My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1223 - 1053: The Window of the Soul

Once someone said that everyone has a window in their soul, a window that exists more or less, it just depends on whether you can open your heart.

"No matter which of you says any promise to me, I will never believe it, because the most unreliable thing in this world is someone else’s promise. Ultimately, every promise becomes a lie as time passes. No one will fulfill what they said they would!

Since you can’t keep the promises you made in the past, why so easily make promises to others? I remember everything you said before, no matter what reason you left me for, I will never forgive you.

I know you are my parents and I know you are my biological parents. Some things I have no means to change, but some outcomes I can absolutely deal with any way I choose.

I understand that you don’t agree with some of my ways of handling things, because those ways have ultimately hurt some feelings between us. But you don’t know why I became like this, why I made the decisions I did for everything I did. Isn’t that right?"

Zhang Zhentian and Xia Jing both know very well why their son speaks this way, because the actions they took back then are unacceptable and unforgivable to anyone. As a child, he’s already gone steps beyond the ordinary. He has forgiven his parents time and again, even without a word of complaint. No matter how much discontent he holds inside, he always considers his family and lets go of all prejudice time and again. But eventually, all he gets back in return is deceit. How could his heart not ache? Everyone’s heart is made of flesh. When one does something wrong, seeing others plead will soften their heart. He isn’t made of stone. When facing his parents, he too faces torment, feeling torn and uneasy. He doesn’t know what decision would be responsible to his family, to his parents, and to himself.

Actually, they all know how hard and tiring their son’s life has been all these years.

But although they are aware of the life he’s led, as parents they have no way to resolve these issues. Even knowing who brought such pain, they can only pretend to live ignorantly in his world. Because they know that any bad act on their part would immediately disrupt the peaceful life, making it impossible for the family to continue living.

They understand that once something has happened, it can’t be undone. Even if the conclusion brings deep pain, they can only silently bear it all. Everything stems from the consequences of their own actions.

"Child, now that your parents have made these promises to you, you can confidently pursue anything you want. As parents, we won’t interfere with any decisions you make this time. I hope you can consider this well. If you need help from us, don’t hesitate to ask, and as your parents, we will help you at any cost. We owe you so much in the past, maybe only helping you now can ease our guilt. We hope you give us a chance to redeem ourselves as parents. We caused you so much pain before that we can’t live as we did before, but we are trying our best to change, aren’t we, changing our inner life and our emotional ways?"

"I hope you truly give us a chance to start anew. Leaving you is my deepest pain in life. I never thought I would go through such suffering, never thought leaving you would make life unbearable. Perhaps this is heaven’s test for me, forcing me to accept the pain brought by my own child, due to my actions which hurt my family, destroyed everything I should have had to be happy, leaving me with no choice but to accept these decisions!

Child, leaving you has given us the deepest pain in this lifetime. If you still regard us as your parents, please give us a chance to start anew. Don’t cut us off completely. I believe heaven has eyes. Every deed done will be seen crystal clear by heaven. There’s never any chance to return to the beginning. Once a heart is hurt, it cannot heal, this much I know. I know I have broken your heart as a child, and as parents, we’ve made you despair. Perhaps we have no way to mend your broken heart, but please believe us, we can truly strive to give you a beautiful future because you are our son, and we will use all our power to help you, to love you!"

"Then we don’t need to say these things anymore. Just know in your hearts that once a heart is troubled, there’s no way to go back to the start. You must understand how deeply you’ve hurt me. I can’t just forgive you fully for some sweet words. I truly can’t.

Everyone’s despair accumulates bit by bit; repeated disappointments ultimately lead to hopelessness. Once someone loses hope in another person, there’s no chance to return to the beginning, no matter how deep their love is. Being hurt means being hurt, and there’s no way back to the initial stage of feelings. So, the harm you’ve caused me is something I can never forget, no matter how much love you give me as parents. You can’t make up for the void and the cold winds during my childhood, things I can never erase from my life’s pains!"

The window in the soul may shut or be forgotten for certain reasons. Everyone ponders the path of their life, and everyone should have the right to pursue happiness.