My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1257 - 1086: Courage That Flew Away

Always thought my life would never change, but who knew the hardships I once endured, how difficult it was back then.

Several days passed, Xia Jing learned from her brother about Old Master Zhang’s hospitalization, all because Zhang Zhentian was furious beyond measure. He couldn’t believe his ex-husband could really do such a thing, and truly make her biological father fall ill and be hospitalized. He stormed to the hospital, wanting to discuss these matters clearly with his husband. Regardless of who was right or wrong, who was at fault, the final outcome should be spoken of, not letting one person bear all the pain and hardship alone. He knew that once this incident affected his biological son’s heart, it would be the hardest for him because his grandfather loved her the most and she saw her grandfather as her life, even more important than her own life.

Xia Jing hurriedly arrived at the hospital, feeling that this matter must be clarified with her husband; the consequences would be unimaginable if she didn’t find Zhang Zhentian to clear things up. Regardless of who was right or wrong, who was at fault, everything should be explained clearly, not letting this mistake continue to persist anymore. She knew this thing must be related to herself, just that none of them came to reason with her; how could she as an outsider let them suffer so much harm because of her? Clearly she had no more relevance among them, yet always seemed to disrupt their peaceful relations; she was indeed overburdened by guilt.

Father and son saw Xia Jing slowly walking towards the hospital entrance. They both knew this matter wasn’t so simple, don’t always think you can deceive everyone and cover the truth. Ultimately what’s meant to come will come, and the responsibility you should bear can’t ever be escaped. Since those things are related to yourself, you should openly admit all the mistakes, not always thinking of letting others help you bear the consequences. Others aren’t your scapegoat, they’re not obliged to take the blame for you time and again. Everything needs to be borne by oneself to yield good results.

"Xia Jing, why are you here? When I tried to find you before, you insisted on not seeing me at all; why are you willing to see me now? Did you have a realization, thinking of continuing to live with me, or do you feel you can’t leave me and can’t give up on me as your husband?"

"Zhang Zhentian, I really didn’t think you could be this kind of person, he is your biological father, how can you strike so harshly? How can you do something so outrageous? Do you know? No matter what he did to hurt us, no matter why he disrupted our marital relationship, I hope you can clearly understand that where we stand today has nothing to do with your dad; it was all caused by you. I asked you before, and you said you would rather die than continue living with me. Since you made such a decision, why force us together? Isn’t this making it even more difficult for both?"

Even if you don’t say it, I know today’s matter definitely relates to me. I know your father came to find you, asking you to return home and stay by his side, but you heartlessly rejected him. You rejected him because he disrupted our relationship, you don’t want him controlling your life’s destiny, right? In fact, you never thought about all the wrong things you’ve done. As a father and an elder, he lowered his head to a junior like you, what qualification or reason do you have to refuse his kindness?

I didn’t understand these principles before, but now I do. The mistakes we made in the past were so wrong because our selfishness hurt those who loved us most. We were always so self-righteous, arrogant, never thinking that those who loved us would be hurt by us, nor realizing how painful their inner suffering was. Only by experiencing certain things do hearts grow, but you are already an adult now. You should bear all the consequences brought about by your mistakes, shouldn’t you? I want to ask you, you always claim to be a true man, but where is your masculine spirit? Where is your courage to bear consequences? You have none of these things, on what basis do you claim to be a man?

As a man, you can lack everything, no money, no house, no car, no status, no benefits, but at the very least, one should have the guts that a man should possess, should have the responsibility that comes with the courage to bear responsibility. And you, having nothing, on what basis are you so arrogant and self-centered here? I can understand your arrogance then as youthful recklessness we can overlook, but now it can’t be ignored because each of us has important people in our hearts. Everyone considers those they care about and would give anything for them; yet every decision you make now really makes me unable to believe. I can’t believe this would be done by the person I once loved most. I can’t believe these are the decisions you’ve brought to me. Do you know? I never thought you would treat your biological father this way!"

"No, let me explain, it’s not what you think, can you listen to me properly?"

"You don’t have to tell me anything now because I wouldn’t believe a word you say, I’d only think you’re shirking responsibility. Do you know? If you really think you still have a bit of masculine spirit, then I hope you can actively stand up and bear all these consequences. This matter started because of you, so it must end because of you. If anyone gets hurt because of you again, I truly won’t ever see you again. The complexity of our relationship has only to do with you, not anyone else; all of it was caused by you alone. On what basis can you push all the guilt onto others? Why should others take the blame for you time and again, become your scapegoat? People can be selfish, but at the very least can you tell me where your responsibility is? Can you tell me your courage? Your responsibility, does it still exist at all?"

Where did my courage go? Did it fly away?