My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1242 - 1071: Whose Life Isn’t Full of Ups and Downs

In this lifetime, aren’t we constantly living through repetitive situations, doing things we least want to do, trying to live differently from others? We always speak our true feelings and do things against our conscience, turning ourselves into ruthless beings, only to look back and realize all those actions never felt like our own — even we are afraid of becoming so terrible one day.

Do you still remember? How crushing it feels when everything weighs down on you repeatedly. And how it feels deep inside when you’re continuously doubted by others.

"Since you already know I’ve said things to this extent, take your time to think about what you should truly do. Don’t make me continue saying unpleasant words; it wouldn’t end well for either of us. Let’s leave some dignity for each other and not speak too harshly, nor make things too awkward.

Mom, deep down, you should know better than anyone how much I long for you to return to this home. I don’t want you to leave the family over any slight issue. You should understand what your departure means. Your departure means abandoning me again, taking my father away again, causing everyone at home to lose two family members because of you. Every person at home has to bear twice the pain because of one person — have you thought about what your actions represent? Stop being wilful, putting all the happiness on yourself and letting others bear all the pain. Such thinking is incorrect.

No matter what happens, I won’t blame you nor scrutinize every decision you’ve made, wondering who caused it all. Because I know deep down, no one is genuinely bad; you are all kind-hearted. The reason you choose to hurt me repeatedly is simply that you don’t understand that twinge of pain in your own heart. Cheer up. Remember, whenever and wherever, I’m always your son. Even if in this life, you can only watch me from afar without embracing me, I’m still your child. Deep in my heart, there will always be a place for you. You are my parents. But I sincerely ask you to stand in my shoes and understand my difficulties, can you? I’m living so difficultly; every day feels like walking on thin ice. Have you ever truly thought about how much I’m suffering?"

Xia Jing was left speechless by what Zhang Yichen said.

This is my own son, speaking such words to me for the first time. Should I really abandon him again? Is everything I’m doing truly right? If what I’m doing is correct, why would there be criticism from others? But if what I’m doing is wrong, then it only proves that nothing I’ve done has met expectations. Everyone has their own path. Is the path I’m on right or wrong? Only at the moment when everyone is hurt by my actions, what have I become?

"Child, I’m sorry. I’ve been too selfish, and my careless considerations led to the current situation. The scene now is really embarrassing. No matter what, I refuse to let this awkwardness continue. If it does, I wouldn’t have the face to meet you. You’re my son, and as a mother, I’ll take every word you say as advice. Your words carry your reasons. I don’t wish for us to quarrel over any matter. Can we each find a bit of happiness and joy?

Quickly go to the hospital to care for your wife. Never let my matters delay her paperwork, or it’ll fill me with guilt and a sense of wrongdoing. I won’t ever be pleased with my actions again. From the moment I stepped into this home, I felt the warmth of family. I’m grateful you gave me this chance. Now, I won’t choose to leave. No matter what, I won’t leave this family again in this lifetime.

Even if I endure hardships, mockery, neglect, and cold stares here, I’ll remain steadfast in this family. It’s not for money, not for any other family member, but for you, my son. To prevent my son from being hurt repeatedly and to keep you from being ridiculed over and over. So you can truly experience having family all together.

That feeling is something we’ve both longed for over the years, and I’ve wished for it as well. My anticipation each time only reinforces the resolve to not admit defeat. Admitting defeat means I was wrong, forcing me to stubbornly hold on to pride. But who knows I never thought that way in my heart. I’m not an emotionless woman. I’m a living human being, and more importantly, your mother, with a mother’s love and the moment where her nurturing shines."

"Whether what you said today is true or not, I feel touched. Thank you so much, my mom. There’s something I’ve never told anyone before, but today I want to tell you: I love you, my mom. Through the years, I’ve lived alone and lonely. Even with grandpa’s company, in my inner world, I was isolated. He is my grandpa, but he could never replace my parents in my heart or give me the love that my parents couldn’t provide — it’s a different feeling. Now, hearing your words, I feel truly happy and excited inside. You’ve given me a new feeling, allowing me to find the most important goal in my life again.

On the day my wife gets discharged, I’ll throw a grand banquet and introduce you to all the relatives and friends. I’ll let everyone know that my parents didn’t abandon me but went on a journey. After all these years, with one pregnancy, the world finally returned. I’ll let everyone know my parents aren’t heartless; they love me. They’ve left me with the most beautiful and profound love of this life!"

Zhang Yichen hurried and left afterward. He couldn’t stay at home for too long, as his wife in the hospital still needed his care. No friend helping could match the care of her husband. He should always be by her side, never stepping away. His family has become complete now. Even if his career completely declines in the future, so what? At least he’s obtained the family he most wanted in this life.

"I once thought no matter what, I had to get what I wanted most in life, even by any means necessary. But gradually, I understood that these cannot be achieved through relentless pursuit alone. If it’s meant to be yours, it will be eventually. If not, forcing it to stay will only lead it to leave someday.

Instead of waiting until everything spirals out of control, it’s better to let go early. Why live through a life feared most in the past, repeatedly over and over?

There’s no need to worry about everything. Walking the path directly in front of me well is the decision and choice I should make in life!"