The Divine Doctor And A Common Farmer

Chapter 1683 - 1770: Maybe, If You Just Take One Step Forward

Yun Ge’s eyes were empty, yet her expression was full of melancholy.

"Honestly, I really don’t want to hurt him. But as you see, throughout my life, anyone associated with me, whether family, or friends like you, has been hurt because of me."

Dong Huiying wanted to refute Yun Ge, but Yun Ge stopped her by raising a hand. "Don’t be quick to disagree, just listen to what I have to say first."

"You might say that it’s not my fault, that it’s fate, and if anyone is to blame, it’s Yun Zhe and Yun Shuihan, or those villains. But to me, the fundamental problem isn’t just that. I can’t get past this hurdle in my heart, and that’s my biggest obstacle."

Yun Ge was revealing her inner thoughts. She knew she was drawn to Fengsu and clearly understood that she actually had some feelings for him.

But how deep is this "some feelings" really?

"I think if I were with him, he would probably... treat me well, right? But all my emotions seem to have been burnt out, and the only remaining part is entirely invested in you. I can no longer muster any strength to accept anyone else, as if my whole heart has been hollowed out..."

Dong Huiying was silent for a moment, "So what you mean is... when you say ’not enough’, you’re referring to?"

Yun Ge’s lips curved into a smile, yet her eyes were filled with tranquil sadness. "I can’t accept Fengsu’s feelings, not because I don’t dare, but because I can’t. It’s too unfair to him."

Yun Ge let out a long breath, then reluctantly tried to perk up and said, "I don’t know if you’ve ever felt this way, when someone loves you dearly, that love might not necessarily be happiness. It could more likely be a painful, stifling burden. Because you know you’ll never be able to repay him equally, in the same weight, one hundred percent. So you’ll feel guilty, you’ll feel sorry for him, and if you’re with him, this situation will only worsen, with no improvement and no positive change. So you can’t be with him, because if you are, you’ll spend the rest of your life living in this endless self-blame and guilt."

Yun Ge laughed lightly again, pretending to be cheerful, "So I want to choose a way of living that’s easier for me. I don’t want to live so tired and heavy."

So when she said not enough, it was because the feelings were too shallow, the love not deep enough, so she couldn’t accept Fengsu, because it conflicted with the ’fairness’ she had determined in her heart.

Dong Huiying looked at her, and after a long time said, "Maybe in matters of the heart, you’re a quite clear-headed and rational person. However, from my perspective, your dilemma stems from your softness and kindness, which have also trapped you. You say you want to choose a way of living that’s easier for you, but on the contrary, the way you are currently, is the heaviest and most exhausting. I still stand by my position. I think you should reconsider because if you are willing to let go of yourself, if you’re willing to muster the courage to take a step forward, perhaps the world will open up to you, and happiness will be within your reach."

At this moment, Dong Huiying truly felt a deep compassion for Yun Ge. She looked at Yun Ge with sympathy.

In those innocent times, when still young, she experienced the death of a close relative from a child’s perspective.