My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1302 - 1131: Our Love

In fact, the world is constantly changing, and the crowd is endlessly flowing. I don’t know what to do with all that I have given and the harm I have suffered!

Xia Jing feels that now she has no expectations for her husband. All those high hopes she once had for him were destroyed by him. What qualification does she have now to hold such high hopes again?

If from the beginning Zhang Zhentian hadn’t disappointed her, she might still have given him another chance. If at the very start Zhang Zhentian hadn’t cruelly abandoned her, she wouldn’t have ended up like this, pressured step by step until everything became what it is now. This is not anyone else’s fault but their own. Who told them to choose a path no one else was willing to take?

Zhang Zhentian found it simply unacceptable when his ex-wife said she wanted to be friends with him. This is the last thing he wants to see. He doesn’t want to be just friends; he wants to be with her for life. Is such a request really so unreasonable? Why won’t they even agree to this small request, turning everything into what it is now? What does this all mean in their eyes?

"Do you think I, Zhang Sheng Tian, am someone who passively accepts everything? Do you think that whatever you say, I’ll just follow all your arrangements? I will definitely not let your wish come true!

I know I am not qualified to talk to you about love, and I know I have no reason to keep you by my side, but I hope you remember: no matter what, you will always be mine, and that is a fact that cannot be changed for a lifetime. You now have only two choices: either reconcile with me or allow me to keep entangling with you completely!

You can only choose one path. If you are reasonable, please choose the path that is best for both of us. Don’t make me chase after you every day, making you annoyed and me tired!"

"If you feel tired, then stop chasing after me. Don’t keep clinging to me. Don’t you realize that this annoys me? You know that your actions make me feel vexed, and you also feel tired. So why not give each other a chance to lead a happy life that we both want, instead of dragging each other into a deep pit of suffering? Is this the result you want to see? Can you really not bear to see me happy?

Our love, when did it become something that isn’t what I most wanted?

Sometimes, even I can’t believe that what was once such a happy life has turned into what it is now because of us. We can’t blame anyone else; it’s our own doing. We chose different paths, a path destined to leave us both bruised and battered. But since we chose it, shouldn’t we persevere no matter what difficulties we face? Why are you choosing to give up halfway? Are you really someone who quits halfway?

I can hardly believe we have reached this point, much less you. I once had such great hopes for our life together, and I thought that just being with you made every sacrifice worthwhile. But later, I realized it was impossible because your actions truly broke my heart. In your eyes, I am nothing more than someone dispensable. You easily hurt the sincerity I had for you. Since you think this way, why insist that I come back to you when all it does is hurt you more?"

"No matter what you say to me today, I absolutely won’t follow your arrangements. I am a person, not a submissive pet. I am a living person with my own thoughts. Can’t I do what I want to do? I can’t make you stay by my side, but I can always be by yours, entangling with you. Neither of us will find peace this way. I would rather us both live in pain forever than let you enjoy the life you want by yourself!

Perhaps you feel disheartened by my decision and think it’s too extreme and obstinate. But do you understand? The once happy life was easily destroyed by me. How can I not be tormented inside? And, while I am tormented, you think of wandering the world happily. Do you really think I would allow that? I absolutely won’t let this happen between us!

You say you want to be friends, which I absolutely won’t agree to. We were once spouses, once lovers, moving from lovers to spouses step by step. We shared a bed for over a decade. Do you think I could so easily ask you to give up? I simply can’t.

My love for you is vast as the heavens, bright as the sun and moon. Everyone knows how deeply I love you. I would never do anything to hurt you. At that time, divorcing you was not something I wanted. I was driven to it by anger, not knowing what else to do because of the lies you repeatedly told. Not once could I truly endure. What I cared about most was your comfort, yet you used your safety as a gamble. If it were you, would your mind not be troubled? Could you hear and see all this and remain unmoved, pretend nothing happened? Can you truly remain so stone-hearted and watch the person you love most be punished by their own gamble?"

Xia Jing thought over Zhang Zhentian’s words. She felt that if it had happened to her, she also couldn’t endure it. But ultimately, everything came to this, and none of it was what she wanted. What she wanted was nothing more than a happy, carefree life. Is that so much in their eyes? Isn’t her desire simple enough, just for her family’s safety and a happy life she wanted? But ultimately, she couldn’t achieve it.

"I think being friends is the best outcome... If we don’t want to hurt each other deeply, please let go and take a step back. Because you should understand keeping on like this is hurtful for both of us, right?"

If one day people could truly have a second chance, she wouldn’t make such an ending. Perhaps what she once wanted most was just to have her parents back. But when her family returned, she lost the person she loved most.

Isn’t that a fair trade-off?