Chapter 1034 - 81: Stars Ablaze, Only True Affection Must Not Be Betrayed
Chapter 1034 - 81: Stars Ablaze, Only True Affection Must Not Be Betrayed
When Feng Chengxuan woke up, many neon lights by the roadside had already been extinguished.Seeing that it was already past 10 o’clock, he felt a bit anxious, saying while he disengaged the parking brake, "How did I fall asleep? Why didn’t you wake me up?"
Su Xin was holding a coffee cup, sitting in the passenger seat, turning her head slightly to look at the scenery outside the window.
She responded calmly, "It doesn’t matter; sitting around at home would be the same."
Su Xin wanted to say that at this moment, she wanted to spend more time sitting with him.
But in Feng Chengxuan’s ears, what he thought of was her sitting alone in an empty house every night for the past twenty-six years, filled with sadness until dawn.
His heart ached deeply, and without saying anything, he drove quickly to take Su Xin back to her neighborhood.
He walked her to the door, and as it was already quite late tonight, Feng Chengxuan didn’t even enter this time. Glancing at his watch, he smiled, "I won’t come in; get some rest early. I’ll come find you again tomorrow."
Thinking about the recent complicated situation at home, he frowned slightly, and after pondering, he added, "Around five o’clock."
Hearing the increasingly shorter, and later time when he would come to find her, Su Xin didn’t say anything, but she vaguely felt something in her heart.
Pausing for a moment as he was about to leave.
On a usual day, Su Xin would have merely glanced briefly, closed the door quietly without much emotion.
But today...
She hesitated for a while and said, "Come in and sit for a while before you leave."
Hmm?
Feng Chengxuan was stunned; this was the first time she had said this so calmly since he had been seeing Su Xin for so many days.
Was she serious?
He looked deep into her eyes.
Until he met Su Xin’s eyes, which were calmer than a crabapple, he finally confirmed that Su Xin had returned.
His heart trembled slightly, and he almost stuttered, "Ah, okay..."
He nodded and quickly walked into the house.
Changing into slippers, as usual, he prepared to take out a pair for Su Xin to change into.
But Su Xin didn’t plan to take off her shoes, or rather, she was facing the much taller Feng Chengxuan, and could only reach him a little while wearing high heels.
Locking the door, she paused, then hugged his waist, burying her head in his embrace.
She spoke the words that made Feng Chengxuan’s eyes tremble with moisture in an instant.
"Don’t say anything, let me hold you for a while."
The agonizing pain pressed down like hills, as he thought about the twenty-six years they missed, and the child forced to be aborted...
Feng Chengxuan didn’t know how many days and nights he had waited for such a day.
He only knew that holding Su Xin, whose height was just right, in this moment, he was blissfully satisfied as if he had gained the whole world.
Even at this moment, he didn’t want to cry.
But his eyes were red and trembling; thinking about those thirty-six years of love, tears slid down silently...
Time passed second by second in the trembling sobs of the two.
After a while, until Su Xin had cried enough, wiped away her tears, and prepared to stand upright.
But as misfortune would have it, the silk thread and flower on the cheongsam’s neckline snagged on Feng Chengxuan’s shirt button.
Unable to pull it down, in her anxiety, she could only unbutton one button on the cheongsam, loosening the distance between the two, but this revealed the delicate neckline...
Feng Chengxuan quickly remembered the first day they met, unable to control the urge to leave a mark on her neck.
His throat rolled hoarsely, pausing, and with her slight movements, her body’s faint scent wafted layer by layer into his nostrils.
Feng Chengxuan could no longer restrain himself.
Scooping up Su Xin’s body, he took a step forward, pinning her firmly against the door.
Along with Su Xin’s panicked exclamation, "Feng Chengxuan, what are you doing?"
His disorganized kisses started to fall densely.
Drawing on her slender neck, he kissed and bit frantically, the tight curves of her cheongsam, cradled in his arms, ignited the reason that had been stifled in his mind for too many years over and over again.
He unbuttoned her cheongsam entirely, violently yanking the one button entangled with his shirt until both fell to the floor together.
Thread entangled with roundness, just as they were at that moment.
Going further down, Feng Chengxuan even reached under her dress, picturing the scene existing in his blurred memory from twenty-six years ago, tearing open the barriers and restraints between them directly.
The violence and speed, along with the cool breeze beneath her dress, made her whole body tense up, covered in goosebumps.
Feng Chengxuan, however, paid no heed to anything else, his hand started exploring inside her cheongsam, and as his lips wandered along her neck and ears, evoking layers of scorching tremors, he quickly explained, "Both children were conceived when I was drugged, in a state of lost senses."
Was he explaining to her?
Her heart pounded heavily.
"In these years, there has been almost no marital life between us, not even sharing a bed often; she doesn’t need it, and I have no interest. If you ask, it’s rare as can be."
Was he talking about his past with Li Zhi?
Her heart tightened heavily.
Finally, facing Feng Chengxuan, panting heavily, fiercely sucking her neck, wanting more, he revealed, "Three years ago, when I found out she started meddling in my third brother’s marriage, about to repeat my mistake, I separated from her, until now—"
Feng Chengxuan was intensely passionate, as if he could only soothe his current heat by devouring her entire body.
Yet halfway through his words, he stopped.
Su Xin’s heart trembled; had he really let so many years slip away just like that? Rare as can be? Hearing these words, her eyes couldn’t hold back their warmth.
She, a woman not married, had no personal life to speak of, but hadn’t he gotten married? Why was he preserving himself like a jade for anyone!
Heartache coursed through her tender heart, piercing through it.
Feng Chengxuan looked at the woman he hadn’t yet married in his arms, and then at his currently nonsensical status, his heart was pierced with unbearable pain...
His lips, in fact, had already wandered to the edge of hers; his fingertip still caressed her alluring lip line, wanting so very much to kiss her.
But every time he drew near slowly, he inevitably asked himself, should he really break this relationship? Should he truly bear the moral burden of infidelity? After all, he wasn’t divorced! To this day—not yet! Even if their relationship of feelings was genuine, legally, it already defied worldly standards!
He couldn’t bring himself to kiss; he just couldn’t.
Thinking of the wreck of a "wife" Li Zhi at home, he felt she owed him, something she could never repay in this lifetime! Whatever he did, it was always her own fault...
But then looking at Su Xin in his arms, he was unable to continue...
It wasn’t that he didn’t love, but he loved to the point where he couldn’t bear for her to suffer the slightest harm.
With trembling hands, he expended great effort to let go of her slender body, allowing her to stand on the ground.
After a pause, he then carried her to the bedroom, took off her high heels, tucked her into the blanket, and after tidying up his own clothes, said, "I’m leaving; I’ll come back for you after my divorce."
Su Xin’s heart trembled to the utmost.
In the night, even in such a state, he could restrain himself and turn back?
Seeing his extremely uncomfortable appearance, she knew that it was difficult to speak such words, yet she still said, "Why don’t you stay tonight..."
(Thank you all for the money bags, flowers, diamonds, recommendation tickets, monthly tickets, mwah! Love you all till the end of time)
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