart struggles to accept this. I am still a child, wishing for more people’s affection and love. Sometimes I see other kids at school whose grandparents accompany them but not their parents. I feel fortunate to have my parents, but wish I wouldn’t be so selfish and could earn affection from both. Perhaps wanting this is too indulgent, but who wouldn’t want to wish for something in their heart? Is this desire so unforgivable, so impossible? I only wish my grandparents would come to see me, even just a look would satisfy me. But they’ve never returned. Perhaps I don’t exist in their hearts at all, maybe they didn’t wish for me in this world from the start. I dislike my grandparents, but don’t want to trouble my parents. I have to endure my dislike for my grandparents while trying to force a smile for my parents. My heart obviously hurts terribly, but I can’t disclose it to them again because I know they love me deeply and wish I’d objectively face the world without resentment. I know their intentions are for my good, but I still can’t help thinking of resenting my grandparents!"

When Xia Jing heard her grandson say such words, her heart ached with pain but was powerless!

Actually, you’ll never know, whether arguing with you or having conflicts with you, I’ve always cared the most about you.