novelraw Chapter 663: Ruin
Chapter 663: Ruin
"...Don't say anything like I have changed, you just feel the prosthetic eyes within my eyes are a disaster! Are a bewilderer, are a carrier of chaos! But have you ever thought about what would happen once I lose my eyes? I would become a cripple who cannot see anything, become that dying person all alone in a tent on the battlefield back then, trembling and shivering amidst pain and betrayal!
"If there weren't the prosthetic eyes, back then I would have died bafflingly and unaccountably at the Naris border, having my breathing cut off while helplessly chanting your name with a crying tone over and over again; if there weren't the prosthetic eyes, right now I would just be a bug helplessly begging you to bestow a little love, pitifully asking other women to raise their noble hands! This way you would be satisfied, this way you would be happy, is that right? Because this way I wouldn't add even a tiny bit of trouble to you. Even if you betrayed one, two, countless promises, what could I do, right?
Fisher's pupils slightly shrank, his expression also disintegrating amidst Elizabeth's questioning over and over again. The previous excessive questioning, the previous toughness were all crushed by the sea breeze at this moment, transforming into a tiny tremor even the Mythical rank and life chaos couldn't control.
Elizabeth forcefully pulled his collar, while Fisher's palms resting at his sides had absolutely no reaction, just swaying slightly, as if unable to receive messages from the brain.
At this time, Eimhart who had always been staying in Fisher's embrace opened his mouth. His eyes staring at the shattered and fragmented Elizabeth before his eyes, within his sighs also wanted to make some defense for Fisher at this moment, after all along the way he had always been following by his side.
Although what Fisher did was indeed not human deeds, he always insatiably possessed the hearts of others, but he also indeed didn't wash his hands off and care about nothing like Elizabeth said, becoming heartless after one night.
Back then when Fisher returned to the present from the past it had been four and a half years, then right upon returning he arrived at the Southern Continent, then saw Raphaela's Dragon Court being invaded by demons, situated at the moment of life and death crisis. Even if when returning he had already decided to see Elizabeth, he still had to choose to stay during Raphaela's life and death crisis.
After returning to Naris he also indeed didn't want to evade fulfilling the promise from four and a half years ago, he just didn't want the matters between them to ruin his deceased teacher's funeral, yet didn't expect to see Valentiina Turan there, he didn't intentionally want to be like this.
Eimhart squeezed his body outwards, resolving to temporarily abandon his own safety sticking his head out to tell the Elizabeth before his eyes, Fisher hadn't forgotten the promises between them, when he let go of Valentiina Turan's hand it was indeed staying for you.
But the next second, Fisher's slightly trembling hand however raised up. He didn't push away Elizabeth's hand pulling his collar, but instead pressed the ready-to-move Eimhart back into his embrace, stopping his speech.Fisher of course could explain, expressing his own views one by one regarding these words Elizabeth raised, saying he didn't do it on purpose, saying he hadn't forgotten the promise with Elizabeth.
Even this time's honeymoon was like this, could it be he truly didn't want to spend this honeymoon with Elizabeth? Even such a simple matter he wasn't willing?
It's just when the Lord of Fate told him chaos was breeding in Elizabeth's body, he was truly worried and afraid of repeating Raphaela's disastrous mistakes. Afraid she would be coerced and controlled by the World-Ending Prophecy, becoming firewood activating the World-Ending Prophecy like Raphaela, finally burning her entirely to ashes.
It's just this feeling of worrying about Elizabeth's safety overshadowed his emphasis on the honeymoon. Could this explain he wasn't even willing to give Elizabeth a honeymoon?
But, since there were clearly so many things that could be explained and defended against, especially since obviously many of Elizabeth's accusations were subjective content she thought of, why was Fisher completely unable to say anything?
Because, looking back along these promises repeatedly "betrayed" in Elizabeth's eyes, the agreement of the honeymoon he didn't want to betray, the agreement of coming back to see Elizabeth he didn't want to betray...
Then let me ask, that agreement of "forever only possessing each other" he said when privately pledging their lives to each other back then, did he betray it or not?
Fisher who understood Elizabeth so well almost instantly realized, these many agreements and promises she listed verbally, were actually fundamentally just one.
What returning to see her after coming back, what honeymoon, were actually all just a false phantom of that most original promise.
Fulfilling these aforementioned promises wouldn't make that initial promise dissipate. Conversely, if Fisher only fulfilled that one promise, it wouldn't matter if all the remaining promises weren't fulfilled, because Elizabeth would then be completely satisfied.
But uniquely this most foundational, most important promise, was the one Fisher truly betrayed.
