My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1124 - 974: The Most Hurtful Words

You think that facing your parents’ repeated verbal pressures is a form of harm, and maybe one day, you will truly understand that the most hurtful words aren’t from others but when someone else’s true heart is crushed and trampled beneath your own challenges. You didn’t care about their feelings at the time, and when they return everything to you, you’ll realize that was the most embarrassing and painful thing.

Whatever they said shifted all attention onto Zhang Nai.

"Nai’er, there are some things I need to tell you in advance, never think about falling in love during your time of study and growth. That can bring you pain, don’t think that being in love is a happy thing. Indeed, some relationships are exhausting, you might give everything for a woman, but in the depths of his heart, the person he truly loves isn’t you. Even if one day he pretends to tell you that you’re the one he loves, who knows what he’ll do behind your back? Like many girls, they truly love a boy, willing to toil for her, but in the end, what do they get? The boy has affairs outside. Do you think such a life is one a normal person should live? No one wants to live under such a shadow all their life, it’s stifling, it’s painfully unbearable!"

"Why are you suddenly saying these things to me? You don’t think I’m in a relationship, do you? Then you’re overthinking it. Everything I do is just to grow happily, I have no regrets about my actions. Don’t overthink it, I won’t send myself prematurely to the grave of relationships. I know how frightening love can be, especially romantic love."

Zhang Yichen doesn’t understand why his son would say such words. Could it be that his son already has someone named Li Mu but hasn’t told them? Yet he doesn’t want to believe that his son could make such an earthshattering move at such a young age. He believes his son isn’t that kind of person, but everyone is curiously watching him, waiting for his next words.

"You really don’t need to worry about me falling in love during my growth phase and studies. I’ve seen the situations you’ve described. I’ve seen a boy love a girl deeply, only to be hurt by her, and when she finally realized her mistake, he chose to keep a mistress outside. You know this happens too often. When I see this, I can’t judge right from wrong. I’m afraid that the woman I love deeply may just be pretending before me, and every word she says is just to appease me. That truly is terrifying. I don’t have the capacity, I don’t have the skills to endure such turbulence.

All I want in life is to live simply and peacefully. Living is tough enough, so being happy, free, and unfettered is enough. If I live my entire life following others’ paths, even if I’ve reached the end of life, would I still be me? Would that still be the real me? I just want to be my true self, to show my genuine self to everyone, not to deceive others with my facade, relying on my age, sympathy, and tolerance. I cannot use others’ kindness, their goodwill towards my age to exploit them, nor to harm anyone. That’s not what I should do. What I can do is hope to live happily and peacefully, and in everything I do, I just hope everyone can be happy. Watching my grandparents and parents, I’m even more afraid of marriage.

Grandparents, you three know very well that some things have no clear reason or explanation. I didn’t experience this feeling before, but I now understand what it’s like. Behind every disappointment lies the hope you once had, and those hopes are always given by others. Yet I watch time and again as the one I love most stands in someone else’s embrace. I understand that feeling, but has anyone really thought about what they truly wanted the most? Is it really just to be happy and content all your life? However, it’s not.

Nowadays, many are together just to deal with others, hoping the one they truly like will confess to them. I don’t want to meddle in others’ relationships and be pointed at as a mistress. Do you know how infuriating it is to see a mistress disrupt someone else’s relationship? I don’t understand why women do this. Are they truly that happy slipping into another man’s bed, intruding into others’ lives, and disrupting their rhythm of happiness? Is that really what they want?

I once thought that person just wanted to be a mistress all their life. To them, maybe the term mistress is something fresh. Maybe being a mistress is all they are suited for...

You might not believe it, but when everything is piled onto one person, when every difficulty appears before them and they can’t solve it, their mood is irritable. But facing family, they can only stay calm and cannot let their family bear the training and pain meant for them.

I’ve seen many harmonious families, once happy living together, torn apart by a mistress. Within such families, people don’t resemble people, and ghosts don’t resemble ghosts, having lost all warmth turning a home into just a broken nest. You know that feeling is really disheartening, and I’m afraid, afraid that one day I’ll face such a scene. I can’t be sure if I can just easily live this life, or if I can live peacefully and freely, but at least I’ve pursued what I truly wanted, done what I aimed to do in life. Ultimately, even if the outcome isn’t what I want, I’ve no regrets, because making an effort is the best action, and action is the best proof. If I can’t prove I even had the courage to want something, then I’ve lived in vain. I will never believe those women’s insincerity. They may be with you today, but tomorrow might climb into someone else’s bed behind your back. I hope such things don’t happen to me. I hope to live my life securely, and that’s enough..."

"No matter when or where, never think of trampling on the sincere emotions others give you."