My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1370 - 1193: No Complaints

He left quietly, unexpectedly disrupting all my plans. I drifted, you swayed, as if we were rootless weeds.

"I know, I know that after hearing what I say, you’ll feel angry inside, but I also understand, there are some things that can’t be changed, no matter how devotedly you treat me in this lifetime, my heart only belongs to her. I won’t change my view of him because of anything anyone says, I truly love him, love him enough to give up my life. I once thought his leaving would greatly impact me, yet I didn’t anticipate that his departure would leave me without any peace in life. All I wanted was for him to stay by my side to accompany me, but in the end, everything turned into an illusion. I don’t know the reason, nor do I understand why the heavens are so unfair to me!"

When Zhang Zhentian heard Xia Jing’s words, he burst into laughter. He couldn’t understand why this woman was still complaining about the unfairness from the heavens; did the heavens treat him fairly?

"I don’t understand why you still have the right to complain about the unfairness of the heavens to you. Do you really think the heavens are fair to me? The woman I cherished and held dearly in my heart turns out to think deeply of another man. How do you expect me to accept that the heavens are fair to me? I wish the heavens would be fair to me for just a moment. Even if you could give me a tiny fraction of love, I wouldn’t feel so furious. I have always hoped that my genuine feelings could soften your heart of stone. But why, no matter how much cost I bear, no matter how much pain I endure, just hoping you could be happy, why do you ultimately extinguish every bit of hope for me clearly? In your eyes, what am I? A game piece or a pawn for you to toy with?

Now you wish for fairness from the heavens toward you. Then, may I request that you be fair to me and give me a sliver of your love? Why must I live a life of unbearable pain? Why did you give me all the hope, accompanying me for so many years, while I never had a place in your heart? What do you take me for? What position do you place me in? In your eyes, what kind of person am I to you? Am I merely a backup?

Xia Jing, oh Xia Jing, I love you so wholeheartedly, willing to sacrifice everything for you. I willingly endure all the pain, others have ridiculed and scorned me, calling me someone who abandoned his own son, rejected his father, forsook the century-old family legacy, all for the chance to be with you and see your laughter. Because once I see you smile, I feel that all my sacrifices and abandonments are worthwhile. Why did you suddenly reveal such a big secret to me today? Do you know? If you have not loved me, you could have confessed everything earlier. Why wait until after so many years to say such words to me? This truly embarrasses me, and it makes me uncomfortable!

The woman I cherished for most of my life never loved me, her obedience and care towards me have always been a façade. I am truly a failure; as a man, I am completely a failure. I have never received a genuine heart from my woman. She has been deceiving me, treating me as a backup plan. For any man, maybe this is an indisputable fact that cannot be accepted. I truly don’t understand what sin I committed in my last life to meet you. Sometimes, I’m grateful that in my past life, I must have saved the galaxy to have the chance to meet you. But I never imagined you would ultimately choose such a method to hurt me. Your harm towards me leaves me in unbearable pain, and I will never forget this my entire life. Don’t worry, I won’t let you reach the end of marriage, because I want to keep you by my side so you can live in unbearable pain because of your actions. I want you to know that every action comes with a price!"

"Actually, it doesn’t matter if you make me live in unbearable pain. I don’t care anymore. To me, the luckiest thing in life is meeting him. I must have saved the galaxy in my past life for him to love me regardless of everything. And I would give up my life for him. Although you treat me very well and can give up everything for me, I don’t feel that way about you. I don’t have that feeling towards you, I don’t have that breathtaking moment, so how could I genuinely love you? Everything I’ve done is just a function of emotional transfer, and my heart has always loved her. For her, I could truly give up everything; I can abandon my dignity, relinquish all pride, forfeit everything I care about, in exchange for one smile from him. You cannot understand what that feeling is, nor am I able to describe it to you. Maybe until the day you truly understand, you will realize the kind of feelings I experienced back then!"

"Stop saying it, do you find it meaningful to repeat this to me over and over? Do you really feel happy using these words to attack me repeatedly? I don’t want to say anything now, I don’t want this family scandal to spread outside. My father is a man who values his reputation, and my actions have already cost him all it. I can’t let him, at such an old age, be ridiculed by others. I only wish for him to have stable years, to live peacefully in his later years without being impacted by anyone’s affairs. I only ask for this; know that this lifetime we will never have the chance to return to those happy times like before, because you don’t deserve it, you don’t deserve my love!

Maybe I am far too distant from your ex-boyfriend, I have no way to compare with him, but I can tell you never to complain about the unfairness of the heavens, for the heavens aren’t fair to anyone. It made you lose the person you love most, while making me cherish the woman I love most for so many years, sacrificing all to find out in the end that the woman I love doesn’t love me..."

Each second of love, every promise becomes torment. If you won’t mind, then let everything culminate in a blazing single moment of pain!