He possessed others, already impossible to forever only possess each other with her. This also meant, from now on no matter how much effort he dedicated to Elizabeth, those things originally belonging to her would be shared away by others.
For a long time, Fisher had resolved to give his all to the females he formed connections with due to his own greed. For their safety, for them to be happy, he even would rather die than let other females encounter danger, as if doing so could make up for his sin of greed.
But the problem is, when you thrust a knife ruthlessly into someone else, could it be saying pulling the knife out then thrusting it towards yourself, one stab, two stabs up to countless stabs stabbing yourself to death, could the person who was stabbed therefore not feel pain because of this?
What's more, perhaps to Elizabeth it was more like Fisher stabbed her countless times, while those falling on Fisher himself were extremely few.
Then speaking from another angle anew, could it be only Elizabeth would have such feelings?
What about other females?
Raphaela, Jasmine, Valentiina Turan...
No, it's not that they don't have it, it's just they haven't said it to Fisher that's all.
Fisher couldn't help but think of the restrained, cautious crying when Raphaela knew the one Jasmine admired was him back then; thought of mother-in-law Yali'er's humble pleading; thought of Jasmine muttering to herself within the Demon Dynasty.
Her coming back with him even Elizabeth isn't satisfied, then, what about Valentiina Turan who wanted to pull him away to leave yet helplessly watched him let go leaving with Elizabeth back then?
Are these feelings things that don't exist if not spoken out? Only until today when Elizabeth spoke them out could they be named and qualitatively defined?
Them not speaking it out is only because they have always been unequal with Fisher in relationships, it doesn't mean this kind of feeling doesn't exist.
Thinking carefully, was it when he committed the sin of greed that these matters were already fixed? Or is it saying, through acquired efforts he can make these feelings dissipate, letting every single one of them be completely satisfied?
Is himself currently bitterly contending against the World-Ending Prophecy with insufficient strength enough? Are the gods bitterly struggling within the Spirit World against the invasion of the Outer Gods enough?
Fisher suddenly thought, if he had unimaginable mighty power like the gods, or even more unimaginable than Them, would this kind of situation not happen?
Hypothetically, if the prosthetic eyes Elizabeth possessed were just an ordinary holy artifact couldn't be more ordinary, she was also just an Empress of secular imperial power instead of an emissary of chaos. When she saw the Mythical rank Fisher before her eyes, would her shattering and anger ease somewhat? Would it change in the slightest because of his power?
"..."
Fisher opened his mouth, but when looking at her hollow and shattered eyes, he seemingly saw her soul within again, that soul always looking at him as an equal.
Just in this instant, he then seemingly knew the corresponding answer, no longer demanding answers from the unseen world.
All accusations he accepted, only after all this, he then finally opened his mouth.
"...Elizabeth, I, indeed didn't not want to spend this honeymoon with you, I was just worried about your safety, worried you are burdened by the prosthetic eyes, by chaos. Don't know how, now knowing it's this decision you made yourself, not controlled by the prosthetic eyes and chaos, I surprisingly would sigh a breath of relief..."
He smiled in relief, yet his gaze bitterly dodged her gaze. He didn't rebut anything, merely silently let out a long breath.
"No matter what, as long as you can be safe that's fine."
Elizabeth looked at the Fisher before her eyes, her lips trembling. Yet the strength of that palm pulling Fisher's collar unconsciously relaxed, until completely leaving contact with his collar. And Fisher also following this action returned his gaze anew, using a sad, regretful gaze looking at her.
"But, Elizabeth, there's one thing you said wrong. I am absolutely not purely attempting to resolve the World-Ending Prophecy for the sake of the other females you mentioned. After leaving you, before knowing any single one among them, when I obtained that book named 【Demi-Human Completion Handbook】 seeing the World-Ending Prophecy, I already stepped onto the journey attempting to resolve the World-Ending Prophecy."
He looked straight at the Elizabeth before his eyes, his gaze sorrowful yet firm.
"At that time I was still just a human, completely ignorant towards these difficulties, terrors and destinies hidden behind the World-Ending Prophecy. My stepping onto this journey, was only feeling, if a world like this possessing Sister Teresa who raised me up, possessing Teacher Helson, possessing Tlander and possessing you, if it just perished like this it would truly be too much of a pity..."
Elizabeth's eyes slightly trembled, just at this moment, clearly Pandora's prosthetic eyes had absolutely no effect on Fisher before her eyes, merely relying on mutual understanding with each other, she could then realize, the words the current Fisher said were absolutely true.
