novelraw Chapter 1018 [Chapter 6] 32
Chapter 1018 [Chapter 6] 32
This call - this person who had disappeared for a long time and finally appeared, and this name that had been buried for many years - seemed to break a layer of magic spell covering them, and Hijikata's body suddenly trembled.
He took a big step forward suddenly, as if he wanted to rush to hug her tightly; but when his eyes fell on the blood-stained area on her front, his steps stopped abruptly.
He clenched his hands hanging on both sides of his body into fists, loosened them, and then clenched them again, repeating the process several times as if nervously, in order to hide the emotions and pain in his heart; finally, he He opened his mouth hoarsely.
"...You are really, stupid."
The "Baga" came out of his mouth, his voice was trembling, with a hint of a smile and a hint of tenderness similar to a sigh, which didn't make people feel any offense, but it made the heart tighten .
Her eyes flickered, and she slowly raised her eyebrows.
"Because it's Mr. Hijikata..." Her voice was equally hoarse and terribly hoarse, as if she was barely suppressing the surging emotions in her heart and the impulse that almost brought tears to her eyes, her voice was trembling.
"I have unavoidable difficulties... once again betrayed Mr. Hijikata's position, and there is no way to stand in front of Mr. Hijikata..."
She was partly apologetic, partly like an explanation, and she stopped abruptly before she finished speaking.
Because Tu Fang had already walked over with big strides, he hugged her tightly without saying anything.
"... Hijikata, sir?!" All her words were forced into her throat, her eyes widened in astonishment, her hands were hanging in the air, as if she didn't know what to do, she murmured shouted.
However, the arms that tightly encircled her and made her ache showed no sign of moving away.The face she had missed for so long was pressed against her cheek, his voice was low and full of magic, as if it wanted to hurt her heart.
"...Although I have desperately guarded many things along the way—" he said.
"However, since a long time ago, the person I most want to protect has become a—"
As if understanding the subtext he hadn't said, her body suddenly trembled.
Hijikata closed his eyes and smiled silently.
For so many years, what he had stirred in his heart countless times, what he had thought about countless times, and always regretted what he hadn't told her at the beginning, finally——finally—he finally had the opportunity to tell her.
Those sleepless nights, those moments of tossing and turning and being swept by pain, I can only hold the scarf on which she wrote the words, and endure the overwhelming pain in my chest... Such moments have accumulated so much that it makes He gradually understood one thing.
Next time... in this life, if there is a chance to see her again, I must—I must tell her all the things I couldn't say because of various stupid reasons in the past.
It doesn't matter who she is, it doesn't matter what she really is.It doesn't even matter why she came to Shinsengumi in the first place, what her family is like.
No matter what purpose she has for him, what plan she has to approach him, what she wants from him...all are not so important anymore.
He only knows that she did not betray the Shinsengumi, did not betray his beliefs and ideals, and did not harm anyone he values; Kondo-kun is not her fault, and even concealing the deep shadow cast on her by that family is not her fault.
He should have told her long ago—
"...Maybe from the moment I swore to protect you and walk side by side with you, I have—"
He paused.
It's not that he hasn't said the word "love" or "like" before.He also believed that she had not forgotten those words.Otherwise, she would not come back to him, although this time due to some difficulties, her position seems to be much more difficult than before——
What he wanted to express now was a deeper feeling.It is the truth that he has repeatedly realized in his heart when he thinks of her repeatedly over the years——
"...That's it, I can't do without you." He finally said.
Before the words fell, he felt her back suddenly stiff in his arms.
...Maybe you are very surprised?
Thinking of this, he smiled self-deprecatingly, but didn't let go of his arms around her.
It seems a bit shameful to still say such willful and childish things at this age...
However, compared with the lost and regained person, things like the face and dignity of being a man seem to be no longer so important.
At least, for a while before he said those words.
Thinking of this, he raised his right hand to stroke the snow-white hair on the back of her head.
Unexpectedly, although it turned snow-white due to the Rakshasa physique, the hair was still very smooth and soft, and it felt like light-colored satin to the touch.
"Maybe you see the fact that I can live in this world without you..."
He paused.
"Indeed, I'm not that weak... If I were such a weak and useless man, you wouldn't like it..."
A smile slowly crept into his voice.
