novelraw Chapter 105 Never See Her Again
Chapter 105 Never See Her Again
Lu Xiran muttered, "And, he's so amazing..."
Gu Yanshen was so overwhelmed by the praise that he didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
"That's just how annoying!" She gave his abs another squeeze. "He's perfect in every way!"
She paused.
Suddenly, the movement of his hands stopped.
Then she looked up at him.
Those eyes still held a hint of intoxication, but those words were spoken clearly:
"—Except for not liking me."
Gu Yanshen felt as if his heart had been ripped out.
He looked at her.
Looking at her flushed face, moist eyes, and slightly pouting lips.
But he didn't say anything.
He simply reached out and pulled her back into his arms.
His chin rested on the top of her head.
Close your eyes.
A tear falls silently.
The person in her arms gradually calmed down. Their breathing became steady, and their body went limp. Her hand was still on his abdominal muscles, but it no longer touched them; it just rested there, as if it had finally found a place to rest.
Gu Yanshen looked down at her.
Fell asleep.
Tears still clung to her cheeks, and her lips were slightly parted, like a contented kitten.
He stared at it for a long time.
Then he lowered his head and, very lightly, placed a kiss on the corner of her forehead.
Gu Yanshen carried Lu Xiran to Lin Chen's house.
The door was gently pushed open and then gently closed again.
Gu Yanshen carried Lu Xiran into the bedroom, his movements as gentle as if afraid of disturbing a sliver of moonlight. He placed her on the bed, his fingertips lingering for a fleeting moment by her pillow—just a fleeting moment—before withdrawing them and tucking her in. He tucked her in carefully, tightly, as if to keep all the storms of the world out.
He stood by the bed for a moment.
Her eyelashes were still trembling slightly, her brow furrowed slightly, as if she were dreaming of something. He leaned down, very slowly, so slowly that he could hear his own heartbeat—and then stopped.
Nothing was done.
Just watching.
three seconds.
Five seconds.
ten seconds.
Then he straightened up, turned around, and closed the door.
That soft sound was as soft as a sigh.
In the living room, Lin Chen leaned against the window, watching him walk out, watch him walk to the sofa, sit down, stand up, and sit down again.
"Since you're so reluctant to part with her," Lin Chen said softly, "why not tell her?"
Gu Yanshen did not answer immediately. The dim light fell on his profile, making his features appear deep and cold.
"If I tell her now," he paused, his Adam's apple bobbing, "then what about these past three years?
Lin Chen looked at him.
"Lin Chen," Gu Yanshen raised his head, "don't you know about Gu Qishan's methods over the past three years? She's so innocent, so wonderful, I—" He paused, took a deep breath, "I'm really afraid she'll get involved."
"But she loves you," Lin Chen said. "She has the right to know."
"Know what?" Gu Yanshen smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes. "I know that my biological father conspired with everyone to remove me from office, I know that my biological father tried to put me in—" He didn't finish his sentence, swallowing the rest of his words.
Lin Chen was silent for a moment, then said, "Tell me, no matter what, you are Gu Qishan's biological son. Why is he so cruel to you?"
Gu Yanshen's eyes darkened, as if something had sunk to the bottom.
For three years, he lived a life of constant danger, fighting in the dead of night, learning many things. He learned to wield a knife with his left hand, to distinguish friend from foe by footsteps, and to maintain a sliver of consciousness even in his sleep. He also learned one thing—
Some fathers don't deserve to be called fathers.
Just as Lu Xiran lamented three years ago, it was fortunate that Lu Hao was not her biological father.
He increasingly understood the meaning of that sentence.
If only he weren't Gu Yanshen.
If only he weren't Gu Qishan's son.
If it weren't for his grandmother's instructions and her earnest hopes, he would have wanted to leave without a second thought.
But he can't.
Moreover, given the suspicious nature of the Gu family, he wouldn't be able to completely dispel their suspicions even if he went to the ends of the earth.
From the moment he returned to the Gu family, he was already embroiled in a turbulent situation.
"Let's not talk about him anymore." Gu Yanshen raised his head and looked at Lin Chen. "Take good care of her."
Lin Chen shook his head. "Why torture each other like this?"
"It's good that she's alive," Gu Yanshen said, a half-smile playing on his lips. "As long as she's alive, anything can be made up for. Otherwise, it's all just empty talk." He paused. "Isn't that why we've struggled until now?"
Lin Chen sighed and his gaze fell on the bedroom door.
"Seeing how upset she is," he said, "sometimes I really want to tell her."
"No." Gu Yanshen's voice suddenly hardened. "She's kind, but also stubborn. If she knew, she would definitely choose to stay by my side." His voice softened again, so soft it was almost inaudible, "And I..."
He didn't finish speaking.
But Lin Chen understood.
—And I couldn't resist wanting to be with her.
"But your love can't be hidden." Lin Chen looked at him intently. "If you continue like this, all your pretense will be exposed. If you decide to leave her..." He paused, "you shouldn't see her anymore."
Gu Yanshen stood there, frozen.
"It's just work..." There was a hint of pleading in his voice, "It's just work."
"Is it just work?" Lin Chen pressed on, "That villa, you wanted to give it to her, didn't you?"
Gu Yanshen did not speak.
After a long while, he stood up.
The movements were very slow, as slow as peeling something inch by inch from flesh and blood.
"The following projects," he said in a flat voice, as if he were talking about someone else, "are all your responsibility."
He walked to the door and placed his hand on the doorknob.
"I……"
He didn't turn around.
"I'll try my best not to see her again."
The door opened. The darkness outside rushed in, engulfing him completely. The door closed softly behind him, like a silent judgment.
When Lu Xiran woke up, it felt like someone was tapping her temples with a small hammer.
She squinted and stared at the ceiling for three seconds. It was her uncle's house.
She sat up abruptly, the movement so sudden that her head was buzzing.
She looked down at herself—her clothes were intact, and the blanket was neatly tucked in.
Lu Xiran rubbed her temples, trying hard to recall what happened last night.
She went to a bar, drank alcohol, and someone forced her to drink... and then what?
Then it seems someone took her home.
Then it seemed like... I saw Gu Yanshen?
She frowned and thought for a long time, but the image was blurry, as if viewed through frosted glass.
It felt like I saw him, but it also felt like I was just dreaming.
It must have been a dream.
How could I possibly see him?
Lu Xiran was getting ready to go to work, and she parked her car in Lin Chen's parking space.
She stared at the car for three seconds, then suddenly raised her hand and slapped her face.
"Lu Xiran, wake up!"
It's just that I haven't been in a relationship for too long, and I miss men.
Why think about him?