My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1120 - 970: Encounters Are Not Easy

Whenever Old Master Zhang sees his family arguing incessantly, he feels uneasy because what he wants is very simple. But why does everything make it so difficult for him, turning him into someone he never wanted to be, time and time again? No matter what he becomes, how does he appear in his family’s hearts? He wishes so much that everyone in the family could understand him, especially since he’s not a heartless or unfeeling father, nor a domineering elder. He is just an aged relative needing the care and affection from all.

But everything he asks for—it’s far too much, all his own demands, and they are never satisfied.

They gradually realized that what they most wanted in the past was no longer easily obtainable. His demands are too numerous, and others have no way of meeting his goals, ultimately leading only to disputes. After repeated quarrels, everyone’s hearts are bound to be hurt.

If this result was really what he wanted, he wouldn’t have chosen to bring them back to this home. In fact, there was a time when he gave each other the greatest room for maneuver, just someone following their inner thoughts. But if, time after time, all he gets in return is hurt from others, then why should he bare his heart for others to see? Intentions don’t bring recompense, so why let himself be riddled with wounds?

Zhang Yichen seems to be able to see clearly what his grandfather is thinking. Seeing his grandfather become like this, he cannot accept it, nor can he forgive his parents for the harm they bring to the family. Although they, too, were hurt a lot, after all, it was the consequence of their own actions, unrelated to any family member. Yet, the harm suffered by the family was indeed caused by them, which for him is a deep-seated pain, an indelible sorrow. No one is willing to let their family be hurt in such a way. All they want is for their family to be happy, to live joyfully, even if it means ultimately changing their initial thoughts, making life no longer what they initially wanted. But that has nothing to do with them in the end. They also don’t want things to develop in such a way, nor do they hope for things to become that extreme.

"The best recompense for myself is not easily trusting anyone on my phone. If you casually believe every word someone says, the final outcome will certainly be disastrous. They won’t truly be sincere with you, nor will they honestly tell you every word. They will just choose time and again to use this method to tell you every heartbreaking word.

Over the years, I have gradually gotten used to it all. No matter how wholeheartedly I treat him, in his eyes, I am just a moving figure. He will never know how exhausted this elder truly is.

I have given everything for my child, but in his eyes, you are merely a tool to be used. He will never care about what you once did for him or what you sacrificed. In his eyes, he only sees the benefits before him. He won’t care about your hardships. Everyone comes through like that. I don’t know how I managed the time but inside, I can never forget seeing everything I most cherished slip away from me. Watching all I treasure abandon me makes me weary. I don’t know what I should do to keep what I most want by my side, unwavering and constant. It seems difficult for everyone."

"Actually, none of this is so difficult as long as you consider what you have more and stop comparing with others. What you possess is the most worth cherishing. If you are always comparing what you don’t have with others, you will only end up very troubled. You are always thinking of making everything like others’, blindly following them, using their life as your shadow. Step by step, you follow their pace, forgetting what your life should really be, whether your youth should be spent in regret or lived without regret.

Everyone’s life is different. Never step on the footprints of a path others have walked with your own steps because that’s not your life. No matter how glorious someone else’s life is, that’s theirs, and it has nothing to do with you.

Never envy how rich and magnificent someone else’s life is; it has nothing to do with you. Always clearly understand what kind of life you most desire. Don’t let your actions make everything passive like it is now. Perhaps in the future, you will find that every step you took left your own unique mark, your growth process. No matter what setbacks and harms you experienced, those are all beautiful and spectacular scenery. When you look back many years later, you will find that was indeed a trial you had to go through in life. No matter when and where, you cannot avoid those bumps. People grow in those ups and downs, and by repeatedly experiencing the things they were most afraid to face before. When you achieve everything you wanted, you will find it matches your life’s expectations, and you will feel it was worth the youth, worth yourself, and that everything was once the goal you most wanted to achieve. After achieving all the goals, you will find how difficult it was before. Perhaps your mood will be quite different from now.

I have seen many people rise and fall, experiencing life, pain, and sorrow, but they never give up. They are always finding the most perfect outlet for their life once and again."

Thinking this way, he feels that perhaps his grandson’s words are right. Everyone has paths in life to walk and hurdles they must experience. No one can help you avoid these experiences. Only through your own efforts and making your life extraordinary can you walk towards the happiest time in your life.

If you always stay in the same spot, no matter how wealthy you become or how enviably you live, you will never be truly happy!