"...But, it's better to have you." He leaned his cheek against her temple, and put his lips next to her ear, and said slowly like a sigh.
She seemed to freeze.
It seemed that she hadn't expected that what she would hear after being exposed was not a stormy reprimand, but such a sincere confession. She seemed to be stunned by excessive shock, and her posture was extremely stiff and unnatural.But as he spoke slowly, she seemed to be able to react and accept the fact gradually. When he said this, she finally raised her hands, crossed them around his back, and folded her palms together. Stick it on his back.
"Why is Mr. Hijikata so gentle..." Her voice sounded muffled because she buried her face in his arms, "It's so gentle that you don't even look like Mr. Hijikata—"
Tufang froze for a moment, then laughed.
Seems like she's said something like that before?
"I'm just telling the truth," he replied.
Smoke and dust billowed on the battlefield that had been repeatedly bombarded by artillery fire, and the air was filled with the smell of earth and choking gunpowder; the faint smell of blood and the wailing, cursing and roaring of people in the distance were also heard in the wind—sporadic The battle may still be going on somewhere; but he feels that after so many years, there is no better time than this moment.
The person hugged in his arms was alive, with warmth, voice, and even the smell of her hair stained with dust and blood after fighting hard, he missed him so strongly; he knew that if his face Buried deeply in her hair, near the hair curls, he could still faintly smell the faint, faint fragrance, similar to the cold fragrance on the frosted leaves in the winter morning - that was her original smell , which cannot be completely covered by blood or dust.
He also knows that if he puts his face close to her ear, she will jerk when the breath hits her ear--her ears seem to be ticklish; Have you learned the secret?
...Even if there was such a person, it doesn't matter.Because he was the leader who once commanded the Mibu Wolves, he has never been afraid of any opponent, and he has always had a way to win in dangerous moments——
He leaned close to her ear and said softly, "... Xue Ye."
There was laughter in his voice, and it seemed to be trembling; the intensity of emotion flooded his chest in a moment, and he could hardly control the calmness of his tone.
Immediately afterwards, he really felt her body tremble suddenly; then, he heard her muffled voice.
"... Mr. A Sui." She said.
Earthwork:! ! !
This title, which is much closer than "Mr. Hijikata" - no one has ever called him such a title in his life - suddenly hit his ears again, and he only felt dizzy for a while. There was some kind of intense and high emotion rolling in his chest that even he couldn't explain clearly, and he didn't intend to suppress it, which prompted him to turn his face suddenly, and pressed the lips that were close to her ear to her at once. On the already red, small and exquisite ear.
"...Ah." He said, pressing his lips tightly against her ear that had suddenly turned red and now seemed to be burning hot, his voice was hoarse and terribly hoarse.
"I'm right here," he said.
Liu Quan:? !
The deputy chief's lips were still on her ears, and his voice seemed to penetrate through her earhole for a moment, reaching her brain; although the sentence was short, it was very powerful, and it made her head buzz There was a buzzing sound, and tears welled up in his eyes in an instant.
At this moment, she finally forgot what her mission was and what she still needed to do in this world.
The whole world seems to shrink very small at once, and everything around is empty, even the fortress, the land, the trees, the sky... everything becomes blurred; the only thing that exists, the only clear... the only real ,it's him.
This is the person.This hugged her tightly, without asking a word like "where have you been all these years" or "why did you leave in the first place", but told her frankly as soon as he came up that he wanted to protect her If he wants to move forward side by side with her, it is best to have her in his life——
The deputy chief is not someone who is easy to be so frank.This further shows the value of his frankness at this moment.
Now he is like a large animal that has completely exposed his belly and vitals to her, and he doesn't even think about whether doing so will harm him, as if he wants to put his life into her hands General control——
So frank, so blunt, so persistent and honest, dominated by emotions, he readily revealed his last hole card and deep-seated feelings...
It's almost like it's about to be OOC?
The author has something to say:
February 9:
Come!The sugar you've been waiting for! 【Hello!
I'm trying my best to make the deputy chief OOC's crisis, and I also want everyone to eat sugar! [you are enough
In fact, part of the deputy director's lines in this chapter were born out of his lines in Hakuouki's theatrical version.
Of course I added a little sweetness!And a little vinegar! 【Kicked away
Next update: Another day, at 9:11 am on September [-].
2 bottle of Mudanzi;