novelraw Chapter 734: Do Not Get Back Together with Him
Chapter 734: Do Not Get Back Together with Him
Gu Qingqian was silent for a while and said, "Yes, you are right, so I won’t do anything stupid. To me, I’ve already died once."
Feeling the slightest bit of Life Force slipping away, with no one around... that taste of despair, he had once felt it deeply.
"That’s good..." she said softly, "There is nothing you can’t get through, what you can’t endure now, with time, you’ll find it’s not that big of a deal."
Gu Qingqian looked at her intently.
"Yiliang, do you hate me? All along, you’ve never looked at me as a man, to you, I’m like an immature child, seeking attention through extreme measures because you never noticed me."
"I never thought of you that way." Mu Yiliang shook her head.
Back then, if she had been any later, he might not have been saved. A child seeking attention would shout he’s going to commit suicide, but Gu Qingqian didn’t, nor would he.
"But, this was one of my purposes, one of them. I mentally prepared myself for death, yet couldn’t help but think, if I didn’t die, would you pay more attention to me." He smiled.
Mu Yiliang pressed her lips tightly together.
"At that time, you went to find Yan Sijue, didn’t you? I was never asleep; I knew you were eager to leave to see him because I saw his assistant from the window." Gu Qingqian murmured, "I waited so long for you to come back, wondering what you were doing together, what you’d say, what you’d be like with him... the more I thought, the more desperate I became."
Mu Yiliang trembled slightly, instinctively closing her eyes!
"I’ve grown up seemingly smoothly, but I’ve never actually gotten what I truly wanted. That feeling is so unpleasant, too unpleasant. You can’t even express dissatisfaction, because they’ll say, with your conditions, what more can you ask for." Gu Qingqian laughed self-deprecatingly, "But all those regrets put together are not as many as those about you... Why is it that I ran into you, why in your past was it Yan Sijue..."
"Ah Qian..." Mu Yiliang softly spoke, "I’m just an ordinary woman, failing to get me is not regrettable."
"...Yan Sijue loves you a lot, doesn’t he? Just this fact alone shows you’re not ordinary at all." Gu Qingqian laughed self-mockingly, "I do have a good eye, don’t I?"
"So what about now? What do you plan to do? Want me to give you another chance, or are you asking me to marry you?" Mu Yiliang looked straight at him.
Gu Qingqian shook his head: "I have no right to ask you for anything."
"But now, no matter what you ask me to do, I won’t refuse, you know that."
He sighed: "Yiliang, you’re blaming me."
Yes, she was indeed blaming him, blaming him for being so childish, yet so pitiful.
"By doing this, you’ll surely be even less willing to accept me, so I won’t force you..." Suddenly thinking of something, his smile turned a bit malicious, "If I ask for anything now, you won’t refuse, is that true?"
Mu Yiliang clenched her fingers: "What do you want?"
"I hope... you don’t reconcile with Yan Sijue, can you promise me that?"