"Elizabeth, I don't know what kind of world the world of new Order you mentioned creating is like. I just feel, the current world possessing you all, and afterwards will also have more people as good as you all, people who make me nostalgic about to be born, has the necessity worth saving. The education I received since childhood, the love and warmth I experienced when growing up all drive me to protect the existences that bestowed these to me...
"This point, from beginning to end I have never changed, but you changed. In the youthful past you clearly could also experience this kind of beauty, seeing outside Naris there are also so many living beings different yet the same as Nari people still living. I don't know if you still remember, you said you liked seeing my appearance writing articles for that group of demi-human races trafficked to Naris from the Southern Continent. You said in the future if there's a chance, to travel with me to the Southern Continent, to the Northern Border, to the restless eastern side of the continent...
"But you right now can actually so lightly manufacture massacres in the places we once yearned for, can so lightly trust foreign deities whose exact details are unknown, that's why I would say you changed. However, I also know, you only changed in this aspect that's all. In loving me, in the aspect towards responsibility you have never changed. You becoming like this is only because you suffered hardships I haven't suffered. Those betrayals, those sins, are all things I haven't personally experienced, I have no qualifications to condemn you in this aspect...
"And although my original intention in resolving the World-Ending Prophecy hasn't changed, my love towards you, my responsibility towards you has changed, yet this is entirely because of my own greed, possessing no other reasons."
Eimhart raised his eyes taking a glance, looking at the Fisher whose arms were currently trembling slightly, not understanding what his inner heart was thinking when saying these words. Eimhart merely felt, the current Fisher was unprecedentedly sad and regretful.
Fisher's word by word made the towering rage in Elizabeth's eyes gradually recede, then similarly revealing the shattered and fragmented sorrow hidden beneath that anger.
So it turns out beneath the burning anger of many things in this world, are all the sorrow acting as firewood, soon becoming ashes.
She narrowed her eyes, slowly retracting that hand placed in front of Fisher's collar. Her emotional words also became without ripples like an ancient well, suppressing the grief within her words as much as possible.
"My beauty, everything I cherish, have all been completely ruined amidst betrayal. Ruined means it can never come back, can never be made up for...
"Fisher, I have already seen through it, you already won't turn back anymore. Even if your current regret is sincere, even if your current sorrow is sincere, but you already cannot put down those females related to you anymore, impossible to only possess each other anymore. The normal familial affection I dream of, the older brother who won't betray me, the father who won't view me as an item, the younger sister who won't leave me will also not come back anymore. The soldiers who sacrificed with me on the battlefield, my pair of eyes that were blown blind will also not come back anymore...
"Everything I want, within this precarious old Order has completely turned into flying ash, leaving only pain upon my body. And the annihilation is approaching, besides preserving Naris entirely, only a new Order can make everything I want return."
Standing before that patch of scarlet in front of the sky, Elizabeth's hollow eyes lifted bit by bit, carrying a dense aura of chaos looking at the Fisher before her eyes.
Fisher didn't understand what exactly those chaos promised Elizabeth, he didn't understand the chaos as mortal enemies, and also didn't understand if Elizabeth who was about to achieve the Trinity of Death had the ability to reshape everything she wanted.
All these already didn't matter, because no matter what in Elizabeth's new Order there would no longer be everything she loathed. And Fisher had insisted until today for the sake of preserving everything of the world.
"...Let's finish passing the honeymoon, Elizabeth, I promised you."
Fisher looked at the Elizabeth before his eyes, suddenly speaking like this.
Yet right at this time, from the side palace in the rear suddenly transmitted an intense explosive sound. Fisher turned his head taking a look, then saw from the room Alicia originally resided in suddenly transmitted an intense aura of life chaos. Immediately following, a twisted meatball about the height of a person then drilled out from that room, fleeing towards the deep mountains and old forests far from the beach.
Beside the ear, the Lord of Fate's illusory voice also transmitted over.
"Not good, the method you left behind was probably discovered by the usurping life chaos. He is probably resisting the flesh and blood you left on Alicia's body right now, He wants to run... Aren't you covered with that something even the chaos on my body cannot see clearly, how could you be discovered by Him? Could it be these chaos also inform each other or what..."
Fisher slightly blanked, turning his head looking behind. The golden light in Elizabeth's eyes became increasingly dense, but the sorrow on her face still remained undiminished, she merely said in a low voice.
"I said it, Fisher, I know more than you imagine. I have always known the thing surviving upon Alicia's body, I also know what you kept seeing her for. The reason I didn't stop you from meeting her, was because from the very beginning, I left the death aura of [Hamura] upon her body protecting her...
"The Trinity of Death is about to be achieved immediately, I will also ruin this entire world I loathe in a sea of fire, reforging its lost beauty."
(End of this chapter)