novelraw Chapter 478
Chapter 478
"I hear you want to see me?" Xiaoqian pulls a chair and sits in front of him. Update fast nbnb please search IAU
"Yes, I want to say sorry to you personally. I should have told you before I went to the mountain area, but I didn't have the courage at that time. Now I --"
Li Zhen looked at his unconscious leg and said painfully.
"I've been punished. I think I should be responsible for my mistakes like a man. I owe you an apology."
"Why?" Xiaoqian asked.
"Because I once loved to miss a person, he caused you a lot of trouble, and I also went to blame you. What makes me more helpless is that my mother did so many wrong things to you and my cousins for me. If we say wrong step by step, we should start from me, the first wrong step, and give you a serious apology."
His tone is very sincere.
"Chen Xiaoqian, I'm sorry. Forgive me for not being able to stand up and bow to you like a man. Everything is due to me. Now I've been punished. I hope you and my uncle's family can reconcile with my mother. She has done a lot of wrong, but she is not a bad person. She just loves me too much, but I let her down."
Xiaoqian can tell that Li Zhen's apology is from the bottom of her heart. She immediately makes a judgment and absolutely can't agree.
Because he promised, Li Zhen would lose his faith in living.
"Li Zhen, if you really want to be like a man, why don't you live bravely? Do you think your mother will get better if you apologize to me? No, her psychological imbalance will be more serious. Maybe she will be crazy, especially if you leave. She has no way to live. I admit that I don't like it very much - sorry, to be frank, I hate your mother, but she doesn't seem to be at the point where she should die. "
Yu Mingming once said that Xiaoqian has a balance in her heart. She judges everything in the world according to her own unique standard. She will not let anyone bully her, but she will not lose the bottom line and retaliate others recklessly. She knows how much she should do.
No matter how disgusting my sister-in-law is, she won't die. Her sons Li Zhen and Xiao Qian can't like it or hate it. If he is a stranger without friendship, he shouldn't die.
"You know I want to commit suicide?" Li Zhen was surprised. Chen Xiaoqian saw what his parents didn't know?
"Don't forget what I do. I'm a psychologist. Although I have instruments in my field, it's far less than the equipment in the hospital for treating physical diseases. We make judgments more often, depending on here, here and here."
Xiaoqian pointed to her eyes, brain and heart.
"Well, psychiatrist, you are right. I do have this idea. Don't tell my parents that you are a psychiatrist. Then you should understand how painful I am at the moment. If I have to deal with the most basic physiological needs in the second half of my life by nursing workers, I will live a day of despair. It's the best choice for me to leave with dignity."
Li Zhen is dying now.
His family's conditions are very good. He can be employed as a nurse for his whole life. Some people will let him live for the rest of his life, but he is only alive. He has no dignity. His head is clear, but his body can't move. He can only watch himself pee in bed like a baby. It's terrible.
He will lie on the bed all his life. Maybe his father will buy him a high-end wheelchair. Someone will push him out, and then see all the people cast strange eyes. When his wheelchair goes away, someone will whisper. Lao Li's children are useless. You know, it's said that they can't urinate. A big man tut tut
He had suffered a lot of discrimination because of his sexuality. He was fed up with such back talk. His proud and honest father had been humiliated because of his sexuality. How could he let his parents face outside criticism because of their paralysis?
Xiaoqian understands Li Zhen's mood very well because she has received several similar patients in her previous life. Some of them need Xiaoqian's treatment after suffering from major changes and physical disabilities, so as to help them accept the reality and accept their imperfect self.
But there are a few that are not.
Li Zhen belongs to the latter.
Looking at Li Zhensheng's loveless expression, Xiaoqian didn't make any consolation, but echoed his point of view.
"Although there is no euthanasia in our country, my attitude towards euthanasia is neutral. I don't agree with it or oppose it. If we analyze specific things, no one can make correct or wrong judgments for others until that step. As a man, if you are paralyzed, it is really a heavy blow, you will have the idea of suicide, which is also a normal reaction. I occasionally come into contact with relevant cases, but when I treat them, my own heart is very painful. "
"Why?" Li Zhen is interested in Xiaoqian's words. This is the first time since his accident that he has the impulse to talk to others. Xiaoqian has a special magic power. No one can guess what she thinks, but she seems to know how to make people listen to her.
Li Zhen is not aware that he has become a patient of Xiaoqian.
"Because it is more painful to live than to die. Really, I have seen a high paraplegic athlete, who is trying to cooperate with my treatment to fight his depression, and fight against depression every time, so I can treat him once and I must drink half a kilo of Baijiu."
"You drink?" I can't see that Xiaoqian looks very good.
"I can't tell Yu Qingming about it. It's our secret. I'm not a drunkard, but everyone has to have a place to vent their emotions. At that time, if I was with Yu Qingming, I didn't need to relieve my drunkenness and vent my emotions. Our business was exposed to negative news every day. Although it was a work of soothing people's hearts, sometimes when we encountered something that couldn't be solved, I was also frustrated, Have a drink to calm yourself
If she had been with Yu Mingming in her previous life, drinking a woolen muggy drink, and directly stripped Xiaoqiang, she would have had a whole life and sweat a little, at least for a week.
This is also the way that Xiaoqian realized after breaking the chastity membrane. She suddenly realized that Xiaoqiang was too useful.
"If I don't have an accident, maybe we have a chance to be friends. Unfortunately," Li Zhen then found out that Xiaoqian is not the unattainable, arrogant and resourceful person in his imagination. She still has a childlike heart when she treats her work.
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