novelraw Chapter 1543 - 1546: Not Just a Stranger You Can Forget When You Turn Away 27
Chapter 1543 - 1546: Not Just a Stranger You Can Forget When You Turn Away 27
"Brother, my personal life isn’t chaotic. You always say it is and ask me to be more careful. Actually, I just want to create some negative news so you’ll pay attention to me and worry about me. I fear that if I behave properly, you’ll be too busy and forget about me, forget that I still exist." Hua Hua rubbed his face uncomfortably, wiping away the tears at the corner of his eyes: "You have so many excellent subordinates around you, and I don’t have the abilities like Second Brother or Third Brother to be your right-hand man, to share work and have many common conversations with you. Ever since you became the Family Head of the Gu Family, your abilities have grown stronger, and I feel the distance between us is growing wider."
"Honestly, other than looking good, I’m just a beggar by origin, lacking ability and background. I can’t compare with Second Brother’s high education, or Third Brother being the son of a boss, or Fourth Brother being an official’s son. I’m just a beggar who looks a bit better. But I’m not a woman; what’s the use of looking so good? I’m actually... actually very insecure. The more insecure I am, the more I fear I won’t live up to being your brother, the Family Head of the Gu Family, and worry that people will say I’m clinging too high."
"But I know that my looks are my only asset, inside and out; it’s a ridiculous fact. I despise but have to rely on my appearance, striving to be perfect in everything, achieving flawless perfection. I gain public recognition through my looks and create negative attention to catch your eyes, making you worry about me, occasionally calling me to the study to scold me a few times, seeing you troubled over me... actually, it makes me very happy inside."
Hua Hua was whining on the phone, speaking incoherent words. Gu Shaocheng listened, yet felt uneasy. Over these years, how much of Hua Hua’s real inner world had he ignored?
Crimson Shadow’s message came in, saying Hua Hua and Ling Yin went out that night, and he didn’t know what happened because Hua Hua asked him not to follow.
Gu Shaocheng was annoyed upon seeing this message and replied in anger: "I told you to go to Barcelona, and this is how you neglect your duty with me? Find Hua Hua immediately and go to his side at once!"
"Brother, I really don’t have a chaotic personal life. I didn’t do anything. Many of those kiss pictures the newspapers and magazines captured are misleading. I don’t even like having promiscuous physical relationships; those men fought out of jealousy for me, but I didn’t even let them touch me. I find physical intimacy repulsive, just kissing sometimes makes me nauseous."
Gu Shaocheng was getting dressed while speaking: "I know, I never truly got angry at you over those messy news stories. Are you in a bad mood, drank too much? Tell me where you are, and I’ll have Crimson Shadow find you, then I’ll come pick you up."
"I haven’t been drinking. Saying it makes me feel much better. Brother, I’m going to Germany; I promised an old employer to measure for his birthday suit," Hua Hua said as he sat up, opened his eyes, and found Ling Yin already sitting beside him at some unknown time, staring at him with a look full of regret.
Ling Yin had heard him buried in the phone saying he wanted to go home, then continued with a stream of words, only catching bits and pieces, feeling like he should slap himself hard.