My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1783 - 1577: It No Longer Matters

The things of the past, right or wrong, no longer hold the same importance as they used to. There’s no need to cling to them, which would only make life harder.

Ran Zhihan heard her husband repeatedly say these words, and she felt that if she didn’t use this opportunity to be a bit proud, then how could she have any standing in this family in the future? Although having a standing isn’t important to her, what’s crucial is whether she can stay by her child’s side for a lifetime.

But at this moment, she suddenly felt that if she didn’t even have a foothold, then what ability or qualifications would she have to stay at home with her child? She didn’t want much, just to accompany her child quietly. Maybe for others, this demand isn’t too much, but for her, it’s unbelievably extravagant, something she simply cannot achieve. If one day they truly drove her out of the home, then what would she do? How could she return to her child’s side? No one had ever considered her feelings as a mother; they were always so selfish.

Zhang Yichen seemed oblivious to the expression on his wife’s face. At this moment, to some extent, their relationship was being undermined. The once loving marriage would eventually be consumed by mutual doubt, no matter how much trust and affection they once had. If someone intervenes, even the happiest marriage can only march towards demise.

"Zhihan, let’s go back together, okay? Isn’t it great that we witness our son’s growth together? Don’t be angry anymore, it’s not worth it to get angry. It harms your health and makes me worry about you too. You wouldn’t want your husband to worry with you, right? You’re so considerate and should know what should and shouldn’t be done. How should we get along to make this marriage happier? I know I don’t trust you enough, but you haven’t considered how painful I was after what happened. I’m not a Saint, I have emotions. I can’t accept my wife having ties with another man!"

"Stop, it’s so sweet-talking. Do you know how much it hurt me inside when you did something wrong? You never thought about my pain. How could you not consider my feelings? Why are you saying these insincere words now?

I haven’t even agreed to forgive you, so where is this idea of living a happy life from? You have admitted yourself that you don’t trust me that much. Without trust, how do you think we can continue to live together as a couple? Think carefully about how we can maintain the happiness in our marriage."

"I’ve told you, I didn’t doubt you on purpose, but there are some things I can’t help but think about. I’m also a man, I have my pride. If I can even forgo my pride, what’s the point of living in this world? Everyone has different thoughts. All I want is a stable life. Why can’t you empathize with how much pain I feel inside?"

The presence of pain ultimately depends on one’s mindset. If one can come to terms with everything, maybe it won’t be so torturous.

"Do you still think I’m wronging you? You feel pain, but didn’t you cause me pain when you said those words? You also hurt my self-esteem. Do you know that? I thought as long as I loved you enough and had enough confidence to spend my life with you, it would be enough. But I didn’t expect that no matter what I did, in your eyes, it would still be just a pipe dream!

All my expectations of you were exhausted because of your mistrust. Do you think there’s any meaning to life without a happy marriage? I don’t know if there’s any reason for us to continue living together. Maybe you want my forgiveness just to appease our child, but do you know that every word and action of yours is important to me? Because I care for you, I even care about your thoughts!

Perhaps you can’t understand this kind of caring because you’ve never cared for me this way. But do you know how much I care for you? I could give up everything for you. Why are you unwilling to do the same? I long so much for us to live well together one day. Maybe for you, this is all too luxurious and difficult, but my heart is even more pained than yours, do you understand?"

"What will it take for you to forgive me? These issues aren’t entirely my fault. Have you ever considered how these things might pain me?

Have you ever thought about the impact these things have on me? You all are so arrogant, self-centered, and never consider my feelings. I’m a living person too! Sometimes, I get headaches and feel like my nerves are entangled, feeling my head about to split. I’ve never been so exhausted from work that I felt mentally and physically drained. At home, I’ve prepared everything for you. All you had to do was stay home with the child, yet you went out to do something to hurt me. I really don’t want to dwell on the past anymore. I want the past to disappear like the wind and never return. But you, you kept pouring salt on my wounds. You don’t trust that I’m sincere in wanting to live with you. Maybe you don’t care, but I care about our marriage! I care whether my child can happily receive parental love.

You should know better than anyone else that I was a child without parental love. Everything I had today was earned by myself. I don’t want my son to struggle due to such things. But you never care how much a father wishes for his child to live happily. I’ve given so much to this family. I just hope everyone in the family can live without worry. But have you ever thought about the hardships I’ve gone through, and for what?

Regardless of whether you forgive me, at least for the child’s sake, don’t let our hard-earned marriage end like this..."

Whether one forgives or not, it’s all like smoke in the past. Family harmony is precious, as long as the family can be together, that’s what’s most important.