My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1363 - 1186: Where Is the Selfishness?

Initially, I thought meeting you was my fortune, but in the end, that might not be the case.

Things are never as simple as everyone imagines.

Now, in Zhang Ni’s heart, Zhang Yichen is just a selfish father. The result of his selfishness has been achieved; he will stop at nothing for his own purposes, even if it means hurting his family and loved ones nearby.

He thinks that his father is simply terrifying now, willing to consider only his own interests. For his benefit, he can hurt everyone around him.

He no longer understands what all of this is for. Perhaps his actions will hurt those who love her the most, but he doesn’t seem to care anymore. Despite this, he continues doing whatever he pleases, having abandoned his entire family. He treats every word from his family as wind in his ears. He is no longer the father he once was; he has changed, becoming ruthless and cold-hearted. Is this really his father? Why does he live like this now?

Zhang Ni has no way to understand why his father has become like this. What kind of reason could there be? Is it just the lack of love from his own parents?

Even if it’s truly because of a lack of parental love, he doesn’t have to act like this. Has he considered his parents when he does such things? Did he never think about how painful it would be for his parents to know the truth? To him, only he matters now, and they are like two completely different people.

Zhang Yichen knows how his image has changed in his son’s heart but there’s nothing he can do. Things have reached this point; he can only let these mistakes continue. He never thought how miserable his life has become. He thought that if only he could be happy, if only his parents could be peaceful, without any quarrels, he would be satisfied. Yet, the world has turned into this mess. What should he do to make everything seem like it never happened, to bring it back to its original state?

"Child, I know deep down you see me as an irresponsible father. We’ve missed too much. You know how much I’ve yearned for my parents to be by my side. You always had me and your mother with you, so you don’t understand what it’s like to lack parental companionship. You don’t understand how excited, how painful, and how difficult it is for a man. We can’t just throw away the things we don’t want and expect others to bear them. No one is willing to bear it repeatedly. I really don’t want much; all I hope for is for everyone to live happily. Why is that so hard?

In your heart now, I no longer hold any position. You always think that everything I do is for my selfish desires. Do you know? All these years, I’ve witnessed with my own eyes the pain my grandfather went through, how much he yearned for his son to be by his side. Over the years, I’ve gotten used to my parents never being around, but my grandfather can’t. He’s old and can’t withstand any turmoil. He just wants his last wish to be fulfilled. How could I so easily extinguish my grandfather’s hopes out of spite?

You should understand deep in your heart how he’s treated me.

You’ve also seen how hard and exhausting his life has been all these years. He gave me the best of everything.

Should I let that little thing destroy years of hope?

I’ve told you before; I am not one to swallow my words. I’d rather destroy what I can’t have than let anyone else get it, but I can’t do that now.

Because if I did, no one can know how my grandfather would end up. Sometimes, we need to consider things from another perspective.

The selfish days of mine are over. I can no longer ignore everything and treat things carelessly as I did before. I am now filled with fear of life, afraid that one misstep will hurt my family. All my decisions now only aim for the family to live peacefully and joyfully. Look at this home now; is it what a home should look like?

This isn’t a home anymore. Your mother has become like this, and now I must drive your grandfather and grandmother out because of some matters. This family will truly be shattered, and it will never be the peaceful family it once was."

Zhang Ni, even if he could disregard his parents’ thoughts, he couldn’t disregard his great-grandfather’s thoughts.

Deep down, he knows better than anyone how good Old Master Zhang has been to his father and himself. Old Master Zhang spared nothing to give us the best. Now, he is hurt because of these matters; how could his conscience rest easy? How could he face everyone who’s helped him before? Has all he’s done truly repaid the help they gave him, repaid his repeated efforts, and happiness?

He never thought about how difficult this life was going to be; he just wanted everyone in this family to live happily.

Ultimately, his father’s actions were never wrong. He became this way for the family, so everyone here could live happily. If they blamed him for these matters, would they truly be right?

Ultimately, he would become the one who is disloyal, unkind, and unfilial. No matter what, he needs to let everyone in the family live safely, peacefully, and happily. The most important thing in a family might be living together through thick and thin, never letting go, never parting.

I never loved you. I’m deceiving myself. Clearly thinking I’m calm, yet I fall into the depths of despair...