Su Shuang's world is collapsing [Comprehensive]

Chapter 201

Saito was silent for a while again, as if he had a sense of helplessness of "what are you going to do when you mention this at this time", and then said after a pause: "...No, not at all. It's impossible to be angry about this..."

"Really. Then I can feel relieved~" Liu Quan suddenly turned his head to look at him with a smile.

"...So no matter what time, Ichi-kun can't be shaken?"

Saito was slightly startled, stopped abruptly, and stared at her in disbelief.

Liu Quan also stopped slowly, as if thinking for a while, before continuing: "In such an environment, occasionally there will be some gloomy and bad emotions. That's normal, everyone will feel at a loss. At that time... it seemed that the deputy chief once said naively, 'Maybe I have been dreaming a long and happy dream'—"

"What...?!" Saito was completely stunned, his eyes widened in confusion.

Maybe it's because he didn't think that in his mind, the deputy chief who is wise, powerful, and strong-willed would say such childish words, now Xiaoyi looks almost like "what you are talking about is the Arabian Nights" expression .

What Liu Quan said sounded like a shocking education to him, as if all three views had been washed away. He stood where he was, with a rare look of astonishment on his eternally calm and steady face.

For some reason, this expression made Liu Quan want to laugh even more.And now she was playing the role of a town girl who was originally a party lover, so she pursed her lips and smiled without restraint.

"From the impoverished ashram in the countryside all the way to the present, I heard that all the Shinsengumi are expected to be promoted to ministers recently. Such an achievement is beyond the imagination of everyone in the countryside."

She leaned forward slightly, lowered her voice and told the latest big news, and she saw that Saito's expression became gentler.

"Ah, I've also heard about that incident." He replied quietly, "Ito was still saying a few days ago, 'Fortunately, he escaped early, otherwise, if a shogunate minister wants to contact the fallen sage, how can he win people's trust' Woolen cloth."

Liu Quan sneered.

"Well, although it's hard to say whether his ambitions are wrong—this era is originally an era of chaos ahead, and it's okay for everyone to have their own ideas and choices—but he split the Shinsengumi without authorization and took the Shinsengumi It is definitely a big mistake to use it as a springboard for your own progress!"

Perhaps it was the first time from her [Deputy Chief Chef] that she heard such remarks that she did not oppose the Zunlan faction, Saito opened his eyes slightly.

"...Do you think that the idea of ​​honoring the king and falling behind the curtain is not a mistake?"

Liu Quan thought to himself, the course of history proves that this kind of thinking is indeed not wrong... On the contrary, the shogunate is about to die out, and when even your own generals want to give up the banner of the shogunate, only you are still stubborn Defend the ideals represented by this great flag... If it were not so, you would not have been wiped out, and you would have been able to live a good life in the new era, and display your talents as talented people. Marry a good girl, build a happy family, and then when you are very old, because of aging, you will be surrounded by your family, lie in a warm home, on a warm bed, close your eyes and say goodbye to the world...

However, it is useless to say anything now.

No, it's better to say that it can't be useful in the first place.The Shogunate is a big ship that is about to sink, and it is impossible to sail in any promising direction, and now, even the captain is planning to abandon the ship, only you are still fighting hard as if you are not giving up...

Because she suddenly lost her mind and thought of such a thing, under the dim light of the roadside stall, her face seemed to suddenly dim, and she lowered her gaze, and her long eyelashes formed a shadow under her eyes.

"There is no right or wrong in ambition, and there is no right or wrong in ideals. Choose the path you firmly believe in, and then work hard to the end. This is what a real man does."

she said, then looked up and looked directly at him.

"Ichikun, you will live to the end. No matter how dangerous and difficult it is, you must live to the end with a firm heart. I firmly believe that."

Saito was completely stunned.

Standing on the dimly lit street at night, as if he wanted to see Liu Quan's expression clearly, he slightly opened his eyes wide and stared straight into Liu Quan's eyes.

...I want to see her true thoughts from her eyes.Eyes don't lie, so the legendary proverbs say.

Suddenly, Liu Quan remembered that in Saito's personal line in the game, when he chose to stay in Aizu to defend Aizu Gong Matsudaira, if Chizuru also chose to stay, a picture of Saito holding Chizuru would appear Face, the CG that wants to see if she is sincere from her eyes.

Although it is impossible to have such a CG now, her determination will be a thousand times stronger than Chizuru-chan at that time, huh?

She also looked back at Saito without flinching, and even stared at him unwaveringly with a frank, almost provocative sharp gaze as if looking straight into the depths of his deep eyes. .

After a while, Saito suddenly let out a low sigh.

"...I don't have eyes that can tell what is right and what is wrong." He whispered.

"I don't have the confidence that I will always win against my opponent. Maybe when I am injured or when I am about to die, I will roll all over the floor because of pain."

He continued to speak, calmly confessing his weakness, which made Liu Quan dumbfounded for a moment in amazement.

However, he continued to ignore her clumsy appearance, and said to himself: "...you just said with confidence that 'Yijun will live to the end', I actually have no confidence in my heart to be able to do it." .”

"When you said those words, I was just thinking in my heart, 'Maybe in her mind, my image is such a perfect and powerful samurai', because you are also a person who practices swordsmanship, and you have this kind of reverence and respect for the strong. It's quite natural to be blindly convinced—"

Liu Quan didn't seem to wake up until this time, and slightly raised his voice to interrupt Saito's words.

"It's not like that."

Under the shadow of the lamp, the ordinary-looking girl threw the bamboo skewer she had finished eating dumplings at her feet, and suddenly stretched out her hand——lightly patted Saito's hand on the handle of the tachi knife at her waist.

