novelraw Chapter 355 - 327: Still Continuing?
Chapter 355 - 327: Still Continuing?
"What exactly do you want?" Qin Xia leaned against the door, looking up at him, her eyes moist, perhaps from drinking or for some other reason.Chu Zhengran looked at her without speaking, bent down to take off his shoes, placed them by her feet, then lifted her up to stand on them.
After stepping onto his shoes, Qin Xia quieted down, lowering her head without speaking.
"Qin Xia," Chu Zhengran called her name.
Qin Xia still kept her head down, not speaking.
Chu Zhengran looked at her for a while, then asked, "What did my mom say to you?"
Qin Xia remained silent with her head down.
But Chu Zhengran clearly felt her body tense up suddenly.
"When was the first time you met my mom?" Chu Zhengran asked again.
Qin Xia lowered her head, and after a while, said, "Can you let me leave?"
"No," Chu Zhengran replied.
"Let me go." Qin Xia looked up at him, and as soon as she did, tears uncontrollably fell from the corners of her eyes. "Let me leave, let’s not meet again, ever. Let’s forget each other and start new lives, okay? I’m begging you."
Chu Zhengran felt a sharp pain in his heart as he looked at her tear. He raised his hand to wipe it away.
Qin Xia brushed his hand away, saying, "We can’t be together."
"Why?" Chu Zhengran asked.
"I don’t like you anymore," Qin Xia said. "I don’t want to be with someone I don’t like."
Chu Zhengran squinted his eyes slightly.
Qin Xia lowered her head, tears fell again, hitting the ground directly. She seemed to mutter to herself, or maybe it was the drunken rambling: "I don’t like you anymore, really don’t."
Chu Zhengran grasped her chin, making her look up at him, and asked, "You really don’t like me anymore?"
Looking at his reddened eyes, Qin Xia felt a stab of pain in her heart. Her lips moved, and finally she said, "Chu Zhengran, you saw Qin Rui that day and learned about my family. My family hides violence in its genes, disregarding kinship. Killing mother, sister, brother, and brother. Such a gene, do you really dare to marry?"
"Why wouldn’t I dare?" Chu Zhengran looked at her, softly questioning back.
Qin Xia let out a soft laugh, "You’re the only one in the Chu Family, expected to carry on the family line. If you marry me, what about the child? You might dare, but I don’t. I don’t know what kind of child I would give birth to. I don’t even know if I might die at his hands."
Chu Zhengran understood her words about really liking children.
She truly liked children, but due to her family situation, she dared not have any.
Marriage and having children almost existed only in her fantasies and hopes.
"Did my mom tell you all this?" Chu Zhengran asked.
Qin Xia shook her head, then stopped as she felt dizzy: "I’m too tired. I want to go back."
She spoke, turning around to twist the door handle.
Chu Zhengran watched her open the door, stepping barefoot on the ground, pulling open the door to leave.
Seeing that Qin Xia was about to leave, Chu Zhengran suddenly pulled her back, closed the door, pinned her against it, and kissed her.
Qin Xia was stunned for a moment, then struggled violently. She pushed Chu Zhengran away forcefully and said, "We broke up!"
"I didn’t agree," Chu Zhengran’s eyes were stained red, his mask torn away, his aggression revealed.
She mentioned breaking up, but Chu Zhengran never agreed from beginning to end.
For him, these past few years seemed like they were just in a cold war, never truly breaking up.
After speaking, he held her head and kissed her again.
Qin Xia still struggled, but Chu Zhengran didn’t let go.
Even when he tasted blood, he didn’t release her.
Until Qin Xia couldn’t break free and started crying, Chu Zhengran finally let her go.
As soon as he stepped back, Qin Xia pushed him away again, covering her face with her hands, squatting by the door, crying even harder.
Hearing her sobs, Chu Zhengran took a deep breath with his eyes closed, unable to stop the trembling from within, he crouched down too and said, "I’m sorry."
"Bastard!" Qin Xia cried into her knees.
"I’m sorry," Chu Zhengran touched her head.
Qin Xia didn’t move, weeping softly.
Chu Zhengran touched her head, and after a while, said, "Qin Xia, you like kids, we can have one. If you have concerns, we won’t. What you just said isn’t quite right."
Chu Zhengran’s voice was gentle, carrying a touch of hoarseness: "I’m not just a tool for carrying on the family line, I have the right to decide whether I want children in the future."
Qin Xia kept her head down, crying.
Chu Zhengran knew she was listening, and continued, "Family prosperity is certainly pleasant, but many things should go with the flow, adapt to the natural environment, and also comply with human naturally. The Chu Family is large, with grand ambitions, no more than two purposes. To bless the descendants and contribute to the country."
They seldom discussed these in the past together.
Back then, there was only love between them, they loved each other, their souls fitted together, caring for nothing else.
Chu Zhengran seldom spoke to her like this.
Gently stroking her head, he said softly, "The premise of blessing descendants is having descendants. If there are none in the future, that’s no longer needed. With no one to inherit, the Chu Family would naturally turn over to the state, reaching its purpose of contributing to the country as still. Its existence could promote economic development, which is its meaning, and when it’s gone to public use can also be its meaning of disappearance. So the issue of carrying on the family line that you consider doesn’t really exist."
Qin Xia kept crying, ignoring him.
Chu Zhengran stayed silent for a while, then embraced her, gently patting her back, "I’ll handle things with my mother."
Originally, Qin Xia was leaning obediently in his arms, but as soon as she heard about his mother, she immediately retreated, wiped her tears away messily, and got up to leave.
Chu Zhengran caught her hand, took a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped her nose and tears.
Since she didn’t want to hear about his mother, Chu Zhengran stopped and changed the subject, "If you like kids, we can have one. Our child won’t be bad."
Qin Xia snatched the handkerchief from his hand, wiping her tears herself, and looked at him saying, "Are you crazy? Who would have a kid with you? What are you thinking?"
Chu Zhengran smiled, fingers gently rubbing the mole below her left eye, saying, "Thinking about the first time we met, thinking about our life on M Continent."
Qin Xia didn’t speak. Looking at him, her expression slightly dazed, gradually merging the past and the present Chu Zhengran.
It seemed as time compressed, making those years apart vanish.
It seemed they had lived together just yesterday.
Chu Zhengran also watched her, seeing her dazed expression, after a while, he kissed the mole at the corner of her eye.
Qin Xia shivered gently but didn’t move away.
Seeing she didn’t avoid it, Chu Zhengran kissed her eyelid, then the tip of her nose, finally stopping at her lips.
He planned to pull away after the kiss, but Qin Xia suddenly moved closer, wrapping her arms around his neck, kissing him deeply.
The moment their lips touched, Chu Zhengran’s blood boiled, his mind went blank, all suppressed emotions surged. Not a second of hesitation, he pressed a hand against the back of her head, and with another arm around her waist, pulled her into his embrace, kissing her urgently.
After kissing by the door for a while, worried she might catch cold, Chu Zhengran carried her back to the bedroom, placing her on the bed.
They kissed again.
Too familiar with each other’s bodies, even after years apart, a touch brought back all the memories.
As if seeking security from each other, they held each other tightly.
After a long while, Chu Zhengran propped himself up, breathing heavily, looking into Qin Xia’s watery eyes, swallowing hard, and said hoarsely, "Shall we continue?"
Qin Xia looked at him intently, didn’t speak, just wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him again.
Chu Zhengran felt like he was losing his mind.
He kissed her for a while, then got up, standing by the bed, pulling Qin Xia up, wrapping her legs around his waist. Holding her and kissing her, he carried her to the bathroom...