My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1217 - 1047: All of Us Are Those Who Love in Vain

Do you all remember? Once, I went through some very difficult things, and I also experienced a lot that caused me pain, but I never gave up.

Zhang Zhentian feels that no matter what he says to his father now, it won’t make a difference; the only thing he can do is make his father live happily. However, that taste of unrequited love, she really doesn’t want to experience that again. It’s the one pain he wants to avoid for the rest of his life.

"Dad, I know everything I’ve done has made you very disappointed, but all I wanted was to be by the side of the woman I love most. Do you understand? Over the years, for her, I’ve traveled to the ends of the earth. When she left, I didn’t abandon myself. I’ve done everything to get her back. What I’m doing isn’t a moment of irrationality; all I want is for her to be by my side.

Even if, deep down in her heart, that person isn’t me, just being able to see her makes me feel at ease. It’s a feeling you can’t possibly understand. Wanting to stay by her side, safely and securely, but does that seem too difficult for you, making you feel time and again that everything I’m doing is just putting on a show?

Have you ever felt the pain of unrequited love, how painful it can be? Do you understand just how much it hurts deep in my heart?

This pain can’t be changed by anyone. Since I chose this path at the beginning, it proves that deep down, I only want to spend my life with her. No matter what the ultimate outcome is, no matter how many storms we face together, those days are truly precious, being with the one you love, facing the world hand in hand. Who can truly understand that feeling? Who can experience it for me?

Everything I rely on is just myself. I don’t want much more. The pain and sadness over and over have ultimately dealt a heavy blow to my heart. Staying safely by her side, accompanying her, since I initially chose to hurt you, I can’t now choose to hurt her to safeguard you all.

If I really chose to do this, it would undoubtedly be another complete hurt to each of you. None of you would want to face such an ending, right?"

"Child, maybe the taste of unrequited love you’re talking about, I really can’t understand, let alone experience. Your mother has been gone for so many years. Do you know? Even if no one understands me, can’t you feel how painful it is deep in my heart as your father?

You love your wife, and because of our interference, you can’t be with her, which is a form of unrequited love. Your heart is hurt. But what about me? I also love your mother, but she has completely left this world. I love her too, but it’s equally unrequited love. On the contrary, loving your mother is even harder. Your wife is still alive, and you can argue with her anytime, bring her back, but me, I have no way. Because she’s left this world, even if I want to bring her back, I can never do it, she can only live forever in my memory.

Actually, I really hope that you can clearly think about what you truly want. But over the years, each mistake you’ve made, you’ve never considered what I truly wanted most in my life. You’ve become numb, lost in the course of your life, unsure of what you really want. You’ve turned your life one step at a time into what it is today.

Maybe you think that you’re living well and freely now, but you’ve forgotten about those who’ve been hurt because of you, how painful their lives are.

You’re now telling me how painful unrequited love is. We’ve both experienced it, we’ve all been through it, everyone’s become numb to what kind of life they should live. Time and again I’ve pushed myself to the brink. I need to make myself realize, no matter where or when, not to let the prospective benefits blind my mind.

It’s not easy for me to have come this far, for my group, my company to have its current fate, even harder. Everything I’ve done has been through my own hard work, without relying on anyone else; I started from scratch. Yet I gave you a life of luxury, and in return, I received sarcasm again and again, abandonment over and over!

When you were doing all these things, you never thought about how much we, as parents, love you. We’ve sacrificed a lot for you as children, but no matter how we sacrificed, in your eyes, it was just a mere dream, you don’t care, because deep in your heart you don’t even know whether you should protect your family or live together anymore.

Your life is truly a failure. You’ve sacrificed a lot for yourself in the past, for your wife especially, willing to do anything to elope with her, even at the expense of your child. In the end, the result you get is a series of repeated mistakes on your part.

You’ve made so many wrongs, but you still haven’t recognized if you’ve truly erred, so you don’t know where you’re wrong, nor what you should do. You imagine everyone else as demons, but in reality, the true demon is yourself. You’ve sacrificed everyone’s happiness over and over with your own hands, destroying your life for your so-called grand ideals.

Think about it, even if your wife has stayed by your side over the years, was she truly happy being with you? Has she never missed her child, never thought about returning home? All this joy at the time, but the final consequences are enormous. Everything must be paid for, the price you pay is being repeatedly shut out, a feeling I believe you will never forget for the rest of your life. The hurt your son gives you by choosing never to forgive you as parents, how should you feel inside?

Love that cannot be obtained is ultimately just a saying; whether you can get it in the end depends on yourself. If you choose to live well with her, then you must spare no expense to pursue her!"

We are all people who love but cannot obtain, and we all must endure things that make us wish for death.