novelraw Chapter 488 Unwilling to Accept
Chapter 488 Unwilling to Accept
"Why?" She seemed very confused.
Mu Yiliang remained silent for a moment: "Just go, I’ll pretend I didn’t hear what you said today."
She seemed to understand: "Are you blaming me for not fulfilling my parental duties?"
"No." Mu Yiliang said stiffly, "I can’t even be sure whether you are my mother or not, so why would I blame you."
"I never cared for that child," Mu Ning smiled and said, "but after seeing you, I suddenly felt that it would be nice if you were my daughter."
Mu Yiliang felt a slight bitterness in her heart. She looked at Mu Ning’s still smooth face and recalled her youthful appearance in the photos, suddenly at a loss for words.
"I’ve been working hard all on my own since I left home, and sometimes it does get boring," she sighed softly, "Occasionally, I wonder if life would be more interesting if I had kept that child with me."
Mu Yiliang suddenly thought of something: "Is that why you got involved with Nie Qing?"
"Him?" Mu Ning chuckled and shook her head, "I just thought he was good-looking, so I teased him a bit. The kid is mixed-race; his father doesn’t acknowledge him, and his mother left him. He couldn’t even feed himself, I just felt sorry for him."
Mu Yiliang felt an inexplicable relief in her heart; at least Mu Ning still pitied others, indicating she wasn’t completely devoid of emotion.
"But later on, you were quite fed up with him."
"You’d be fed up too," Mu Ning took out a cigarette. This time she didn’t care about Mu Yiliang’s presence, lighting it and taking a deep drag, "A terrifying possessiveness and an Oedipus complex, I’d be amazed if I was touched. There were a few big shots who were gay back then, I gave that kid to them to sleep with, thinking he’d hate me. Instead, he depended on me even more, don’t you think he’s sick."
Mu Yiliang felt a chill in her heart and suddenly a bit of sadness: "He’s not sick, he just couldn’t accept the fact that you rejected him, so he had to find excuses to forgive you."
To Nie Qing, his experiences since childhood made him sensitive, inferior, and extremely lacking in love, so when Mu Ning appeared in his life, even small mercies held incomparable significance to him.
In his subconscious, he was actually very aware of Mu Ning’s attitude towards him, yet he couldn’t believe this fact, so he kept beautifying all of Mu Ning’s actions, using self-sacrificial emotions to keep himself going... Unfortunately, in the end, it was all for nothing.
Originally, she would only have a sigh for Nie Qing, but after knowing this woman might be her biological mother, she suddenly understood Nie Qing’s feelings.
Mu Ning silently smoked a cigarette, and after a long time, slowly exhaled a smoke ring: "So, are you also unwilling to accept the fact that I’m your mother? Am I worse than Mei Suqin?"
Mu Yiliang bitterly shook her head: "Mei Suqin was indeed very bad to me, but to my brother, to Yixun, she loved them wholeheartedly. So even if she wasn’t good to me, I always had hope that one day she’d treat me like she did Mu Yixun. But if it’s you... To you, others’ expectations would only make you feel annoyed, even if it’s your own daughter."
Mu Ning hesitantly shook her head: "I don’t know either, maybe if it were you, I wouldn’t be annoyed."
Mu Yiliang felt her eyes sting slightly.
To Mu Ning, this sentence might be considered a high affirmation, but unfortunately, it’s only a hypothetical.