Saito's body tensed up in an instant.Facing the crisis that his dagger might be touched or even snatched by the opponent, his body reacted almost subconsciously.If his rationality hadn't stopped his hand in time, he would really reach out like lightning and draw the knife to chop the person in front of him in an instant.

Juhe chopping was originally his favorite skill.

But the moment before he stretched out his left hand to draw the knife, he abruptly stopped his movements.

So, just like that, his left hand moved and dropped again, while his right hand was still pressed on the handle of the knife, covered tenderly by her hand.Her fingertips were a little cold, perhaps because she was surprised by his lightning-like movements and subconsciously wanted to draw the knife, her hand briefly stayed on the back of his hand, and did not withdraw immediately.

Then, he heard her laugh softly.

"Yi-kun, doesn't this have perfect eyes that can judge right from wrong?" She said with a gentle and calm voice.

"I am very happy to be trusted by Yi-kun like this."

"Now, your judgment of me is 'this person is a companion, trustworthy, and will never betray me', so you didn't pull out the knife to kill me right away, did you?"

Saito looked at her slightly surprised.Then, noticing that sight, she smiled and patted the back of his hand, then took it back.

"What a coincidence, my judgment on Yijun is the same."

"I remember the last time I was in Shimabara... after I finished my mission, I also thought about whether it was too much for me to rashly draw my sword and kill a rogue man after the deputy chief revealed his identity and before the backup arrived. If you are reckless, it will ruin the big thing instead."

As if she was remembering something, a slight smile appeared on the corner of her lips.

"Later, Mr. Shannan saw that I was so distressed, so he asked me a question."

"He said, 'When you made the decision to do it, did you think that was the best time, or the time when it had to be done. If so ... no matter how reckless it may seem in hindsight, you must have no regrets do it like that.'"

Saito took a deep breath in surprise.

"...So, how did you answer him?"

Liu Quan frowned, and replied in a confident tone: "I said, 'I am sure that time is the time to make a move, and I have no doubts about my decision to do it myself, that is, I must go without regret. Things to do'."

Saito was silent for a long time.

"Really... Do you think the decision at that time is something you will not regret in the future... Is it the most correct decision for you at that moment..."

As if such a simple retelling of something in the past had touched him greatly, his gaze deepened, as if he was carefully thinking about some kind of revelation these words brought him.

Liu Quan stared at his extremely young face, belatedly remembered that Saito seemed to be two years younger than himself.

So, let the big sister who is close to you muster the necessary confidence for you?

"Yes." She said resolutely, "That's why I said 'I'm sure Yi-kun will be able to live to the end' just now, and I said that because I thought it was the right idea."

Under the night, the girl's lips were pursed tightly, revealing a stubborn line.

"It's okay to cry when you're in pain, or to roll on the ground when you're about to die...the posture of struggling to survive is not ugly, because life is a precious thing. Although it can't be said that it is higher than the Shidou you pursue , However, Ichi-kun’s life is precious, and everyone’s life is precious...There is nothing wrong with pursuing such precious things. Just like if Ichi-kun sacrifices his life in order to choose Shidao in the future, there is nothing wrong with it.”

"If you think something is precious, there's nothing wrong with choosing it. It's not losing your way, but being true to your heart."

Saying so, the girl suddenly stood on tiptoe slightly, stretched out her hand - touched the soft heart on the top of the young man's head.

"A king who is so loyal to his heart is a strong one, right? It has nothing to do with whether I always lose to you in kendo trials—"

First, the young man who was dazed because his head was touched, finally became dumb when he heard the girl's last words.

"Although I understand everything you said... But what do you mean by touching my head?" He asked seriously, with [? ? ? 】It's almost concretized.

Liu Quan: "..."

He was killed again by the natural king.Is this really good?The deputy chief's twenty-sentence roar seems to be no match for the one-sentence question... The language skills in this world are so chaotic, I mean?

She casually replied: "Ah, touching the head, expressing 'friendly support and firm trust', it means——I'm on Yikun's side, trusting Yikun to make the best choice?"

Saito seemed to think about it seriously, as if he was really memorizing the knowledge about [Touching the Head] that Liu Quan had taught him.

Liu Quan: ...Oops, Xiao Yi said just now that he doesn't have the eyes to distinguish right from wrong...Actually, he made a mistake, he didn't have the eyesight to distinguish whether I was serious about my handsome lines or nonsense.

She hastily interrupted: "Speaking of it...it's been so long, Yijun should go back...the garrison still has access control, and the deputy chief is very angry recently, what if I commit seppuku if he commits the crime! I'm going back soon—"

Not knowing if it was her illusion, Saito looked at her helplessly.

"The deputy chief will not let you cut seppuku." After hesitating for a while, he still said seriously.

Liu Quan was taken aback for a moment, then laughed again.

"Of course, of course, I'm a woman, why cut my belly? Even so, the deputy chief's reprimanding will not be more gentle than others. I was scolded by him before I went out today?"

Saito looked even more helpless.

Following her in the direction of Wujo Street, Saito stopped and said in a deep voice, "It's inconvenient for me to send you off again when I reached the eaves with lanterns not far from the entrance of the house used for camouflage. Now, you can go back alone."

Before Liu Quan could speak, the door behind him creaked open, and the old woman whom Okada had inquired about this afternoon stood there with a basin of water in her hand, as if she was about to pour it on the street outside the door.

Saito pulled Liu Quan in time, dodged away from the old woman, then stared at the old woman for a few seconds without saying a word.

Liu Quan: ...! ! !

She was also rapidly making up stories in her mind, and the old woman grinned and opened her mouth.

"Oh my, the relationship is really good. It's only a few steps away from your house, so I worriedly asked 'Can you go back alone'. Why don't you worry about such a close place...Young really OK."

Saito: "..."

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