My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1233 - 1062: We Once Cared

Perhaps in your eyes, you’ve never thought about how much I’ve cared about the feelings between us, but as paths appear before you again and again, as you experience countless storms, you realize this is what you most want to protect.

I never understood how I got to this point.

Who hasn’t sincerely cared for someone? Think of all the efforts you’ve made, only to end in the most painful conclusion. If it were you, would you willingly let others lead you by the nose again and again, while you hide away silently and unnoticed?

"Zhentian, are you really that foolish? You were never like this before. Although I always teased that you were naïve and impulsive.

Why did you not consider the final outcome when you did this today? You didn’t care what your father would think; you only had me in your eyes. But in your eyes, is a wife really that important? Your father is the one who gave birth to you and raised you; he worked hard to bring you up, which wasn’t easy. But I’m just a piece you brought into the house, a wife you can replace, but if you lose your father, he’s gone forever. Why don’t you think about your family’s feelings?

Even though you care so much about me, I’m deeply touched and happy to receive such profound love from you. But sometimes love shouldn’t be like this; your love is too selfish and self-serving. This kind of love can’t bear the weight we’re capable of handling. We want so little in life, our happiness is so simple, so why does the outcome always turn into unbearable pain? Is that the end you desire?

You should understand that everyone wants a simple life. Over the years, through countless storms, you know better than anyone. You know what I’ve endured, and you know how I feel about you. Deep down, you know better than anyone, but why do you pretend to be innocent? Do you think by doing so, you’ll gain understanding and support from others? Do you find meaning in that?

Time and again, I bear the brunt while you stand out to take the fall for me, making the world see me as a bad person!

Sometimes, we need to stand in another’s shoes to think about the problem, to know what your actions look like to others. When others see such an outcome, what thoughts occupy their hearts? Never just think from your own perspective, because that view is too careless. You can’t make decisions for others. Sometimes, our thoughts are just misunderstandings of others, which often lead to escalating conflicts between us. Isn’t that so?

I think at this moment, the person you should apologize to most is your father. If you truly died here today, you would lose your father and your son. To put it bluntly, you’d be abandoning them forever again, never to be forgiven by them. Your actions are simply unforgivable, why do you treat them like this time and again, just for me?

I’ve said before that I bear no resentment towards you, I’ve married you, proving I’ll never pursue past mistakes again. You need not cling to them, since holding onto past issues only deteriorates our relationship, making it troublesome. All I want is to stay peacefully here, beside my child. Please give me this chance, don’t keep causing me problems, opposing me everywhere."

Zhang Zhentian lowered his head at his wife’s words, finally realizing that he’d never done anything right. His wife, always practical and sensible, made him question the entirety of his actions. Again, he’d almost caused his father’s total loss of him, despite knowing how much his father cared for him. Why was it so simple-minded of him to disregard their feelings?

It’s his own fault for being too domineering. Time and again, he never considered whether others could bear such blows, his decisions made from mere impulsiveness, leading to inevitable regret. When he finally realizes his errors, it’s too late; nobody will wait forever for his admission of guilt, and even if he does admit, forgiveness may not come.

"Xia Jing, I’m sorry, I understand now. I feel like nothing I’ve done was right. I now simply want a stable life, never again will I rashly give up my life, because life is precious. Life is only one, and I can’t make light of it. If I act like this, my family would surely be in pain, especially my father. He worked tirelessly to bring me up, like you said, what’s worse than a parent burying their child?

If that’s the case, how painful would it be for them? I’m his son, yet I’d leave him in such a way as to never understand, never find joy. All he wants is for his son to live steadily and accompany him, to talk with him, to see him coming home as a form of happiness and comfort. If I truly left this world, what would my father say, unable to even see me? Would he be even more broken-hearted?"

"It’s good that you’ve realized. If you keep on like this, I truly don’t know how else to talk to you.

Your mind works slower than anyone else’s; others immediately admit their wrongs, but you never reflected, always thinking you’re right. But in reality, everything you’ve done was wrong. You never considered others’ thoughts back then, and now you still don’t apologize to your father sincerely. Do you want him to keep worrying about you?

No matter the time or place, parents will always care about their child’s well-being. Even if their child falls into error, they focus only on their child’s life!"

I have sincerely cared, who wouldn’t know the life they once lived, never thinking of what they’ll do in the future!