My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1321 - 1150: Who Doesn’t Want to Escape?

Always thought that nothing I did was right, but now it seems the most correct decision I made was to marry my wife, yet in the end, I still let him leave my side. Thinking about this, the pain deep within my heart is indescribable.

If it wasn’t for my selfishness, would things have reached this point?

"So eager to sever ties with me, huh? But I’m not someone who’s easy to dismiss. I don’t want to ask anything, I just want to understand one thing. Did you go through all that trouble to be with me because you truly loved me, or was it for something else? Now that things have come to this, I hope you can honestly tell me and stop using any lies to cover your so-called vanity!"

Xia Jing couldn’t have imagined that after being bedmates for over ten years, her husband would say such words to her. They’ve been divorced for several years, so why use such language to insult her character? Could it be that to him, she’s always been this kind of person? Is she truly a money-grubbing woman? But she’s never coveted anything from him, so why does he see her this way? Is it really because she returned home this time without telling him, without choosing to go back hand in hand with him?

"I won’t deny it, when I first got together with you, I didn’t involve any feelings. I just simply liked you and wanted to be with you. If it was for your family’s money, when your father’s company was on the verge of bankruptcy, I wouldn’t have extended a helping hand to save him. When your father’s career faced a downturn, at the brink of collapse, I reached out without hesitation to rescue him because I believed that if I wanted to be with you, I needed your father’s approval. Actually, if I hadn’t saved your father’s company back then, I would still be with you. But I was always trying to prove to you that I wasn’t with you for the money. If it was for the money, at the time of your father’s major financial difficulties, I could have just directly told you to break up. I could have stopped hanging myself on your single tree in a world overflowing with countless wealthy individuals. Why would I sacrifice the whole forest for just you? Because, in my heart, you are the best. But now I realize that all my efforts are just illusions in your eyes. Do you know the feeling of liking someone? It only makes your heart agonize and entangle greatly, not knowing how to make the one you like respond to you. I never think about the lives that don’t belong to me; I always look at issues from the perspective of myself and the ones I care about. But one day I slowly discovered that such actions were all wrong, without any meaning. Because what I care about doesn’t mean the one I love also cares, and what the one I love cares about is not what I care about, slowly creating a divergence between the two, ultimately leading them to never return to being together. Actually, when I view these things indifferently, I also couldn’t quite believe it deep down. But slowly, I find there’s nothing unacceptable about it, because loving someone can be too humble, and once love becomes too humble and pitiable, it only makes oneself battered all over. Clearly knowing these two aren’t suitable, yet still recklessly fighting to be together just to prove you can have a happy life, only to reinforce the realization that this really hurts both of them.

Upon hearing what Xia Jing said, Zhang Zhentian said nothing, just quietly looking at Xia Jing. She felt increasingly awful inside. The depth of her love back then now mirrored her anguish, that kind of entanglement and pain that would never be forgotten throughout her lifetime. Clearly knowing the distance between the two was a world of difference, one was a star in the sky, and the other was dust on the ground. Though they obviously couldn’t be together, she still harbored hopes. People are like this, not willing to settle, always fantasizing about stepping onto a path of love that doesn’t belong to them, but ultimately, how many understand that path will lead you into an abyss from which there’s no escape.

To love someone unreservedly isn’t wrong; it only proves the love is sincere and not driven by material motives. But, are you really suitable for each other? If the two aren’t compatible, being together will only increase the sorrow for both. Perhaps you feel you love him deeply, but this person does not love you. If he doesn’t love you, then what’s the point of being together? Forcing someone who doesn’t love you to stay by your side might bring you joy, but the one you love feels pain because he doesn’t love you, and being with you becomes torture. Who would want to inflict a lifetime of anguish on the person they love because of themselves? Yet, that’s just how people are, never willing to let go of that tiny hope in their hearts, always believing that being together can bring happiness. But eventually, who understands the hardships involved? How many difficulties lie ahead? Hardly anyone ever considers these questions.

"I think I’ve made myself clear; therefore, let’s not meet or communicate any longer. Today marks the day we wholly sever all ties. I hope you remember, none of this was caused by me, but by your actions towards me! Since you’ve chosen to heartlessly abandon me, then don’t expect to regret it, because there are no remedies for regrets in this world. Whatever decision made, one must endure all the consequences brought on by it, be they happiness or pain; they can only grit their teeth and bear it."

"Is there really no possibility between us anymore?"

"There was never any possibility between us, because in your eyes, I’m just a woman blinded by greed, blinded by money - how could I possibly fit your prideful disposition?

I cannot match up with you. Nor do I want to go through numerous changes just to adapt myself to you anymore. Such actions only tire me; for you, I’ve sacrificed far too much. Now I want to truly live for myself!"

After Xia Jing finished speaking, she hung up the phone, but her heart was aching, still remembering that section of forgetfulness, still hoping for that affection which doesn’t belong to her in the end, what could she do in the end? Everything that doesn’t belong to her can’t be obtained.

This might be what is meant by what’s destined to be will be; what isn’t destined won’t be after all?

"I always thought that avoiding problems wasn’t the solution, but in facing all difficulties simultaneously, who doesn’t want to escape, who does not wish for those problems never to have occurred!"