My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1364 - 1187: Never Loved

I always thought I was the most composed person, thinking every decision I made was the right one, but in the end, I realized it was the greatest torment deep within. No one can understand this pain, only I can deeply experience how this hurtful distance came to me in an instant.

"Zhang Yichen, do you really think by treating me this way, your wife will stay with you forever? You’re mistaken; your wife has always been using you. She doesn’t love you; she’s only with you for money. On what grounds do you think she would genuinely want to spend her life with you?" Chen Gang shouted at the backs of the two walking away. He was unwilling to accept that the love he finally obtained ended like this, unwilling to let go of the girl he waited painstakingly for years, only for her to abandon him for this man. Do they really see him as so worthless?

Ran Zhihan, upon hearing Chen Gang’s words, finally realized that her husband’s words were entirely true. This man was only trying to win her over for his own purposes. He claimed genuine love for his own benefits.

As Ran Zhihan walked, she looked up at her husband. She couldn’t read any expression on his face, unsure of his mindset—perhaps joyous or maybe saddened—knowing she had done something to hurt him. Yet she had no means to salvage the situation.

Zhang Yichen seemed to understand Ran Zhihan’s inner conflict, yet he didn’t know how to communicate it. Ultimately, he also made mistakes, but he could never comprehend why, if he as a husband erred, his wife would betray him.

Is it possible that as a husband, he is truly dispensable in his wife’s eyes? Could she betray him so easily with just a few sweet words from someone else? Where does she place him in her heart?

"Say what you want to say. It’s unnecessary to keep glancing at me indecisively. That look is very annoying right now. You were always like this before, and I was always persuaded by that look. But today, I won’t be the same as before. You’ve hurt me already. Just speak directly without deceiving me with ambiguous expressions."

"I know today’s incident is my fault. I understand how hard this is for you, but can you trust me? I genuinely didn’t mean it. I never anticipated such things happening to me. All I wanted was to live peacefully with you, but I didn’t expect it to become so difficult. I never imagined he would do such things to me. It may be tough for you to accept, but my heart is equally pained.

I admit I used to upset you with my actions. I never considered your feelings, but now I’ve changed. Everything I do revolves around you.

Because I want to spend a lifetime with you. Maybe you think what I’m saying now is deceit, but one day you’ll realize every word is true. I will prove my sincerity with actions, from the deepest sincerity, not lies to deceive you.

I admit I have no right to ask for your forgiveness or expect you to pretend nothing happened. It’s impossible. Even I feel sickened by this incident, let alone you.

I understand no one can tolerate such things, least of all a man. You love me so much, yet I did this to you for someone else, damaging your love and our happiness. How could your heart not ache? The only reason you didn’t tear apart my facade is for the sake of our son. I truly hope you’ll give me another chance, not judge me over this event. I’m not that shameless person."

"You didn’t need to say all of this today. No matter what you were like before, I don’t recognize you now. I won’t be so foolish to believe everything you say anymore. For every word you say, you must prove it true with actions, because what you’ve done is unimaginable for someone I loved the most. I’ll never understand your mindset that night you secretly met him, nor your thoughts after everything happened."

Ran Zhihan knew the issue wasn’t easily solvable. Her trust in her husband was depleted. He won’t trust her like before and won’t be devoted to staying with her. He hasn’t filed for divorce because of their son; he doesn’t want to disappoint his son and father, unbeknownst to the fact that she had no other choice.

Chen Gang in the warehouse, recalled his beloved woman’s expressions. He didn’t anticipate that she would ultimately choose not to believe him. He’s not afraid of anything, not even losing his life. All he needed was for her to trust him a little. But the end result was a harsh slap to his face.

Regardless of how far he went for his beloved woman, she remained distrustful. That suspicious gaze etched in his memory painfully. He couldn’t change what happened.

He decided that if he couldn’t have her, no one else could.

Why should he, having worked hard abroad for so many years, finally return home only for his beloved woman to betray him...

The most selfish moment was when he let his lover leave, hurting her dignity. All she ever wanted was something simple!