My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1123 - 973: Never Forget the Grace of Parents’ Nurturing

"Perhaps I know someone you think I’ve changed for, but none of you ever wondered what caused such a change in me. No one has ever considered anything from my perspective. Who could understand how difficult my past was, yet I walked step by step to where I am today and the result it brought me.

Many times you think that certain things have changed everyone’s ideas, yet you never thought about how your actions might have hurt everyone around you. Maybe at that moment you thought it was unimportant to disappoint your parents’ expectations, but years later, you’ll realize that if you had your parents by your side, giving you genuine companionship, you wouldn’t have ended up like you are now. No one wishes for things to become like this; everyone has their own ideal life, uncertain of when it will arrive or when it will come true."

I have thought and recalled everything...

During that time, at least there weren’t constant arguments like before, and his wife’s condition was relatively stable, with no bad incidents or unexpected events. For him, this was a blessing in disguise; he hadn’t lived such a peaceful life for a long time. He knows how hard it has been to reach this point, yet he never gave up.

If his family’s conflict brought about bad results, he truly didn’t know what kind of outcome he would face. He no longer had any energy or ideas to deal with these grudges and feuds. He felt that every day was fulfilling yet exhausting.

These years, she walked step by step to today, which truly wasn’t easy. He thought about everything he had been through over the years, every decision he made—was he really at peace with them? He never thought about how he got to this point. He lived step by step, just hoping his family could be safe. Now that his family has reached the conclusion he desired the most, even though his wife hasn’t woken up, he still feels happy...

"Dad, honestly, I’ve become completely hopeless about this family. I can’t feel the warmth I once wanted from anyone here, do you understand? When I’ve been tormented over and over, when I was desperate for solace and the care and protection from loved ones, what I got in return was always pain. I longed so much for a happy and joyful life, and in the end, what did I get? Nothing, instead, I lost so much.

Over the years, no matter how you viewed me, I truly felt happy. Even though I was hurt time and time again, only able to cry alone under the covers, deep in my heart, those were still the happiest times of my life. I relied on my efforts to get to where I am today. Without relying on anyone, I was only raised by my grandfather. In that moment, deep in my heart, it was truly bittersweet. I didn’t receive your love or companionship. In my heart, my parents were like invisible people, never appearing by my side.

The age when I needed you the most has long passed. Those past times have never come back, and there’s no opportunity to return to the present. How could you understand the profound pain you caused me back then? I never told anyone about my past hurts because it was pointless. But today, I truly can’t bear it anymore. After doing so much, what was my final outcome? Receiving harm from my own family, I got nothing in return.

When I needed you most, you were out wandering the world. You abandoned me, leaving me to face all the pressures alone. At that moment, my heart was always filled with anguish. I never imagined my parents would treat me so ruthlessly. Did I really do something wrong with what I wanted? Am I destined to be hurt repeatedly by my own family and endure all the pain without reacting? I’m unwilling to accept that. I proved through my efforts that it’s right to be unwilling to accept it in this lifetime.

I thought of living at all costs, as long as I could live. Whatever I do, I’d be happy. But in the end, what did I get? Even if I could live like this, ultimately I got nothing. I lost my loved ones, lost myself, lost the happy family I could have had, and lost everything I cared about and cherished. What meaning did everything I did back then have?"

"Child, you should understand that I never intended to treat you this way. The misunderstandings between us run too deep, not something that can be resolved with a few words. Have you ever thought about it? If I truly hoped you wouldn’t return, genuinely didn’t want to care for you or accompany you, why would I be standing here? Have you ever considered things from my perspective? Is everything you did correct, and everything I did wrong? I lived for my freedom and food, is that a mistake? I wanted to leave just to make my partner happy, and you are the same. You also want your wife to be happy, healthy, and safe by your side, never to part for a lifetime. Don’t I want that too?

Many things are common human emotions, yet in your eyes, they seem so unforgivable. You never thought about the torment and pain in my heart as a father. You never considered, when I was caught in between, in a dilemma, how I should choose. You think it was all for myself, but have you thought about it? How difficult everything I did was! If you could stand in my shoes even a little, the outcome wouldn’t be like this now. I don’t want any more accidents between us. I don’t want any of us to continue making a big fuss about this matter, endlessly arguing. That kind of life makes me feel exhausted; it’s not the life we want."

"Now you suddenly tell me that the life you want isn’t like this. Do you think I would believe you? Maybe in the past, I would have believed every word you said, but now I don’t. Because believing you only resulted in being hurt time and time again. Why should I let myself get covered in scars, silently bearing all the pain, while you laugh alone? Why, in this life, do I owe only my grandfather, only my wife, only my children anything? I owe nothing to my parents, because they have never given me love or companionship. Even if you gave me life, when you abandoned me all those years, we cleared everything between us. We don’t owe each other anything, and I will no longer feel anger at your presence or actions. I’m no longer the person I was before. I will live honorably through my own efforts and never let anyone cause me grief again..."