novelraw Chapter 382: Would I Not Know My Own? (Part 2)
Chapter 382: Would I Not Know My Own? (Part 2)
In many people’s youthful days, there’s always this white shirt, shining brightly in the sunlight.
Imagining themselves as the girl beside that boy, solving problems together in the afternoon classroom, laughing and playing under the maple leaves after school.
Wearing the boy’s jacket and acting cute, eyes red and asking for a hug, doing those rebellious things in the eyes of teachers and parents of that era.
Tang Yanqi always thought she never had that phase; her childhood destined her to mature earlier than her peers. She had the age of youth, but not the years of youth.
She had no passionate, romantic years, nor had the rebellious innocence, always rational and calm.
Tang Yanqi always thought she wouldn’t do those things only young girls do, like kissing her boyfriend under a tree, like sharing a cotton candy with her boyfriend, or like now, on the street, ignoring the gaze of passersby, lying on his back, letting him carry her forward.
These things, which Tang Yanqi thought would be insulated from her for a lifetime, truly happened now.
She was past the age of dreaming, yet she seemed to live in a dream now.
Looking at Sheng Jianan’s thick black hair, feeling the force and warmth from his back, Tang Yanqi pursed her lips tightly, a strong urge arose in her heart: she wanted to be with him.
Even if it meant breaking into pieces, she wanted to be with him, as long as he wanted her.
She didn’t want much, just one gaze from him, a bit of tenderness, was already enough.
Returning to the parking place, Sheng Jianan put Tang Yanqi down, was about to reach into the pocket of the coat draping over her for the keys, when a soft thing suddenly leaped into his arms.
Tang Yanqi’s head rested on his chest, her arms tightly hugged his waist.
Sheng Jianan’s whole body shook; for a moment, he didn’t know where to place his hands.
Until a soft voice came from within his embrace: "Give me some time."
Give me some time to handle those messy things, give me some time to earn your mother’s approval, give me some time to have the courage to confess the unglamorous parts of me, give me some time to atone for my mother...
Tang Yanqi’s mind went through a thousand turns, but she only uttered that one sentence; she wanted to be with him, so desperately wanted to be with him.
Discarding her previous inferiority and timidity, she’s ready to take a risk for herself, even if the ending means breaking into pieces, she’s prepared.
Sheng Jianan frowned slightly, his hand slowly landed on her waist, encircled, tight embrace.
His dark eyes squinted a bit, thin lips pursed into a line, paused for two seconds, then he spoke: "Okay."
He gave her time to let go of that person she once loved, although he didn’t have much patience.
As for the one who kept him company through the darkness, he only wanted to find. As for what to do after finding them, in fact, Sheng Jianan hadn’t thought about it.
Later, claiming he would marry none but her was merely an excuse to deal with family pressure to wed, and over time, he himself believed it was true.
But now that person appeared, he found himself unable to muster much additional emotion for her, just a bit surprised upon realizing Shen Yao was her, and that’s all.
But for the girl in his arms, he had loathed, spurned, felt pain for, cared for, and now, he simply wanted to fully occupy.
This strong desire to possess a person, in his over twenty years of life, only happened this once.