novelraw Chapter 523: He Is Punishing Himself
Chapter 523: He Is Punishing Himself
She also enjoyed these gentle moments together, but...
"Si Jue, are you afraid that I might find it boring?" she pondered and asked.
Because she said as long as she could see him, she wouldn’t mind not being free, is that why he did it?
"No, I just want to see you." He curled his lips, his smile growing ever more tender.
Mu Yiliang suddenly found it difficult to describe what she was feeling inside.
Whether it was his way of expressing love, or his way of expressing apology and making up, they were all so extreme, carrying a deep imprint unique to Yan Sijue.
She couldn’t refuse, nor was she willing to refuse.
He said he was restricting her freedom, but in reality, he was restricting himself first. In this man’s world, isn’t it also gradually only becoming her?
Besides her, the only other person he ever yearned for was Lan Yueru, but now Lan Yueru didn’t want to see him temporarily. He really had only her.
Since that was the case, then so be it. Being just the two of them wasn’t so bad. The intimacy of their gaze could always fill the void in her heart.
She believed Yan Sijue felt the same, which is why his gaze was always deep and gentle.
But why is there still a trace of worry in her heart that won’t go away?
...
Mu Yiliang had recently fallen in love with cooking.
Housekeeper Li had accompanied Xiaoze to Robert’s place, so currently, only the two of them were at Yan Mansion.
Yan Sijue was always very accommodating, anything she made, he would eat with special attentiveness and detail.
Mu Yiliang seemed encouraged and increasingly loved spending time in the kitchen. Besides preparing three meals a day, she also experimented with various desserts and snacks.
Every time, Yan Sijue would sit in the dining room, watching her bustle about at the kitchen counter. Whenever Mu Yiliang emerged with a plate and met his lingering gaze, she always felt a trance-like suspension of time.
Occasionally, when Yang Ru visited, he would report to Yan Sijue in the dining room. When Mu Yiliang saw him after preparing some snacks, she would invite him to join, but Yang Ru would always respond as if startled, waving his hands, and Mu Yiliang could only give up.
That day, she emerged with cookies and coincidentally saw him leaving with a heavy expression, holding a pile of documents.
"What happened?" Her heart tightened!
Given Yan Sijue’s recent negligence, she wasn’t surprised if something happened at the company.
"It’s nothing, a few results were leaked." He said offhandedly, "Are these cookies?"
"Result leaks? That’s not a small matter!" Mu Yiliang was anxious, "You should quickly go handle it! I’ll be fine staying at home alone!"
The man gave her a serious look.
Mu Yiliang felt uneasy under his gaze.
"Si Jue!"
"Those are just small matters." He still smiled, "I will still be here with you."
She grew more anxious! Suddenly realizing, last time it seemed like they had resolved things, but the problem wasn’t solved at all! His inner conflict remained, even worsening!
He... seemed to be punishing himself!
She finally understood where that trace of unease in her heart came from!
"Si Jue..." she murmured, "These days, you haven’t left even once, have you?"
She realized it just now!
Because she didn’t dare to step outside, he wouldn’t allow himself to leave her side for a moment!
"Don’t you want to see me all the time?" he said with a smile, yet there was darkness in the depths of his eyes!
"No, it’s not that..." She felt her entire body trembling.
"Yes." His smile remained, but his face became even paler, "That’s why you spend more time in the kitchen, because I’m suffocating you."